Book 10: Rat a Tat

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I. "No thesis exists for burning cities down at such a rampant rate; no graphics and no fucking PowerPoint Presentations. So they just DIY'd their shit and built their own bombs."

18 March 2015, Wednesday @ 14:34

Do people just take advantage of me because I'm nice? Am I just that comfort for people who need someone who'll give them maximum affection and attention for very little in exchange? How many people in my life am I currently oblivious to that are really just putting up with me as opposed to actually caring?

I wish I knew the answers to every one of these questions. Yes, I'm having a very bad low today and I cannot seem to bring myself to write anything but this shitty journal that no one sits and reads because if they did they'd actually see some very valid life lessons.

Just because I was scum doesn't mean I am now. There it goes again, victimising myself. Oh poor me. Fuck that. I'm tired and I'm done. I put so much effort into shit that NO ONE bothers showing me half back. From now on - no one gets a thing from me.

This is who I am now. Ice.

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