Pharaoh's Eye

Pharaoh's Eye ♋ XXXIX

Caira

"I didn't think you would come ." Julius said

"It's almost 4am, can we make this quick ?"

"You can sleep here tonight ."

"I rather not ."

"What's going on between us, I stay out all night . You decide want to up and leave, I ain't even do nothing ?"

"I told you already, I just want to be single for a while . I don't want to be in a relationship, I went all about this all wrong . I wanted to go back home, I'm not ready for this ."

"For what ?"

"For us ! I'm not trying to be locked in the house, I'm not trying to be told that I can't see my friends, and I just don't want to live together ."

"What's the problem between us, Julius and Caira ? What's the problem with us that you just don't like anymore ?"

"Why are you badgering me, I keep telling you the same shit !"

"Do you love me ?" He asked

"No . Can't seem to figure out what that really is, if I don't know ain't no point in saying it if I don't feel it . We lost our connection Julius, that's all there is to it . I noticed we just don't click, you're a really nice guy but I want something stronger ."

"I don't think you know what you want ." he said placing his hand around my backside

"Stop it, I wasn't born yesterday I know what your doing ."

"You want that nigga don't you ." He let go

"No ! I don't ! I don't want any of this ."

"It's not a problem, I had this done before . I appreciate you breaking before you mess up ."

"That's that shit right there ." I clapped with every word "You, waiting for me to fuck up, you constantly think I'm going to screw you over . I'm not dealing with your insecurities, I'm not trying to deal hearing that everyday if I did something or not . You should believe me when I tell you something, it shouldn't be no question about it ."

"I'll work on that, but I don't think you and I are finished ."

"Julius -."

"You really still feel the way you do ?"

He kissed me but I turned my head, Julius turned my head back so he could plant his lip at the right spot . Pulling me closer holding me tighter, I tired to feel a spark but I couldn't, I wanted to feel the passion but it wasn't any .

"Julius, I'm sorry ." I pulled down my shirt

"Don't make any quick rash decisions, I'm not going to beg or hold you down . Give it two weeks, if I don't hear from you then I know what it is ."

I didn't get too much sleep last night being as though I didn't get home till 4 am, that morning I still sprung up for school . I handed in the project now O'Neal and I just have to wait for presentation as others came up with theirs .

"Without looking the paper tell the sexual chemistry emotion wise in your words Mr. O'Neal ?"

I thought to myself what was the use of typing this shit if you was going to have us say it verbally ? But he continued

"Well let me if you will Sir start by back tracking that in actually it starts with a scent, no I do not mean the scent of ones cologne or perfume . It's by ones natural body scent, that is what first attracts somebody to someone . Then other things come into play like conversation, then the touch . If my partner here was indeed attracted to me, a simple touch like a grab by the hand or the thigh . My partners body temperature would rise, her cheeks would blush . My parter would then counteract against me, never unlocking her eyes off mine ."

This nigga was really acting this out in the class right now, holding me and shit .

"Maybe even causing her to lose focus of her well being, an animal instinct would fall upon my partner . The closer we are without touching what we want, the more we desire the longing of each other . Till finally it happens ."

O'Neal is too damn good for himself, whatever physiology class he taking I need to be in that shit too . Ain't no way I would've fell for anybody else's game like this, his ass right too I did forget where I was for a second cause I grabbed him back kissing him till he disengage

"Once that moment happens, chemicals are released in the brain ."

"Why they get the fun assignment ?" someone called out

"Ms. Caira, can tell me how high sexual chemistry and low chemistry affects a relationship ?"

"When the chemistry is high, everything is right . Good sex, good relationship . Bad sex, what else do you have ? Good sex, will drive someone crazy . Bad sex, you must be a damn good conversationalist to keep someone around . When the sex is bad, you open your eyes to seeing the real in someone . If there feelings are genuine bad sex shouldn't be a problem, but if you don't the there agenda or don't see a future why waste your time with bad sex and a dead end relationship ?"

"Check Powerschool for your grade after today ."

I hope we did as good as we sounded .

"You busy tonight ?" O'Neal asked as we walked out of class

"Yeah ."

"Did I make you feel uncomfortable ?"

I smirked "You just couldn't help yourself could you ? Do me a favor, please cut that mind shit out ."

"Are you busy or just don't want to chill with me because I kissed you ?"

"I'm just really tired and I want to sleep ."

"Alright I'll see you tonight ."

"Tonight ? How about I just text you and we'll go from there ."