Chapter 37

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-------The next day--------

I knocked on Loki's door while Bucky and Steve were spending some time together. I was wearing a cute outfit and it was beautiful weather.

"Come in," I heard Loki say and I stepped into the room closing the door behind me

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"Come in," I heard Loki say and I stepped into the room closing the door behind me. Loki was writing something on the desk and I walked behind him and put my hands on his shoulders, I kissed his cheek and he smiled at me.

"What are you writing?" I asked curiously hugging him from behind. "A letter," he responded sarcastically.

"To who?" I asked again for clarification. "My mother," he responded softly.

"That's sweet, do you miss her?" I kept asking. "I do, a little bit," he said uncertainly. "Don't be like that, I get it that you miss her," I told him and he chuckled again.

"What did you do today?" Loki asked now. "I trained with Steve, Nat and Clint are still gone until tomorrow, Tony and Bruce are still working on a thing I don't get," I explained

"I only ask what you did, you only trained?" Loki said. I sighed at his behaviour.

"I cleaned my bathroom, and my room, I changed the sheets, and I began preparing a room for Bucky, he seems really stable today and I just want him to have his own space," I started explaining. "And before you tell me there are cleaners, I know, I am one of them," I said jokingly. I was still hugging him from behind while he was still writing but I wasn't reading it.

"What are you thinking about?" Loki asked after a while of silence. "Nothing," I lied awfully. Loki put the letter away and turned around and lifted me, I had my legs around his waist and he kissed me. A second later he threw me on the bed and I squeaked not expecting it and he sat down next to me and I hugged his waist while laying down.

"What's wrong?" he asked softly while stroking my hair with his fingers. "Why?" I asked back. "You hug more when something is bothering you," he said. I chuckled against his chest knowing he was right.

"My father, I just don't understand it," I told him honestly. "You shouldn't overthink this, it's not good for you," he said softly and I knew he said it out of worry.

"I know, but just... why did he take me again? he used something on me, my magic was completely gone and I was so weak, and I couldn't attack him, it just doesn't make sense," I explained. "Bucky told me they still have control over me with a chip in my brain because I was too much for them to control in the beginning, and I want to know about it," I continued. I was probably oversharing but what was the point of keeping things from Loki? He would find out the truth eventually.

"I know you want answers, but I can't let you go back, they will never tell you everything and they will kill you," Loki said worryingly. "They won't kill me, they will use me to kill you, that's worse," I said dryly.

"No it's not, but doesn't Bucky know more?" he asked. "Not yet, because of the memory wipes, but maybe it'll come back to him, and for me as well," I said regretting telling him the last part the next second.  I sat up and looked at him and he looked with a what-didn't-you-tell-me face and it was terrifying.

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