The Wires Case [ h.s ]

chapter 3

Harry Styles

Since I was 20, I had something against rude people. Maybe it was because during the time in between I was 14 and 19, I was the rudest person you could have ever met.

After those five years, I realized that all I ever did, all I ever said not only hurt the people who it was directed for, but it also hurted me.

I started trying to be nicer to people, trying to see how they would feel if I said something that internally crushed them. It made me open my eyes, and it made me see the fact that I didn't want anyone telling me all those horrible things I once said.

Still, sometimes it's hard for me to keep in all the hatred, all the hurt I felt during those five years. Sometimes, I become that person again, like it's asleep in the back of my mind until something or someone triggers it again. It tends not to happen a lot, but when it does, it can hurt the other person a lot, tell that to my dad.

Now, every time someone is rude, I can't help but picture my 18 year old self telling my dad horrible things that I wish I could take back. It makes me physically ill. Because I get it, we can all have a bad day, and sometimes it's really, really hard expressing ourselves in a way that won't harm anyone and that can give hints about what we might be going through. But when that happens, most of the time people talk about it. Maybe they won't tell you the reason behind it, but they will at least apologize. Or maybe they don't, depending on how they are. I didn't apologize to my dad, not like I even had a chance anyways.

I had a lot of regrets in my life, but my biggest one was probably the words I said to him that have been engraved in my brain like it was yesterday.

I don't like rude people, and I'm ashamed that I once was one, and I will definitely be ashamed of the person I will be turning back to when Brooke and I get along. Because I'm pretty sure 14 to 19 Harry will resurface again.

It's kinda sad also, because I know Brooke has been through a lot. I can feel it. Still , I don't know, I guess I get it because I was the same. I went through a lot as well, and maybe thanks to that I can help her out —even though I know my problems are nothing like hers and I will never compare them because everyone goes through things differently and comparing them to yours is the worst thing you could do—but I also have a limit too and when it comes to rudeness is very little.

I didn't miss the way her leg was bouncing when she was talking to Victor. I know she tried to keep it calm, but whatever it was it made her anxious and she definitely wanted him to leave. That's probably why she was so rude.

Many times we try to cover up what we are really feeling by being rude or mean, just because we fear the fact that people will know that we are vulnerable, that we feel pain, guilt or just sadness.

When the teacher informs us that the class is over, (one I didn't pay any attention to, as you could tell) I see her get up from her seat without sharing a word and head off class. I also see Victor following her, and I don't really like that.

I get up from my seat and look for Blake, and when I see him occupied talking with Sienna ( yes, it was her.) I turn to look at the door and see Brooke just getting out and Victor following her close behind like a lost puppy. By the way Brooke fastens her walk, I can tell she's not comfortable with him behind her, so even though my brain is telling me to mind my own business, I can't help but follow her too.

The corridor is a bit crowded and there's a lot of people going up and down the stairs, left and right trying to get outside or to their next classes like I should do, but Brooke is in that class too and I won't be attending it unless she's there.

Once I spot her head in the crowd, her long black straight hair moving a bit with every step she takes to the way of our next class I go behind her straight ahead.