I want to be loved by you - Ziam

Confessions

If you came here, it's probably 'cause you liked the first chapter, so thanks :D Hope you like this one and sorry for not uploading that quickly, I will upload the next chapter sooner! Anyway, go ahead and enjoy some Ziamness:

“Liam, I, umm, need to tell you something…”

Liam’s face turned from one of happiness to one of concern almost instantly. “What’s up Zayn?” he put an arm around the other’s neck pulling him closer. Zayn resisted the urge to melt into his touch; that was not really what he needed right now. Instead, he pulled away ever so slightly so that Liam’s arm was hanging loosely across his shoulders.

“Well… umm… it’s just… you see…” suddenly, Zayn was hit by the reality of the situation. It had all become very real, very fast and he was starting to get worried. He was completely lost for words as Liam began to look more worried when he saw his friend’s struggle. To most of the fans, Zayn was known as the ‘bad boy’ of the group; but when he was around the other boys he showed a side that the fans rarely saw. He was really sensitive, more insecure and vulnerable; and Liam hated seeing his best friend like that.

“It’s alright Zayn, you can tell me anything; I’m your best friend. Just tell me what’s on your mind.” Liam urged, connecting his eyes with Zayn’s again and giving him a warm smile, urging him to continue.

Zayn relaxed considerably and swallowed, “I don’t really know how to put this Liam; I have never felt this way for anyone before, ever. It’s only you; The way your eyes light up when you talk to me, your perfect voice that I could listen to all day and never get tired of, your caring personality and the way you love and care for each and every one of our fans. I’m jealous of your perfect abs, your beautiful smile, and the way you can look unbelievably amazing in any situation possible. We have always been close but you mean so much more to me than you would ever imagine. Without you I would be lost. I don’t know if I would be able to get through all of this without you by my side. You’ve always been there for me, no matter what. You are my everything Liam, and I know this may make things complicated between us but I’ve held it in long enough so, Liam…” he paused at the end of his little speech for a moment before saying the last three words “I love you.” There, you’ve poured you heart out to Liam. Zayn’s brain seemed to congratulate him.It felt good, as if a weight had been lifted from his shoulders, but at the same time he felt nervous as hell. What would Liam say? Would he reject him? Would he tell him that he was the love of his life and they should spend the rest of their lives together and get married and grow old together? Zayn dearly hoped it was the latter.

Zayn turned to look up from the floor, where he had been intensely staring whilst he spoke, to look up at Liam who had sat motionless next to him on the couch, his eyes on him, listening to him. His expression looked shocked, worried and unsure all at the same time. Zayn looked expectantly at him, unsure of whether he wanted him to voice his thoughts or not.

After a short moment, Liam spoke up, “Zayn, this is hard for me. I really don’t know what to do…” he looked into Zayn’s eyes and saw desperation and a bit of betrayal in them. He knew that Zayn had just emptied his heart to him, yet he couldn’t even find the right words to say. Zayn leaned in ever so slightly towards him; hanging on his every word, this response was the most important words ever said to him. If Liam rejected him now, he didn’t know what he would do; he needed Liam. Without him, his whole world would come crashing down and Zayn didn’t know if he could cope with that. “I like you Zayn, an awful lot, and life without you would just be… well I couldn’t imagine it. The thing is, I was 100 percent sure that I was straight, until a minute ago. You looked so vulnerable when you told me how you feel about me; something stirred inside me, I’m not sure what it was but, well, I really like you… but I’m not sure if it’s in a friendly way or… something more. I’ve never experienced anything like this and… I’m not too sure what to do…” Liam drifted off.