What if - MATURE rating

La Cuisine - Jirachin and Peem Part 2

Peem POV

"Well, if it comes to that, then hopefully, you can move on knowing that we both tried and we won't lose each other," he offered.

Jirachin stared at me as he waited for my answer. His eyes were pulling me and I had to look away. I stood up and started to pace. My mind whirled with so many conflicting thoughts.

Do I pass up this chance and always wonder what could have been? Or do I take him up on his offer and run the risk of having my heart broken?

I wondered if I could protect my heart whilst giving this a try. Could I trust him with it? Jirachin was always honest and careful with the women he dated. Would he treat me the same or differently?

"Peem?" he asked when I stopped.

"I need to know something before I can decide," I started, sitting back down.

"What is it?" he asked.

"If I do agree to this, what exactly would happen?"

"Meaning?" he asked.

"I mean what would be allowed? Going on dates? or being physical? Like holding hands or more," I explained.

"Oh, you mean sex," he smirked.

"Well yeah, for this to work and for you to see if you could be into a guy, we would need to kiss and possibly have sex for you to know."

Chin looked like he was thinking it over and my heart hammered away as I waited anxiously.

"Do you want to kiss me, Peem?" he teased.

My mouth suddenly went dry as my gaze automatically shifted to his lips. His smile turned into a smirk and I guessed that was the answer he needed.

"Do it, let me see if I can handle it."

Hesitantly, I stood and he followed me up. My lungs felt like they were frozen as I moved closer to him. His hand came up to cup my face and I gasped. The heat of his skin thawed my body and I felt like I could breathe again.

My lips tentatively touched his and my body felt alive. I pulled back to gauge his reaction and he was smiling softly at me.

"Is that all you got, kiss me properly Peem, how can I know with only that?" he told me.

Without hesitating, I pressed harder and he responded. I felt his tongue stroke against my lips and it broke the last of my resolve. My tongue wrapped around his as I pushed his body backwards. His back hit the wall as I pressed my body flushed against his.

My hands gripped his face as I angled his head so I could taste more of him. A moan escaped one of us but I was too far gone to figure out who.

Chin's hands rested on my hips but I wanted him to move. Did he not want to? Was he just humouring me? That doubt clung to me so I pulled back from the kiss. I took a step back and turned around.

"Peem?"

His voice sounded a bit rough and it went straight to my cock.

"Peem?" he asked again with a stronger voice. "Is everything ok? Did I do it wrong?"

I couldn't help the laughter as I turned to him. His eyes flicked down to my crotch and I blushed. Jirachin smirked as he stepped closer.

"Is that why you stepped back? Did that kiss make you hard?" he teased.

"I didn't step back because of that," I gulped. "I ... well you ..."

I had no idea how to explain why I stepped back.