His Beastful Ways

EPILOGUE

Jan's POV

"Good afternoon passengers. This is the pre-boarding announcement for flight 99B to Chicago. We are now inviting those passengers with small children, and any passengers requiring special assistance, to begin boarding at this time. Please have your boarding pass and identification ready. Regular boarding will begin in approximately ten minutes time. Thank you." pinunasan ko ang aking luha bago tumayo at binuhat ang aking bag at hinila ang maleta namin ni Eight.

Now that everything is really messed up, I think we just need to run away to get rid of this pain.

Hindi ko alam kung anong nararamdaman ko ng malaman kung may anak si Ash kay Hazel. I know that it's possible for them to have one since they've been in a longer relationship than ours but I still feel the pain.

And now it's killing me inside, pakiramdam ko outsider kami sa mundo ni Ash na kailangan nang umalis dahil nandyan na ang totoo para sa kanya.

"Ma" napatingin ako kay Eight ng kalabitin niya ako at itinuro ang mga kasabayan naming pasahero na papunta na sa gate 3 ng airport. Ngumiti ako sa kanya bago lumunod sa kanyang harapan at inayos ang kanyang suot na salamin.

Alam kong kanina niya pa pinipigilang umiyak dahil ayaw niyang makita ko'ng malungkot siya sa desisyon ko. Kaya mas lalong mas masakit ito para sa akin. Niyakap ko siya at bumulong. "It's ok to cry Eight" I whisper.

With that he suddenly burst out of crying, kahit na anong matured ng pag iisip ni Eight, he's still young and baby for this situation. This is too much for him but he tries to handle it, and I know he can't do this by himself like I do. We need each other.

"Shhhh" I rubbed his back as he cried even louder. This is the first time I saw him cry all out and see him in deep pain.

"I d-don't want t-to l-leave D-daddy" he burst out and hid her face on my neck. "Sorry Mama, but I don't wanna leave" he kept saying.

"I don't want to leave, sorry Mama if I said that we can run away but the truth is I don't want to leave, I want us to be with Daddy. Sorry Mama" mas lalo akong nadurog dahil sa kanyang mga sinabi.

Naging makasarili ako, at puro ang nararamdaman ko ang aking iniisip pero hindi ko 'man lang naisip ang maaring epekto ng lahat ng ito kay Eight. I choose to run away for myself and not for us.

Because the truth is that I need to face this for my son. My heart is breaking on every tear that drops on my shoulders. Eight is carrying all of this by himself, my poor Eight.

"I'm sorry" I weakly whispered and hugged him even more. "We're not leav---"

"JAN!!!!!!!!"

"EIGHT!!!"

"JAN!!!!!!!!"

"EIGHT!!!"

Natigilan ako ng marinig ang malakas na pagsigaw ni Ash dito sa loob ng airport. Eight moved away to look around until we saw Ash standing there in front of the flight board. Weakly fall on the floor together with a little girl.

Dahan-dahan kaming lumapit ni Eight sa kanya at bawat hakbang ko appalapit sa kanya ay tila nagtatalo ang aking puso at isipan. Gusto ko siyang hagkan at yakapin, kumuha ng lakas sa kanya sa puntong ito pero pilit sinasabi ng isip ko na may ibang obligasyon si Ash sa ibang tao.

At kahit anong gawin ko ay hindi ko ito mababago.

We stood behind him, watched him cry and hugged this little girl in his arms. Habang pinagmamasdan siya naging buo ang desisyon ko at dahan-dahang pinakawalan ang kamay ni Eight.