Wrong Person, Write Love.

Prose 001: Fall for You

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"He asked me why I was so interested in him, so I told him it's because he's beautiful... beautifully sad."

- Aries

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Draft 008

February 24, 2019

"Sometimes, just sometimes, I think of you, of us, and what could have been if you just felt the same way towards me. Oh wait— let me rephrase that.

Most of the time, I still daydream of us. I guess I'm still so stuck up with my fantasy of our love story. Whenever I am alone, I imagine you sitting beside me, both of us smiling and breathing in comfortable silence.

You can be standing in front of me, looking through my eyes and knowing to yourself how much I truly felt for you. You can also be playing your guitar; with me singing along the tune of JRA's "You and I."

You could've glanced at me while you work on your assignment, then lean on me and smile as you motioned me to fix your hair. Maybe, just maybe – we can also stand beside each other, letting the cool breeze wash all our worries and fears away, and savor the moment as our hearts beat as one.

But just like what I have mentioned earlier, all that they could ever be is a daydream. A fantasy that no one else but me and God knows. It's just a fantasy that couldn't and would never come true for you and I were too far from each other.

I may stand at the back of the room, but I'd be just stealing glances of you as she stood there beside you, holding your hand and feeling the love I always wished for in a shooting star.

Maybe that's it.

You were a star. I've stared at you every night and you were there. I've always felt that you were close, that I am close enough to touch you. You make me feel like I'm flying, steady, seeming inches towards where you were. I am close enough to reach you, and I've doubted if there's something else that could go wrong. I felt magic, on this I was sure.

Almost, I almost had a dream come true.

But just as I was about to reach out and hold you in my arms, we both fell. There you are, suddenly turning into a shooting star and fell to make someone else's dreams come true.

And there I was, lost of all the magic and immediately started to fall back into the earth. It felt like burning, and

I felt like drowning at the same time.

I crashed into the deep sea, an ocean of loneliness—and then I saw you being caught by the girl of your dreams. I wanted to reach out and cry, but I just can't.

Therefore, all I will do is close my eyes for a while and feel the stinging pain in my chest, before finally opening my eyes and waking up.

And then again, I will look away from you and act as if I never really cared and nothing really happened at all.

I never stared at you.
I never flew.
I never fell.
I never got hurt.

And so I never wrote."

- Aries, 'Fall For You.'