His Beastful Ways

Chapter 34

Ash's POV

I heard her foots step but I remain constantly gaze at the sky. "Ash" she calls me with that calm and loving tone.

But I chose not to look at her, clenched my jaw as I controlled my feelings. "A-alis muna kami ni Eight, doon muna kami tutuloy kay Willow. Alam kung gusto mong mapag-isa at kung 'yon ang kailangan mo, aalis muna kami ni Eight, at kapag naging ok na ang lahat sayo." I can sense pain on every word she says and it fucking felt like hell.

I know that she's trying her best not to cry. "Alam mo kung saan kami hahanapin" the last thing I heard her say before she left with our son.

I bit my lower lip before I slowly looked at the garden door where she left. Tears started falling from my eyes. I'm messed up. I don't want them to leave but I'm drowning in pain.

I will just hurt them if they stay longer.

I don't fucking know how to express my feelings anymore. I can't look at her in the eyes either, because every time our eyes met, I fucking feel jealous, I felt so stupid. That's why I can't control my anger around her.

All my life, I was living in vain. Knowing that my mother doesn't love me, that's why she left me to that place, together with the nuns, lonely, scared and hopeless. But now knowing that she took good care of the women I love while she let me stand on my own. It's fucking painful.

Even though I love Jan so much, Pain is eating me so bad. Everything is coming back to me.

Everything.

"S-sir Ash" I glanced at the back when one of the maids called my name. I wipe my tears and look at her.

"Nasa loob ho, si Ma'am Cybelle" she said. I nodded before I stroked my hair up and walked inside the house.

Natigilan ako ng makitang kasama ni Mom ang babaeng iyon, "Ash" Mom instantly walk towards me when she sees me coming, I was about to step back but she held my hand and cope my face with her gentle touch.

"Not now Mom" I whisper, she sheds tears in front of me and says, "It's time son, listen to her explanation first, I understand if you don't want to forgive her but please I just want you to listen. Please" she begged, hugged me and walked towards the garden. Leaving me with this woman.

Lumapit ako dito at umupo sa kaharap na upuan, she started crying again. "A-ash" she was stuttering and it's pissing me off. I haze and avoid her gaze, I look away.

I was waiting for her next word but she didn't speak, she continually cried.

"You're just wasting my time" I uttered, stood up and tried to walk away but she stopped me and held my arms. "A-anak, h-hayaan mo akong magpaliwanag" she begged, I slowly removed her hands on my arms before I stood straight in front of her.

"Start explaining, why do you give your son away." I asked bitterly.

Alexandra's(Ash's mom) POV

"Start explaining, why do you give your son away." nadurog ang puso ko sa uring tono na kanyang ginamit sa akin. Puno ito ng saglit at lungkot at lahat ng iyon ay dahil sa akin.

Dahil sa maling desisyon ko noon...

"ALEXANDRA!!!! LUMABAS KA NA DYAN, PARANG AWA MO NA UMUWI KA NA SA ATIN" malakas na sigaw ni Caloy mula sa labas ng bahay. Nanginginig kong hinawakan ang kamay ng kaibigan kong si Theris.