Pharaoh's Eye

Pharaoh's Eye ♋ XXIII

Caira

"Let's get right to this, at some point you felt like I did you wrong . I'm really tired of talking about this shit so for tonight I'm all ears, when this is said and done we going to walk out of here like best fucking friends . Now go head, tell me what's the problem ?" I asked 

Jermaine picked me up after work like we planned and took me out to eat at Joe's Crab Shack, I don't be playing when it comes to my seafood .

"Alright, so we get this three day thing going on right . I'm thinking everything is going good, we finally going to get this where it need to be . You and I together, I don't see why we not . I mean you and I already acted like we were together, every night you was sleeping in my bed . Wake up in the morning and I would cook you breakfast, I just didn't see how this didn't work ."

"You know that I have to have the same feelings for you too, that's how a relationship works . You know that shit right ?" I questioned

"I know that, like I said I thought it was there . Then you throw this 3 day shit at me, I'm like alright she ain't going to know what's going to hit her . On some sentimental shit, I helped you mend things with your moms . I wasn't looking for nothing out of that, but YOU took it to us almost having sex . YOU did that NOT me, YOU took off your clothes not me, and YOU walked out on me and I haven't heard from you sense ."

"Jermaine I was uncomfortable having sex with you because I decided in that moment that I didn't want to be with YOU . We are better off friends, I feel nothing towards you in that way . I think we needed those three days to see if I felt something for you, when I kissed you it wasn't strong enough . When I almost had sex with you that night, I almost made a big mistake cause I would have regretted it . I don't see the problem in that, if I wasn't ready then dammit I wasn't ready . I was a virgin, if I was to go through with that you know how that would have made me feel inside . I told you days after it wasn't no hard feelings, you seen me hanging on Julius and ever since then you changed ."

"I changed ? Nah, you got your words twisted . You changed, funny how you hanging all up on Julius when we almost had sex . You ain't want me all you had to do was say so, them three days ain't mean nothing to you . All you was doing was doing me a favor trying to please me ."

"Pause, run that back . I don't have to do anything to please no nigga, all I have to do is stay true to myself and stay black and die . I did that 3 day shit because I wanted to, I wanted to give us a try . But we didn't have anything to ran off of, I was not feeling you in that way what don't you understand ?"

"Why the fuck did you play me out for him, that's what I don't understand ?"

I didn't feel right that he was attacking me saying I played him out, I can see why he said it but none of it was intentional . Jermaine knew the circumstances of this shit from the jump, why am I taking the slack for this ?

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make you feel that way . Jermaine you are really sweet and always been there for me, I view you like a brother . It wasn't like I left your house and told Julius I wanted to be with him, it just happened . I really like and I mean I really like him and I would like for you to be happy for me, I'm sorry the person I'm with can't be you . We're on two different pages, I want us to be close again . Maybe you can find a better girl, although I don't think it gets any better than me ." I laughed jokingly "Maybe one day we can double date ."

"I guess we can do that, too bad you had to hook up with a hoe ."

"Jermaine !"

He threw his hands in the air paying the bill "I'm just saying, he a little hoe so be careful ."