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Prose 027: "To the Guy I Almost Had a Happy Ending With"

Every time someone asks me what my greatest regret in life is, I automatically say that I regret not being brave enough to fight for what I really want.

Whenever that happens, my friends would think I was talking about class recitations and mock debates, probably because they knew I've always been mad at myself not having that kind of confidence back in our school days.

But most often than not, during those first few seconds that the question is being processed in my mind, there's this brief moment of hesitation that brings me back to the time when we're still happy together.

Many years have already passed, and I'm not quite sure if you'll smile or even look at me if our paths happened to cross again someday. Hopefully now, you've already reached your dreams and you're living your life spending time with the people you love and who loves you back.

For me, I can say that I'm happy and that I've gone on with my life too.

I don't blame myself anymore thinking that I'm not enough, nor do I resent you that you've suddenly changed. I finally got tired of wondering why we stopped talking to each other, and why we can never go back to the way we were before.

I'm no longer that girl who blames fate or the universe or the stars for all the heart breaks and scars I obtain from my wrong decisions in life.

But it would be a lie if I say that I don't wonder anymore what could have happened if I was brave enough to talk to you back then.

If I asked you then, would you have answered me honestly?

Would you have said sorry?

Could we have been friends again?

Useless now, I know, but I still write about it sometimes.

Many times have I told myself before that it is inevitable passage of time that forcefully took our happy ending away with it.

But that's a lie.

The truth is, both of us chose to just let time heal all the pain we've inflicted to each other's hearts because we're too afraid to reach out and set things straight when we still had the chance.

Time doesn't really change everything.

I'm grateful that I've finally realize that, even if I was a little too late-- and even though I had to lose you in the process.

- Aries Writes, "To the guy I almost had a happy ending with."