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16: fine

so i did a tarot reading today and it looks like my spirit guides don't like me🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

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"They're so pretty it hurts, I'm not talking about boys, I'm talking about girls."

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MARINETTE
When she kissed me, it hit me.

I can't be with a girl, no matter how much I wanted to be.

It didn't feel right ignoring Kagami, even when I hated her. I always paid attention to her, even when I hated her.

So, to block out my own feelings, I'm going to push myself onto Adrien. Make myself like him even more.

I know Kagami won't go for him anymore, she literally kissed me last night.

This means that I won. I can have him.

I think some part of me doesn't want him as much, but me liking Kagami is probably a phase.

I decided to tell Alya about what happened last night.

She told me she felt bad for Kagami.

Deep down, I did too.

After all our classes, Alya and I were talking at our locker when I saw a stuffy-eyed Kagami walk into the locker room.

Alya and I look at each other.

Kagami barely notices me, almost like I'm invisible.

A wave of guilt fills my body, tempting me to say something. Before I even can, she practically runs out of the locker room and exits the school.

"Was she... crying?" Alya asks, adjusting the textbooks that sit in her arms.

"I don't know," I lie.

I had seen Kagami crying before. I saw the aftermath.

She had been crying.

Was it my fault?

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I didn't go home. I couldn't. I felt so terrible.

I knew there wasn't fencing, as I had Adriens schedule down pat. So I just sat in the locker room in silence, staring at Kagami's empty locker.

Everytime I pass her locker, it smells of a strong peach and jasmine scent, just like her.

It's almost comforting how she smells.

Whilst my own thoughts almost drown me, the sound of the school door clicks and my eyes widen.

Maybe the schedule changed.

I start to gather my things but before I even get the chance, the door to the room of lockers opens.

"Sorry, I didn't know there wa-"

"You remembered," a voice whispers.

I turn around, and there she stands.

"Kagami... I..." I freeze.

She stares at me, waiting for me to finish my sentence.

"I thought you had forgotten."

Fencing...

"O-oh yeah, I was wondering when you'd get here!" I awkwardly laugh.

Kagami presses her lips together in a disappointed look. "You're lying."

"No, I'm not!" I raise my voice.

She visibly clenches her jaw, and drops her gear on the bench. She digs through her bag for a moment and pulls out a familiar pen.

"I was cleaning my room and I noticed your pen," she hands it to me, and I hesitantly take it.

"Thanks," I whisper.

"We don't have to train today, and if you don't want me to train you anymore, I understand," Kagami states in a monotone voice.

"No! No, I want you to train me," I yell.

Kagami remains eye contact with me, trying to hide a faint smile. "Fine."