Love At First Thrust

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I currently folding my clothes that I will bring to Siargao. I made up my mind.

Huminga ako ng malalim at tumalikod para kumuha pa ng damit sa cabinet ng makita ko si Dewy na nakasilip sa labas.

"Why are you hiding there, love?" Lumapit ako rito at inaya itong maupo sa couch dahil hindi ko na kayang umupo.

"A-are you leaving, mama?" Naiiyak nitong tanong.

I was speechless for a moment. Didn't know what to answer to my child.

I caress his head. "Mama need to."

Doon na ito tuluyang umiyak kaya naman niyakap ko ito.

"Are you leaving me?" He sobbed.

I got teary eyed. "It's just for a meantime. Mama will be back. I promise you that."

Umiling ito at kumapit sa laylayan ng damit ko.

"No...I don't want, mama. You promised to never leave me..."

My heart is tightening hearing my son sobs.

I was going to convince him when Aries enter the room. He stare at my luggage and to me. His stare holds emotions that I don't want to entertain.

"Dewy, can I talk to mama alone?" Mahinahon nitong pakiusap sa bata.

Nag-aalangan man ay tumango nalang si Dewy.

"Mama, don't leave me." Pahabol nito bago bumitaw sa laylayan ng damit ko at lumabas ng kwarto.

Nang makalabas si Dewy ay tumayo na ako at ipinagpatuloy ang pagkuha ng damit para matiklop.

"I canceled your flight."

Napaharap ako dito. Hindi makapaniwala sa sinabi nito.

"Aries!"

Tumingin ito sa'kin. "Hindi, Ciello. Hindi ka aalis and that's final."

"Napag-usapan na natin 'to! I told you I need it!"

"And we need you!"

I was caught off guard by his shout. This is the first time that he raised his voice to me.

I sob. "You don't understand me, Aries."

"And you do?" He asked back with sarcasm.

"Gusto ko munang mapag-isa. Alin ba ron ang hindi mo maintindihan?"

"Paano ang mga bata? Hindi ka aalis." Tinalikuran ako nito at kinuha ang mga damit na nasa maleta at isa-isang binalik sa cabinet.

Agad ko namang inagaw ang mga ito at binalik sa maleta.

"Ano ba! Stop doing this! Aalis ako! I need to go!"

Paulit-ulit lang kami sa pagkuha at pagbalik ng mga damit.

"Hindi ka aalis, Ciello. Hindi."

Humarap ito sa'kin. "Hindi ako papayag na umalis ka. Hindi mo ako iiwan."

Lumapit ito at hinawakan ako sa dalawang balikat.

"Do I have to beg for you to stay? I do understand you, Ciello...but not this." Turo nito sa maleta ko.

"Could you not trust me to share with your pain? Do you know what I feel about this? I feel like you don't trust me. I feel like I'm not your boyfriend. I'm more than willing to lend you my shoulder to cry on but you always turn your back to me. I was so embarrassed that I could not give you the comfort that you need to lessen your pain but I claimed to be your husband."