Avoiding The Mafia (COMPLETED)

Chapter 45

CERENE POV

Time flew fast. We couldn't even have proper funeral for Celene dahil sa kagagawan ni Rushtan. He just rubbed us the right to do what we wanted to Celen's body pero wala, pina cremated niya na without our consent. 

Mom was furious when she heard about it. She never saw Celene for a long time since she came back at kahit ang bangkay nito ay hindi pa nakita. 

I'm furious too but I couldn't do anything. If that's what she wants, who am I to question it? 

I still can remember Warith saying something to my face.

What I did was best. She doesn't want to face you and I bet even now that she's gone she still doesn't want to face you!

No one is saying this but I think everyone was thinking it's my fault. I should be watching her that night, but what did I do? I fall asleep for fuc*ing shit. 

It's been two weeks since Celene left. And that's two weeks were perhaps the most miserable days of my life. I couldn't bring myself to eat, to think, to mourn. I felt empty. Void of emotion. And it's scaring me. 

"Couz! Kumain ka naman kahit kunti lang" pangungulit ni Aihama. She's been trying to lift up my mood but it's futile. I don't even know how to be happy at this rate. 

"I can't.. Just leave me alone!" I retorted. I heard Mitchelle blew her nose. She was silently crying as Margaret was calming her. We're in the living room of Zanturi. Vince was just sitting beside me but wasn't saying anything. He just keeps on messing my hair. 

Aihama sighed. "At this rate, you will land yourself in the hospital!"  she said. I cock my head at her and see her taunting gaze. It scares me. It hurt me. It suffocates me. 

"Please, stop looking at me like that! It's not my fault Celene got away that night!" mahina kong bulong. My gaze immediately fell under my foot. 

She didn't say a thing at first until I looked up at her again. "I didn't say it was your fault, Couz!"  seryoso niyang sabi. 

It irritates me. Why lie when I can literally see it in her eyes as if she's mocking me. "YOU'RE NOT SAYING IT BUT I KNOW YOU'RE THINKING LIKE IT! IT SHOWS IN YOUR EYES!" I accused her. My eyes start to water. 

Aihama sighed. "My God couz! It's all in your mind. I'm not looking at you like that. I know it's not your fault… No one is at fault" She trailed off as she breath to calm herself. "No one knows she has a weak heart!" 

Nabaling ang attention namin kay Mitchelle as she gasped loudly. She looked troubled. "You knew about it, did you?" I asked, void of emotion. I felt Vince hand at my back, patting it gently. 

She starts to breathe uneventful. Lumala lang ang pag iyak nito. "It's alright Mitchelle, you don't have to say something if you're not ready. Don't push yourself!" Aihama said. 

I immediately shook my head. "No! You will tell me right now! I don't care if you're ready or not!" 

Mitchelle keeps on crying so I look at Margaret. She's more stable than her sister. But then she's been stronger than her anyways. Margaret sighed with pain and started recalling her memory of my sister. 

"At first, hindi namin alam ang tungkol dito. We were too young to understand it. Ate was hospitalized for one month when she was eight or seven. It didn't happen again so we thought it's nothing. Not until she was hospitalized again. She was first year college then and I don't know what or why but she was dueling for something. That's how we understand that she has a weak heart," she said, ending the story. Saktong kakababa lang ni Knight at narinig lahat ito.