TOXIC(trapped passion) ✨( Completed/Editing)

Chapter 22.

*chapter 22*
.
Background music ? for this scene is your power by Billie eilish....

I felt my soul leaving my body and in my head I was like this is it I'm gone forever. At that moment I had alot of mixed emotions running through my mind, what was love really? Is this what everyone who claims they love their significant other treat them. I don't mind losing my soul in the hands of my lover but the question is why would he even kill me when he says he loves me and I'm the best thing that's ever happened to him and wouldn't want to lose me to another.

In all my life I have always been patient with everything and everyone, planning all the small details of my life because in the end they will be the one to form the big part of it. He was perfect in the beginning, I fell in love with his gentleness, kindness and words. I saw us having a great future together and having so many kids running around the house while he writes his books and I making snacks for the family. I had it all planned out in my head because I'm a planner I plan my life before it happens.

Morning after the incidence had happened Sean layed there next to me the whole night and he drowned his sorrows in caffeine and weed.

I tried to open my eyes and the rays of light which penetrated through the curtains hit directly into my eyes and I closed them again.

I try for the second time and this time I manage to open my right eye and the left one is swollen due to the beating I had received yesterday and was unable to open it.

I feel like I have blood clots all over my body and everything hurts alot. I can barely lift a finger on my own and it feels like I was run over by a truck.

I try to talk and it feels like my jaw bone has been dislocated and this feels just sucks. I never thought I would ever go through such situations and looking at myself lying on the ground lifeless fighting for my life is unbelievable. "I love him" these where the words that were running through my head and in the moment I didn't want whether to leave or stay for good. My heart wanted to stay but my body couldn't just take it and if this happened again which obviously would I don't think I would be lucky enough to survive the next beating.

Sean.

"babe, you're awake" he said these words while wiping tears from his face ? he had been crying the whole time I could see it from his swollen eyes which had dark circles around them.

"can I get you anything? Do you want me to take you to the doctor or anything like that? Babe I'm really sorry for what happened I don't really know what I was thinking" he said these words with so much empathy in his tone and I could tell that he was really sorry, atleast he made me believe it.

Sam.

"I... I...." keeps quiet for a few seconds just to catch some. Breathe and find the strength for talking.

"I would love to have some water" these words came out after so much difficulty.

Sean.

"OK babe let me get you some water, I will be back in a sec."

"here is the water, come let me help you get up so that you can drink it nicely"

Sean tries to get Sam to a sitting position so that she can drink some water but it was worse than he thought it was. Sam cried in pain while he tried to lift her up and they both ended up crying because it was too much for her to handle.

Sean.

"I'm really sorry my love please forgive me, it will never happen I promise you this babe."he tries to hug her but she is in pain so he let's her go and move away from her and start pacing back and forth in the room looking all confused and hurt with tears running down his face.