Pharaoh's Eye

Pharaoh's Eye ♋ XXV

Caira

Last night, Julius and I and I were in the middle of having sex when my phone started ringing . I was too busy taking back shots to answer the phone, not even a second later my phone started to ring again . Julius and I had already gotten comfortable into another position, he was pulling my hair as I had my face down into the pillow . I felt my body about to explode and Julius knew it too, he flipped me over and crawled under the sheet licking my spot . My phone wasn't going to stop ringing till I answered this bitch, I thought I could handle my moans as I talked to whoever was on the other line . I was wrong, whoever I was talking to knew exactly what I was doing . It was only Hakeem so I didn't care, he was talking to me in such a panic and I really couldn't understand what he was saying . I wasn't focused on what he was saying either, my legs clutched tight to Julius head as I felt it coming . I paused for a minute, I couldn't even enjoy the fulfilment I just had cause Hakeem told me that I needed to hurry up and come to the hospital . Gerald was at work today dealing with somebody who was in his rank who was suicidal, he was trying to help him to get the gun out the guys mouth . Suddenly he shot Gerald for getting close, then shot himself . 

I couldn't even breathe, I wasn't told whether Gerald had lived or not . I was terrified that I let this man into my life and now he's could be gone just like that, I couldn't go to the hospital in this condition . Yes, I took a 1 minute shower with Julius and hopped out . We rushed to the hospital to be by everybody side, Hakeem, my mother, Jermaine and some girl hugging onto his arm dropping tears like this bitch knew my step-dad or some shit . Nobody knew how he was doing, he's been in there for a couple of hours . Turns out Gerald was late coming home which rarely happens, he was with the guy who killed himself for hours trying to get him to reconsider his thought on killing himself . When he ain't come home and wasn't answering his phone everybody knew something was up .

Everyone stood up in a prayer circle and prayed for Gerald, I started tearing up cause I really don't want him to go . I stood up to the vending machine and grabbed me something to drink and nibble on, I needed something to relax me . Jermaine stood behind me, taking his time to apologize .

"I should have reached out to you before but I figured you needed a good break from me, I'm sorry for what I did that night . Caira I was drunk, I was talking out my ass and being a dick ."

"Jermaine, it's over I'm tired of talking about this . I know that wasn't the real you, it's good I don't want to talk about it ."

"You okay ?"

"I'm more worried about my mom than how I'm feeling ."

"She lost it earlier, Hakeem and I been holding her down though ."

"Whose your friend ?"

"Teyanna ."

Teyanna ? Let's bring it back, that's the girl who Jermaine left me for to go fuck that night .

"How long you guys been here ?" 

"Couple of hours ."

"I really hope he's okay ."

"Don't worry he will be ." he said hugging me

I sat down beside Julius and shared my snacks with him, he consoled me and told me everything was going to be alright . I felt bad cause we were mirroring each others pain, his mother was shot and killed . That could be the same results for my step-dad, god forbid it isn't though, I can really understand the pain he feels over his mother's death . To have someone like that taken away from you is serious, then feel like you been abandon by somebody who should've been there to tell you I'm here and I'll always be here . Julius barely knows Gerald and he kept giving me faith, saying your pops is strong he's going to make it through this . This why I really like him, I connect with Julius in ways I can't connect with everybody . Julius and I walk on the same path and I really hope one of us never trails off .