The Wires Case [ h.s ]

Chapter 62

tw SELFHARMING, panic attacks, talking about mental health, bipolar disorder, depression, ed, suicide and sexual abuse .

i want to adress that by no means i'm a professional in any of this topics, especially bipolar disorder. i've done my research and based myself on what i've learned i've imagined how it would go for a character like brooke, but it can be totally inaccurate and wrong regarding what actual bipolar people might go through and if anyone reading feels that how things are developed and explained are in any ways disrespectful please let me know!!! I by no means want to disrespect anyone at all. i write based on my experience and my knowledge so therefore some people might feel offended. if that's the case, let me know and i'll try and make it better!!! I also want to clarify that this topics are no in any way romanticized, even if they are not explained fully or the characters don't talk about ways to overcome them it doesn't mean i don't take them seriously, because i truly do, but this work is fictional and as much as i try to adress the topics the best way possible and try to give advice through the characters most of the time they will be talking about them not deeply enough, but as I said before, this dosn't mean i romaticize any of this topics.

with that being said, this chapter is really hard, so please read at your own risk.

Harry Styles

Mental health is one of my most taboo topics. Not because I'm insensitive, but because I myself suffer from a mental health disorder that eats me up inside day and night without any purpose, so let's say that talking about it only makes me realize that I have a problem.

I have never been one of those capable of admitting that I am not well. For me, prolonging the problem until it completely consumed me was my only way of coping. Going days without eating because of guilt was easier than admitting that my head and my thoughts were killing me.

I suppose that the good thing about mental health is that, in the end, it shows. No matter how much you pretend and pretend, mental health always has some physical repercussions. And if it is not too late, thanks to it, we can be saved.

For that reason, and after these two long days, I have informed myself thoroughly about mental health. Because one thing is the problems derived from life experiences that lead us to suffer one thing or another, those of which I have some kind of familiarity and can empathize with. But those hereditary problems, which are already considered an illness, are those of which I have no idea.

And after two days seeing Brooke lying in my bed, without wanting to do anything and simply letting the tears and sadness emanate from her, I knew that if I wanted to help her, I had to know what I was facing.

Apart from the pressure in my chest from seeing her like that, like a dead corpse on one side of my bed, also from the fact that she has not eaten anything in two days and if she has drunk anything it must have been her own tears.

I had never come across the image of someone so devastated, but I know that I cannot bear it. And even less if it is her.

The love of my life. The woman I want by my side forever.

Bipolar disorder hasn't been new to my ears, but it has been new to my mind. The complexity of this disorder has kept me awake for hours researching it, only to come back to bed next to her and hear her cries when she thought I had fallen asleep.

"Bry," I whisper, crouching beside my bed and looking into her eyes. Dark as night and red from not sleeping, I know they're watching me but I also know they don't see me. Brooke isn't in there, her sadness is, and I can't stand it. "You need to eat something, baby."

And that's coming from me.

Being almost noon, she hasn't moved a muscle since two nights ago, when she revived one of the most painful moments of her life.