Hide the sun
I will leave your face out of my mind
You should save your eyes
A thousand voices howling in my head
Speak in tongues
I don't even recognize your face
Mirror on the wall
Tell me all the ways to stay away
Away
Dig a hole
Fireworks exploding in my hands
If I could paint the sky
Would all the stars be shining bloody red?
Stay away
And stay (I'm hearing voices all the time up in my mind)
Away ey ah
Away ey ah
Away ey ah (I'm hearing voices and they're haunting my mind)
And stay (I'm hearing voices all the time up in my mind)
Away ey ah
Away ey ah
Away ey ah (I'm hearing voices and they're haunting my mind)
Black out days
I don't recognize you anymore
"you needed us?" Alex asked as they walked into the lab Tony nodded. "yup there is a box with your names on it, has a bunch of stuff relating to you two in it and I think it is only right for you two to have it and no one else, I haven't looked in it yet and I'm not gonna" he simply stated pointing to the box the two had already briefly looked through.
"thanks dad" lex said and gave her father a hug. Bucky gave Tony a slight nod as a thank you. "that was all" tony said and the two nodded walking out of the lab again, bucky carrying the box.
"My room?" he asked and she nodded putting her hand on his shoulder and teleporting them into his room. "still not used to the fact you can do that" Bucky said with a shake of his head putting the box on his desk.
"do you want to look through it now, or are you not ready yet?" the soldier asked "I don't think I'm ready yet, to see the videos god knows what is on there" she said and the soldier nodded.
"I feel the same way"
"I just need a little time to think about everything that has happened the past days" she said and the soldier nodded understandidly.
Alex made her way into her room and called peter who stopped by quickly making the hammock she was laying in right now, she had the notebook in her hands and decided to read it.
Alexis
Star gave me this notebook to write in so I can read back whenever dr marlo wipes me again. This is what I know so far.
1. I started training with star about four months ago. He was mean at first but he is nice now, he said he was mean because he needed to earn Marlo's trust.
2. I Hate Marlo
3. Marlo is mean
4. I have powers .....
5. I was taken when I was 10
6. I can trust star he is my friend
The last one is very important because I tend to forget that after I am wiped. One time I held him in a chokehold because I thought he was attacking me when he was just giving me a hug,
if you ever read this sorry star.
It was written in a messy hand writing, Alex smiled at the last sentence and turned the page.
Hello me, I haven't written in this for a while I am officially thirtheen now, time flies, I don't know what date it is today but it is 2 weeks since my birthday? Or three I don't even know. I just noticed star wrote something in this, it is 5 pages further I think let me count yeah 5 pages
Lex stopped reading and flipped to 5 pages further the change in handwriting was very noticeable.
Hey Voodoo, I don't know when you are gonna read this but it is your birthday as I'm writing this, Happy birthday, hold on kid, things will get better I promise, I know you are scared I am too sometimes, but atleast we have eachother
you are with dr Marlo now and I am concerned about you, but that doesn't matter, all that matters is I'll be right here when you get back and I will hold you, no worries.
I'll always be there.
Love, Star
She remembers that day now, it was her birthday and the day was horrible, when she came back from the heavy experimenting she fell right into the arms of the soldier who was waiting for her.
Star gave me a stuffed Bunny to hold when he is gone, I named it star just like him. Star is the only good thing in this whole place, I hope we can get out one day.
--
Star and I are going on missions together soon, we need to wear a mask and some weird black stuff around our eyes. Marlo said it is to hide our identities.
I am excited to go out with him, to see a bit of the world but I don't want to kill people, Marlo said there would be consequinces if I don't comply
I'm scared.
--
I didn't want to do it I swear it felt like I was watching through somebody elses eyes I didn't mean to, I didn't mean to kill them.
I just puked because of the thought, Marlo doesn't want me to clean it up he says the smell will remind me of how useless I am without him in my mind.
I hate it here, I want star to come back he needed to do something else after the mission.
Star came back and he cleaned it up and held me while I cried, I don't want him to leave.
I need him.
And I'm scared because marlo wants to send us on another mission.
--
I hate myself I want to die, please let me die I don't deserve my life. Not when I'm taking away someone elses.
She was only 4 she was 4 and now she is dead, she is dead because of me and the only thing I could do was watch.
Like im stuck in my body.
I'm stuck in a cage.
Star said that I deserve to live but I killed them he keeps saying I didn't do it because of the serum but their blood was on my hands.
--
I love you -star
Love you too -voodoo
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