Pharaoh's Eye

Pharaoh's Eye XLII

Caira

Why, why the hell did I do that ? This ain't the way to get my shit together, I don't know what I was thinking . In my defense, I told Julius I don't want a relationship. Nothing good can come from this, sleeping with him didn't make anything more better or clearer . All that was last night was sex, I feel like that's all that will ever be between us . I didn't stay for the morning to roll out bed, I left right after but no matter what time I decided on it still would've been a walk of shame . Before I knew it, once the day got started I was being pulled in another direction .

"It's kind of early don't you think ?" I answered my door as O'Neal came in

"I thought we get a early start on our day ."

Walking to my room I rolled my eyes forgetting he was coming over, I didn't even shower yet and I'm beat . Says he needed help with his assignment, guess it's for real . I could see if his ass was up to something coming over at night . While he was here I turned on the tv, the baby and my parents went out for the morning . I laid on my bed, he found himself comfortable as well . Probably knocked out for a good two hours, woke up I'm damn near cradled onto this nigga body . His arms began to constrict tighter around me, made me want to fall right back asleep . But I purposely got up to get his ass up, I needed to lock my door incase someone decided to come in .

"Loud ass snoring, I'm surprised I dosed off ." He stretched

I laughed "But I don't though ."

"But you do ."

"I'm ready to get started so I can get back to sleep, where's your books ."

"I didn't bring any ." He said as I sat beside him

"Why not ?"

"I lied ."

"I'm confused ."

"If I asked to chill with you at night you would've said no, now wouldn't you ?"

I socked him in the arm "Ooo, you annoying, I knew your clever ass was up to something ."

He laughed holding my arms down thinking I was going to hit him again, then laid on top of me . I wasn't feeling right about it .

"You know, you cute when you get feisty ."

I didn't know how to divert from the conversation .

"O'Neal, if you don't get off me !"

"Or what ?"

"It's really too early for this ."

"Too early for what ?" Playing stupid

"You too damn smart to be playing dumb right now ."

"Go !"

"Go for it ?"

I smiled trying to free myself "No I said go !"

"Go for it ? Okay ?"

"No !"

No, don't go blaming this shit on me . I was told he was coming for help, nothing more nothing less . You can't come down on me for the unwanted attention I'm getting . Nobody told him to kiss me, nobody told me to surprisingly like it but I did . As off guard as it was, I wasn't as bothered as my body should have been . I can't free myself from this ongoing fuckery, I tell every guy what it is it's not my fault they can't get a grip on it .

"You need to slow down ."

"Doing something and getting it wrong is at least ten times more productive than doing nothing ."

"I don't want to hear your philosophy mumbo jumbo, I'm not ready for ANYTHING right now . I really like you, I do . You keep me interested, but I - ."

"Slept with your ex boyfriend last night ."

"Bruh are you following me ?"

"No, it's not that hard to read you . You show everything you try to hide through the way you carry yourself, all females be that way . It's not hard to put two and two together either ."

"I really don't know what to do with myself, you don't make it easy ."

"It's only as easy as you want it to be ."

Once the message was clear, he stayed for a little while longer and left . I feel like I'm missing out on a really good guy, but my mind is made . At the right time, things will come together .

Now that he's gone I can shower, as I walked out heading to shower to Hakeem washeading to his room .

"Mhmm mhmm mm, my own sister ."

"What ."

"Playing hopscotch with her hot pocket."

"Your nasty ass, don't ever call it again and mind your business ."

"You know it's a word for that right ? Thotscotch ."

"Shut you Mr. Krabs ass up, I didn't do anything with him . You the last one to talk, what damn infection you got now ?"

"Nothing, cause my legs ain't opening like revolving doors ."

I pushed his dumb ass to the wall

He laughed "I'm fucking with you, stop . Stop !"

"Fuck boy I told you I didn't do nothing with him, let's not play games either . Say something else, imma fuck you up ."

Hakeem knew better than to say another damn word, I can't stand him sometimes .

"Caira get off him ." My mom walked in

"Gerald, get your son before I kill him ."

"Be my guest ."

"But daddy !"

"Hush boy, man up you being beat by a girl ."

"Don't get knocked ." I repeated made my way to the shower

Once I get Julius off my ass, I think I'll be able to breathe . Fuck relationships, fuck men . I'm deadass tired, I'm too tired .