Wrong Person, Write Love.

Prose 036: Karmic Connection

I was sixteen when I first heard about karmic connections, but it was four years later that I truly understood what it really meant.

Maybe back then, I was just deeply intrigued by those two words that's why I tried to read more about it— or more probably I was just trying to look for any reason that can explain all those feelings I was never really able to fathom.

Karma, perhaps that's what you really are to me.

I've done my best to protect my heart for so long. I've always been the 'runner,' the one who's always been late to realize what I was feeling and what I should have said and done; someone who'd always prefer to just shrug everything off and never take the risk.

You, on the other hand, has always been very keen and brave. And when I met you, your bright smile that's been etched in my mind lit up the darkest places of my pathetic heart and helped me work through my unresolved fears.

You had the key to my heart, and it was because of you that I was able to bring out my truest self. So in return, I did my best to be your safe haven, someone who will love and accept you for who you really are; not just for whom you are pretending to be.

I've always had this feeling that I should do my best to make you happy, to let you realize that you deserve the best, and to protect you from anything or anyone that could harm your actually fragile heart— even though that happiness means that I have to get out of your life.

Perhaps, we've met each other before, in a lifetime where I was the one who hurt and broke you beyond repair.

Just like what Debbie Nagioff had said, "a lesson has to be learned and a debt repaid. This can be extremely painful, but necessary for spiritual growth. Once the lesson is learned, the relationship has done its job."

You fixed me when I broke you, and so I fixed you though you broke me too. But I have no intention of breaking you or letting myself be broken again. Never again— especially not by you.

Let's call it quits now, so we can finally end this painful cyclical connection we have. We've finally learned our lessons. I've learned mine, and I hope you'll forever remember yours too.

So thank you, darling. Thank you for letting me realize that I can be a risk-taker too; that I can love and be brave enough to let you go.

That true love will always stay, with or without the person who made you feel it.

- Aries Writes, "Karmic Connection."