What if - MATURE rating

Manner Of Death - Sorn and Tat Part 2

Sorn (Sorawit) POV

He kissed me! He actually kissed me!

Those thoughts whirled around my head like a whirlwind as I laid there staring up at my ceiling. I faintly recognised the sound of the door opening and closing but I couldn't focus on it until it was too late.

Once I realised he had left I raced downstairs in time to see him turn a corner up the road and disappear. Quickly, taking out my phone, I dialled his number, hoping he would answer. Nothing!

After the third unsuccessful call, I put my phone away and went inside. My head felt heavy as I crawled onto my bed and screamed into my pillow.

Ever since we faced almost certain death together I have felt things towards him but I pushed them down choosing to ignore them.

I've always known I liked guys so it was no surprise that I would like him after he risked his life for me. Especially, when he demanded he gets shot first over me. However, I never thought a cool, tough guy like him would like a guy like me. I've always seen girls around him so I assumed he was straight.

Maybe he still is but maybe because of the intense and scary situations, we have faced during the past few weeks he thinks he has feelings for me. Feelings that will go once he realises he isn't into guys.

He'll find a girl he likes and then laugh at how he thought he liked me. Maybe, he will insist on just being friends once he gets over it.

Not liking that thought, my stomach decided to twist and turn until I felt queasy. Maybe I could talk to Nam about this or better yet Doc. Bun or even Khun Tan. After deciding to go speak to either the doc or the teacher tomorrow I forced myself to make and eat something then jump into the shower before crawling into bed and dreaming of my first kiss.

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As usual Dr Bun was at the hospital when I found him.

"Oh, Sorawit, why are you here? Are you sick?" he asked.

I shook my head and rubbed the back of my neck whilst shifting my weight onto each foot. He eyed me quietly as I tried to figure out how to start a conversation about such a personal topic.

"P' ....." I couldn't find the words.

"Does this have anything to do with Nong Tat?" he asked.

My head shot up and my eyes went wide.

"Wow! P' are you a fortune-teller?" I asked, making him chuckle.

"No, Sorn. Tat messaged Tan yesterday saying that he won't be around for a few days," he told me. "When Tan asked him why he never replied."

A heavyweight filled my chest and my shoulders sank. P'Bun clasped my shoulder and told me to follow him. He took me into one of the empty hospital rooms and told me to sit down.

Once he was sat I blurted everything out in one go. What I felt for Tat, how I thought he was straight, the girl that hit on him and how angry he was, as well as his reaction when I said he should go out with her, the kiss and then him leaving.

I really hoped he understood everything because I don't think I could organise my thoughts enough to say it again. Everything was just a jumble of emotions and confusion.

"Sorn, I can't say for sure as I haven't known Tat for long but I think he likes you. From what I've seen I believe he does. Maybe he was angry because you were suggesting he have a girlfriend when he wants to be with you," the doctor suggested.