Dabi POV
I called her phone and heard her voicemail. I froze up an panic but I thought she was dead . No my mind is playing tricks on me . She not alive I seen her motionless body . I been in this bed ever since then I haven't been able to wrap my head around anything or even keep anything down . I been drinking and looking at the celling and turned over to see my bottle almost half empty .
She was here with me? I should've helped her ?She can't be dead ? Am I going insane ? What if she is alive? I should go see her ? Would she want to see me ? What if she hates me ? Am I ALONE again? We probably can never see each other again no? . I kept myself up over these thoughts over and over again until I finally took a swig of my liquor . All my days are foggy and collided together and I don't even know what month we in . I just keep feeling guilty and wishing I could see her face again without the blood splatter on her face. her coughing up her blood . As I mustered up enough courage to shower and get dressed to get more liquor .
As I approach the outside world where the sun beaming down on me and I couldn't help but block out the sun . My first day out since the accident as I'm walking to the store. Im scrolling through her social media and I'm going through her friends pages just to pin point a address or place so I can at least apologize to her friends for her death ? Right ? No she can't be dead . I finally found a location and I hop in my car and I started it up and it took me 25 minutes to even talk myself through this .
As I'm driving through traffic. the thick but yet dark air is hitting my face and as I'm driving I pull over and lit a cigarette . "Dabi why are you sitting here ? You have to apologize to my friends " . I heard her voice and I look in the passenger seat and began to go pale and cold to the touch . As I'm smoking this cigarette I couldn't help but touch her face and kiss her . "Your here ..is this really you ?". I was elated and when I looked up . All I could see was blood dripping from her mouth to her body and I jumped and drop the cigarette,burned my seat and I finally grabbed it throwing it away ."YOU LET TOGA DO THIS TO ME DABI ..HOW COULD YOU ".she yells at me showing the gruesome wound that nearly tore her open and I shout back in horror "No your wrong I didn't want that to happen if I could go back I would have killed those brats to help save you" . I said with a tear down my face "DABI IM DEAD BECAUSE OF YOU ! YOU KILLED ME ...LOOK AT MEEE ". I couldn't do it I started grabbing my hair and hitting my head and screaming "YOUR NOT REAL ...YOUR NOT FUCKING REAL AHHHHH SHUT UP SHUT TF UP ". I open my eyes and the image was gone and it was just me in the car and I looked around for five minutes . Heart beating out my chest and into my ears . I light another cigarette to steady my nerves . my hands were shaky and I'm sweating profusely. I finally collect my thoughts and feelings and I started back on the road driving into the abyss of darkness.
These images been happening a lot lately and some are more dark than others.
Two days later
I see her and I dropped the phone and couldn't help but look at her walking and laughing acting normal . She was with some red haired kid . I wanted to talk to her right then and there but I didn't want the person next to her to be on such high alert while approaching her .
It was nice seeing her alive and just maybe my thoughts and conscience will finally leave me alone after knowing that . I was walking behind them but at a safe distance.Before I knew it everyone jumping around and running around I lost sight of her .
They both just vanished am I going insane? Did I think she was here with that red hair kid ? Am I going insane? I'm looking and searching through place after place looking for her .
As the sun dwelling down and time was against me. I was close to giving up and going back to the place I'm staying. But then I seen them again and I followed them all the way from the restaurant they were at and hearing all the conversation. "Kirishima I had fun today and I'm sorry I couldn't do more it's just the wound in my stomach won't allow me to do much until it's fully healed but I hope you had fun "she laughed as she was clinging to him and I seen them go into this big Airbnb and I took a picture of the house and address .
I know this is a bit stalkerish but I'm just trying to get some type of closure if not I'm going to drive myself insane . I need to talk to her and tell her how I feel or better yet just see that she is okay . I'm just sorry that it even happened to her .
I lay in my bed at night finally sleeping a bit but when it become morning I send a dozen roses to the Airbnb with a note . I plan on talking to her soon before she leave this bright beachy place .
