I want to be loved by you - Ziam

Coming Out

Liam POV:

I was round with Zayn at his house, the rest of the boys were on their way round. Now was the time. We were going tell them everything. When they came in, we gathered in the living room, around the small coffee table.

“So, why did you invite us round” Harry asked.

“Well, we invited you round to tell you that… Zayn and I are dating.” I announced confidently as he put his arm round my waist.

They looked shocked for a moment before Louis exclaimed “What? Did you not think of talking to us about this first? Did you not think about how much this could change us?”

“Do you know how much hate we’ll get if anyone finds out” Now Harry was shouting at us too. “We’ve all worked so hard to come this far and now you want to risk ruining all that just for a stupid love?”

I stood in shock, this wasn’t supposed to happen; they were supposed to accept us so we could live happily without fear of being judged by our best friends. I looked over to Niall, he was happy for us before. But now he just stood expressionless, letting us be shouted at by our band mates. Maybe he didn’t accept us and just said he did to make us happy or maybe he was just too easily swayed by the opinions of others.

I looked to Zayn; he had the same sad and shocked expression on his face. He gave my waist a soft squeeze before looking at me apologetically and taking a few steps away from me. My heart was breaking, he was leaving me again. I don’t think I can take this. This can’t be happening, it can’t! No.

NO!

I sat up straight in my bed; my body was shaking and dripping with sweat. Tears were running down my face and my hair was dishevelled. I let out a small whimper as I remembered what my mind had forced me to see.

All I can think is; I’m so glad that wasn’t real. I know it was only my subconscious messing with me, but what if that really was how the boys would react when we told them. They wouldn’t do that, right? They had more concern for our feeling than they had in my dream. But that didn’t stop me from worrying. Why did I have to have that dream? Yesterday I was all ready and willing to tell them. Now I was just nervous…

Zayn POV

When Liam came round before the others he immediately run into my arms and hugged me tightly. He sobbed slightly into my shoulder and I rubbed his back soothingly.

“What’s wrong?” I asked.

“What happens… If the others don’t accept us?” He answered my question with a question.

“What makes you think like that? Of course they will accept us, they’re not homophobic or anything so why would they have a problem?” I said, wanting to assure him that everything was going to be ok.

“They might be worried about the image of the band.” He explained. Sure, Liam and I being together might cause some fans to leave. But then, they weren’t proper fans to begin with if they would dislike us just because of our sexual preferences.

“I’m sure they will be nothing but supportive, they do love us y’know,” I said.

“You won’t leave me, will you? Don’t leave me…” Liam said, sounding weak and incredibly venerable.

“Of course not baby. I wouldn’t leave you, no one can break us apart.” I said giving him a quick hug then a peck on his lips.

A few minutes later I heard a knock at the door. I opened it to reveal Harry and Louis with Niall standing just behind them. I let them all in and they made themselves comfortable on my couch.