Pharaoh's Eye

Pharaoh's Eye ♋ XXX

Caira

Not everybody is going to understand what I'm about to say, it's not my intention on hurting anybody with my choices . Not have I once chased behind Jermaine, I been trying to do what I can to make him stop making a damn fool of himself . I didn't tell him to get drunk that time and push me to get in the bed with him, I didn't ask him to like me, all I asked of him was to respect me and my relationship . I could kill Hakeem for telling Jermaine my business and Julius for telling him I was on birth control, why is what we're doing any of his business ? I've been honest with everyone throughout this trial, since I started talking to Rico which is not even close to an every night thing . I'm sitting right there with Julius by my side texting him most the time, we talk about our life, the problems his parents has, and school that's it . Why would I want to fuck up with Julius ? Just like Jermaine, Rico has been friend zoned . I know good and damn well what I have at home .

I'm not at all trying to fuck with Jermaine's emotions, I don't know how in the fuck I am when I keep telling him every time he acts out of character that I'm with who I want to be . If shit did get out of hand between Julius and Jermaine and Julius was making me choose, I would choose Jermaine . A friendship is more important than a man, understand me when I say there are plenty of niggas out there . Not every single one of them are going to like who you fuck with, Jermaine and I been friends for years . I wouldn't let that go over a guy, cause at the end of the day Jermaine will always be here but I could lose Julius at any moment . I owed Jermaine an apology for him thinking I meant it when I said I hated him, I'm just the type of person who doesn't like to have people not like me for something I was wrong for . 

"I don't have no homework, I'm well rested, and I experimented making some Coconut Milk Shrimp so I'm fed too ." I said wrapping my arms around his neck as I kissed him

He leaned my body over to the side so he could see the t.v "I took care of myself already ."

I took of my shirt "So, you saying you don't want to make love to me ?" I said kissing him again

"What's going on with you and Jermaine ?"

"What do you mean ?"

"You know what I mean Cai ."

"No, I don't . Why don't you just ask me for real instead of beating around the bush ?"

"Did you or have you kiss him recently ?"

"No !"

"Did you or have you, fucked him recently ?"

"No Julius, why the fuck are you asking me this ?"

"Shit you want some damn honesty, I thought that tired excuse was bullshit . I leave for 10 minutes to head an hour out the way, come back for something I forgot and you two hugging and touching each other on my damn couch ."

Whether it would have been wrong or right I wanted to slap his ass, my fist was clutched ready to strike . If it one thing Julius knows about me from fucking with Gerald, it's that I don't like to be accused of shit I never did . Since all his past girlfriends have fucked him up, I'll let it slide this time .

"I tried to keep things good between everyone, Jermaine is just a little jealous that I chose being with you over him . Him and I both said some stupid fucked up things to each other, I called him over here to talk face to face cause he was ignoring me . That's it Julius !"

"Why was you crying then ?"

"Cause, he said some shit to me that I didn't like . We apologized and hugged it out, that was all you saw . You really think I would cheat on you ?"

"Caira, I seen shit like this before . I'm in this for us but I don't see where you at, are you with him or are you with me ?"

"I'm with you Julius, what the fuck you think I been doing this whole time ? When I come home whose needs do I carter first ? Who the fuck do I have sex with even at times when I don't want to ? Who the fuck am I cooking meals and shit for ? I do everything you want and more, I'd take a wild ass guess and say I'm with you !"