Misfit

XXVIII Part 1

Tahimik si Theo buong byahe pauwi ng bahay ngunit may mga ngiti siya sa labi niya. Ako naman nakasimangot lang kasi iniisip na para siyang tanga.

"Alam mo para kang tanga. Kanina ka pa nakangiti d'yan." Iritadong sabi ko sa kan'ya.

"Sinong hindi ba naman kikiligin sa'yo?"

"Like everyone? Except sa'yo."

"S'yempre mahal mo kasi ako." Confident na sabi niya.

Tinapakan ko ang gas.

"Odi—"

Maya-maya pa nakarating na kami sa bahay at tahimik lang akong pumasok while Theodore was staying outside. Mukhang na-shock. Ang OA talaga nito, parang 'di racer.

"Anong oras tayo babalik?" He asked.

"Around 5pm? Basta bago mag-start ang concert we'll be there." I said while putting down my keys.

"D'yan ka lang, I'll be back."

Kinuha ko ang laptop sa kwarto ko at bumaba para samahan si Theo sa sala. Kumunot ang noo niya sa'kin.

"I just quickly need to type something." I said.

"At may utang ka sa'kin dahil sa ginawa mo kanina." He pouted.

Dinalhan kami ng maids' ng pagkain, though busog pa 'ko dahil kanina pa ako kain ng kain sa school.

I typed all of the things I did when I was at my place while Theo was sitting next to me enjoying the food.

I was almost done when I felt his arms wrap around my waist. Kinunotan ko siya ng noo.

"You look so stressed about what you're typing."

"Not really. Sanay na 'ko sa mga gan'to."

"Are you okay? Akala ko ba no-work this week since it's school fest."

"Yes. Need ko lang 'to gawin kasi may nangyari. I just need to fix up things quickly."

He hugged me tightly, I sighed. I finished up the things I need to do and put down the laptop.

"What's up with you? You're extra clingy today." I said to Theo, because he is. Andd it's sometimes scary kasi kung yakapin niya ako para akong mawawala sa kan'ya. Baka nga siya pa maunang mang-iwan.

"I just feel like there something you want me to know but don't know how to say it." He nuzzled his nose on my cheeks.

"Theodore," I said gently... for once.

I held both of his cheeks and he looked at me like he's tired.

"You don't have to carry my burdens, Theodore. You don't have to concern yourself in matters I can take care of. I will tell you when I can't take the burden anymore."

He sighed and he did the same thing as I did to him, earlier.

"But, Odium, you always can take everything and you're good at hiding it. Malakas lang ako makaramdam kaya nalalaman ko."

I don't particularly like our position, nasa sofa kami facing each other while I found myself sitting on his lap for some fucking reason I don't know. He was embracing my waist.

I can hear his breathing, slow and deep. It's like something is conflicting in his mind.

"Just say it, Theodore."

"Odium, why do you have to go through all of this when you're still young?"

"I'm already 20!" I said.

"I know. But, the burden is so heavy it seems like you're in your mid-30s when in fact you should be enjoying your youth."

"Para namang ang layo ng age gap natin?" I rolled my eyes at him, he sighed.

"I'm 22."

"Kung makapagsalita 'to." The talk was getting too serious and I don't really know how to answer his questions.

"Odium," He called me in a soft voice. Nawala ang kamay niya sa waist ko and it went on my chin making me face him entirely.

"You shouldn't be burdened by all of this." He said seriously.

"You have me, Odium. It's okay if you cry, feel vulnerable around me or even let your frustrations out. We'll figure things out. Or let me just listen to you to lessen your burdens."

He wasn't making me look at him so I layed my head on his shoulder.

I can smell his musky scent; his jawline was defined in this angle plus his nose. Lord, you know I didn't deserve this. Why did you send me this one?

"Theo, you know how I have issues, right?" I was gathering up all the courage to say all the things I want to say.

"You wouldn't..." I paused and took a deep long breath. "You wouldn't look at me the same when I tell you."

"Then if you're that scared, just share what you are ready to share."

"Okay."

This type of conversations was so new to me, as a child growing up, I didn't get to tell my feelings to anyone. Since I grew up knowing that people only come to me because of my family. I learned that the hardway.

"Something happened, Theo. Uhm... I can't go on to detail right now, but something happened that it's my fault. And the price to pay is this. I have to sacrifice my life for this. I don't wanna bother Kuya Gian because he's living the life outside of our parents' shackles."

I felt him hug me tighter.

I couldn't look at his expressions since I was laying my face down on his shoulder.

"This is actually not that hard to manage but it's quite time consuming and sometimes stressful."

"..."

"For what I've done, compared to this burden... It's much more insignificant. I can do this Theodore. You see how all of the companies under our corportaion got bigger when I handled them, right? It was because of me."

"But you don't sound happy, love." I paused because he called me like that.

"Because I'm not. All these achievements don't matter if you're alone, right?"

"Theodore, I don't know what you saw in me and why'd you seriously chose me despite the personality I have... and it scares me sometimes that you're too good to be true." I felt my heart sinking just saying that.

"I have a lot of issues despite how everyone sees me. The heiress of the Adesso's corp. The cold-hearted bitch in our school. Or even just by merely existing in my family, I'm still considered the blacksheep despite all of the things I've done for it."

I raised my head, now to face him. I looked at his soft brown eyes looking at me straight to myself.

"Odium, ever since we started being together..." he paused and fixed my hair behind my ear.

"You have me."

Theodore, I know. That's why I'm scared... cause what if I don't anymore?

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a/n: Hi! It's been awhile I still don't know if I have readers or not but thank you for staying with me still despite the lack of updates. Sorry as well as it is short since it will have 2 parts. The next one might be longer though because it will feature the concert.

Anyway, an earlier chapter revealed O's age but I never got to explain why she's still in Grade 12 despite her being 20, it's because she stopped for 3 years to study for their company. And she's literally a prodigy, bale for formality 'yong pag-aaral niya. And since she doesn't really get to experience a normal life, she wanted to graduate on a normal high school.

On the other hand, Theodore is 22 because he had to stop in the midst of his schooling to work for his sister.

Hope these clear things up.

Thank you for being with me.

love, RNDM.