The Addict And The Shadows

Chapter Six - An Addict?

I began to stir from my sleep, a pounding headache very much there and the rise of bile in my throat. Oh shit. I leap from the bed and lunge myself at the toilet, emptying my stomach from the last couple of days. I feel my hair being tugged behind my head, spinning round I see Mason holding onto my locks and Elijah leaning against the bathroom door frame with his arms crossed over his chest.

"Elijah told me what happened Fai" Mason looks at me with pity. I don't want fucking pity "I didn't realise that Kayden was like that, I thought he would understand" he shrugs.

"Well I'll be gone by tonight" I croak out, my throat very dry.

"I'll speak to Sofia" Elijah grumbles to which I give him a tight smile in appreciation.

"I ne-" I was cut off by the vomit in my stomach rising at a fast rate. I spin back round to the toilet and empty the remains of my dignity. This is so embarrassing. I lean my head against the cool cabinet and gently close my eyes.

"Holy shit. What did you do last night?" Mason annoyingly asks.

"What does it fucking look like Mase?" I retort, probably a bit too harsh but I don't give a shit at the moment. I look to the shattered mirror above me and the several empty bottles of booze scattered on the floor of the bathroom and bedroom. I'm a mess. I can't do it anymore. I haven't been able to do it since they left. Since I basically killed them. Why didn't I just walk home that nig-

"Faith?" Elijah cuts me out of my thoughts. I look up to see a confused look on his face. I nod my head in acknowledgment and push myself up from the floor. My body feels like it's about to just break down into a million pieces with every step I take until I reach the bed where we all sit down. I think we all have a silent mutual agreement to not talk anymore about it. Instead, the boys talk about soccer which I like listening too, I think they're trying to distract me from reality which I am very thankful for.

"So Fai, we were thinking" Mase starts as he glances up to Elijah "you should definitely join the girls soccer team" he smiles at me as I roll my eyes.

"Did you guys forget the part where I will be gone by later?" I scoff and lean my head onto the wall behind me. Suddenly, Elijah gets up from his seat and storms out of the room, slamming the door behind him "wha-"

"He cares. We both care" Mason starts as he puts a hand on top of mine "you're not going anywhere. There is something fishy going on with Sofia, I don't think you need to worry about her dad" he says "I've heard rumours that he was kicked off the board" he whispers to me as if there were other people in the room which there was 100% not.

"Why the hell is Kayden still with her then?"
I scoff "he probably genuinely likes her, they suit one another" Both major assholes.

"Maybe he doesn't believe the rumours? I mean what if it isn't true and his dream gets crushed because he didn't stick out another 20 days with her" he mentions. That's true.

"What's the time?" I change the subject.

"2:37 pm" he tells me. Great I've missed another day of lessons and I'm late to my councillor meeting.

"Shit, I need to go meet my councillor" I say. One of the rules of me coming to Kingston was that I had to attends all therapy sessions. Not just for my sake but there's too, little did they know I've already gone off the rails.

***

After I got changed into a pair of athletic shorts and a sweatshirt, I basically sprinted to the other side of campus where the therapy rooms were. I burst open the door and see the women sat on her chair.

"I'm so sorry I'm late, I was sleeping and then my friend ca-" I blurt out.

"Faith, calm down. Don't panic, it's fine" she holds her hands up to reassure me and lets out a small chuckle. I take a seat in the fluffy couch in front of her and stare at my lap "First of all, I would like to start by apologising for last session, I realised that I had pushed you too far too fast and I'm sorry for that" she says with a tight smile. I nod as a way of accepting her apology "right, so last time you told me that you do these things as a sort of release" she reads off her notes "This will stay between me and you, do you mind telling me how often you either smoke or drink?" She questions. Superb fucking question Doc.