Pyaar Toh Hona hi Tha

Raahil.

Shiva saw Raahil parking his vehicle. Raavi had already entered the college.

Shiva: Raahil. Raahil.

Raahil(turning back): Are Shiva. Mere bhai. Yahan kaise? Raavi se milne itne dino baad aaya tu? Pata hai itne din kitni dukhi rehti thi woh.?

Shiva: Are haan thode din pehle hi aaya mai.

Raahil: Acha okok. Nice meeting you. Chal mai class ke liye late ho rha hoon. Milta hoon.

Shiva: Ek baat poochoon? Please sach sach batana. Tumhare aur Raavi ke beech koi jhagada hua hai kya?

Raahil: Chodna. Poorani baatein kyu lekar baitna abhi.

Shiva: Woh tumhe bahut acha dost samajhti thi. Thi nhi hai. Tu uska kitna acha dost hai. Tune hi toh bola tha uss din, ki tu uska saath nhi chodega. Ab kya hua?

Raahil: Ab yaad aa rha hai tujhe ki ladka ladki ache dost bhi ho sakte hai? Tab ye akal nhi tha kya tujhe?

Shiva: Raavi ne tumhe??(shocked)

Raahil: Dek tu na Raavi ko kabhi samaj hi nhi sakta. Usne mujhse ek baar bhi teri buraiyi nhi ki. Magar jiss din usne phone kiya tha... shayad tu bhi saat hi tha. Mai samaj gaya tha ki kya hua hoga tum dono ke beech. Mujhe kya koi dimag se beemar samaj ke rakha hai? Sab samaj gaya mai.

Shiva: I am very sorry yaar. Please mujhe maaf karde. Mujhe pata nhi kya hua. Dimag theek nhi tha aur maine kuch bhi assume kar liya.

Raahil: Dek Shiva, Raavi bahut achi ladki hai aur sachi agar uska shaadi nhi hua hota na toh mai pakka use propose karta. Magar mai apni limits jaanta hoon. Aur maine kabhi aise feelings apne mann mei aane hi nhi diye. Maine dekha hai usko inn 1.5 saaloon mei. Kitni khush khush rehti thi. Thursday aate hi bechain si ho jaati thi ki saturday kab aaega aur tu usse milne aaega. Jiss din tune bola na ki tu uss hafte nhi aa paega, uska mooh poora utar gaya tha. Usne kuch khaya hi nhi tha poora din. Aur agle din subah tune poora din ghoomaya yahan se wahan aur woh bina kuch khae piye pagalon ki tarah dhoond rhi thi tujhe. Itna royi hai na woh uss din. Poore saal jitna khush thi na uska double royi woh. Aur tune kya kiya, use dhakka maara. Isiliye mujhe bahut gussa aaya tujhpe. (Pause) Uske kuch dino baad jab usne phone kiya aur bola ki haa ya na mei jawab de toh mai samaj gaya. Teri choti si akal ne kya andaza lagaya hoga. Che yaar Shiva. Agar mai uski jagah hota na toh tujhe itna guilty feel karvaya hota ki tu na khud se nazre nhi mila paata. Magar usne aise kuch nhi kiya. Shayad uska pyaar karna ka tareeqa hi aisa hai. Mujhse bhi woh jabse wapas aai hai seedha mooh baat nhi kiya usne. Maine jaake poocha usse ki kya hua. Usne kuch bataya nhi. Toh maine hi gusse mei aake bola ki "Itni ghatiya soch wale insaan ke saath rehna hai tujhe. Bhaad mei jaane de use. Tu kyu apna dil jalari hai uske liye jisne tere baare mei ek baar bhi nhi socha." Tu toh use bachpan se jaanta hai na? Fir bhi itna hi samaj paaya tu use?. Pata hai usne jawab mei mujhe kya bola.?

Shiva was already teary eyed. He now couldn't hold his tears back. Tears were rolling down his cheeks.

Raahil(continuing): Usne kaha "Tu mera Shiva ko jaanta hi kitna hai ki tu aise opinions bana rha hai uske baare mei. Tu na ek percent nhi jaanta usko". Toh maine bola: "Maine toh use hamesha se hi tumhe hurt karte dekha hai. Do you really think he is worth it? Raavi self respect ka bhi dhyaan rakho apna. Itna bhi neeche girke pyaar nhi karte kisi se. " Toh usne kaha "Tune ye baat mere saamne ek baar keh di. Magar fir kabhi mat kehna aise. He deserves the best. And always will. Haa galti ki usne and bahut duk bhi ho rha hai mujhe. Magar woh pehle hi kuch aise dardon se jooj rha hai jo mai chahkar bhi kam nhi kar paaongi. Bas use aur guilt nhi dena chahti mai. Magar iska ye nhi ki mai apne self respect haar rhi hoon. Agar maine use nhi samjha na toh woh ab khud par vishwas nhi kar paega Raahil. Mai jaanti hoon use meri kitni zaroorat hai and mai use akele nhi chod sakti. Aur haan mai usse neeche girke koi pyaar nhi karri, woh hamesha hi zameen se juda hua hi rha hai. Toh zameen par hi rehna padega na mujhe bhi usse rishta nibhane ke liye."