The Wires Case [ h.s ]

Chapter 57

'Tell me, have I lost my mind again?
I get the feeling you might feel the same
Tell me you can feel that love, feel that love again'

the new wires harry

rip phh wires you'll be missed
anyways enjoyyyyyy!!!

Harry Styles

It's true what they say about you never knowing what a person may be going through. You can imagine it from the outside, from their behavior or how they act on a daily basis, but you will almost never be completely sure what is really happening to them.

If I thought that my life had been messy, I was very wrong. Because no matter how much I have suffered and how these last few days have been some of the worst I have ever had, nothing will top today and what I have discovered.

That does not mean that our problems don't matter enough. Everyone goes through things that are different from others and that affect that specific person in a way that we can never judge, no matter how much we believe that we have gone through the same thing. Because experiences are different for everyone and for this reason the consequences are also different.

We should never inferiorize our problems, but we should not minimize those of others either.

And although I base myself on this, I had never thought that someone could have such a fucked-up life, a past, present and future, until today.

It never stops to amaze me how many problems life can throw into someone. That's the main reason I got interested in this job. Since I was little, I was really into police tv shows. Just being able to discover the truth, the why behind something has always fascinated me. I think it's because we never really know why things happen. Why does everything have to be so complicated and screwed up and why can't everything be simple, in a way in which we can all live without committing terrible things to ourselves and others?

I guess if it were, we wouldn't call this life.

But everything would be much simpler. Things would change so much. And yes, suffering is part of life and it's why nothing will ever be easy, because otherwise we would not learn. But there is a big difference between suffering to learn and suffering from pain.

Many of us categorize ourselves in the first. We have ups and downs and we manage to get out of them. We move forward and finally we achieve it, no matter how much it costs and no matter how many times we think about giving up.

And then there are those for whom life becomes completely unfair, without an ounce of compassion and drags them endlessly towards stopping trying. Because it takes away their strength and desire and since they have never had it to begin with, they don't know how to get out of there. They don't know how to keep going, and that becomes deadly.

I am part of the first ones. I had it tough, but I managed. With help, and endless years of thinking about giving up, but I did. And it's all that matters. We may think we're lost most of the time, that there's just no point in trying because for what, right? But there always is. There's always a way of making it and to finally achieve those things we most desire. It's never too late to ask for help and to get it, because time doesn't matter. We shouldn't care about time, but about what we want and achieving it. As much as during our entire life hope will we slipping out of our fingers every fucking second, we never have to let it go. Because we all deserve to hope, and we all deserve to live what we want.