I want to be loved by you - Ziam

The Party (Part 2)

Zayn POV

I was shocked, glued to the spot.

It was Liam…

I stood staring at them for a short while longer; still, Liam didn’t pull away. Time had slowed down, almost to a stop. My head was filled with so many emotions at once; it was hard to describe what I was feeling. But the emotion that was currently taking over me was hurt.

Al of a sudden, time sped up, and fast, as my legs started moving. I ran out of the room, running out of the club. I didn’t know where I was going, just that I wanted to get out of there, away from what I had seen, and fast.

After a few minutes I slowed down to a walk, giving my emotions a chance to roam free in my head. Why would Liam do this to me? Did he have feelings for Katie? Did that mean he didn’t love me? I can’t believe that I actually thought that he could ever love me. I was so stupid, I knew it was too good to be true. But what was he going to do tomorrow if hadn’t seen him? Would he just continue as we had been for the past week? Or would he tell me that it had all been a game and he didn’t really love me?

Is that what this was to him, a game? ‘Cause it sure as hell wasn’t for me! I loved him; I had for too long to remember now. That feeling I would get when we had intimate moments together or he would kiss me; the feeling that he actually loved me back, was sometimes too much to handle. That’s all I wanted in life, just to be loved by Liam…

But I knew now that he didn’t love me back. He had proved that to me back in the club. I can’t help but blame myself; I should’ve noticed that this was too good to be true, he obviously didn’t love me. He only didn’t want me to get hurt, that’s why he went along with this. But now look what; he hurt me. So he might as well have just told me the truth when I confessed my feeling to him. That way he wouldn’t have given me false hope. But now I’m starting to even question our friendship. He shouldn’t have lied to me; that would inevitably hurt me sometime sooner or later. Also he shouldn’t have gone and snogged that girl, when he said he was dating me! He’s supposed to be the sensible one of the group, doing the right things. Well that’s obviously not the case!

Why didn’t he just tell me the truth; that he didn’t like me in that way from the start. I would have been hurt initially, but I would’ve got over him eventually. And that’s what I must do now; get over him, pretend the last week of my life just never happened. It would be hard and hurt a lot emotionally, but just remembering him back in the club, assured me that I couldn’t just go on as we had been.

I continued walking, until I tripped on the curb. I landed face down on the pavement. My head started throbbing, whether it was from the fall or my hangover that would become apparent in the morning; I don’t know. But I couldn’t find the energy to get up, I was exhausted, so I simply stayed lying on the ground thinking… I just had to face the truth; Liam didn’t love me, he never had.

Liam POV

I pulled away from Katie. God; that was some kiss! She looked over my shoulder, then back at me, a confused look on her face.

“What’s up with Zayn?” She asked a few moments later. What? Why would she bring Zayn up now? I began to panic, I had completely forgotten about Zayn. That makes me sound like a horrible person; just forgetting about my boyfriend and going and kissing some other girl. I blame it on the booze. I don’t often drink, and never this much, so I’m blaming my actions on the drink. God, I am a terrible person…

“What do you mean?” I asked, nervously.

“Well he saw us, and then ran out of the room shocked.” Katie explained. I froze. Oh shit, he had seen. How was I going to explain this to him? Hell, I don’t even know myself why I had done it. Oh god, I am so fucked…