|| Disguised Sins ||

Chapter 37

Trigger warning.

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Maria

It's been a week since Alesso's breakdown.

I am a bit hesitant when I talk making sure I don't trigger him. It hurts me by knowing what his stepbrother did to him. I asked him for his name but he didn't tell me so I didn't push him into telling.

It was tough for me to tell him what happened when he was blacked out.

"Tell me what I did. I know it is hard for you but I need to know so I don't do things like that again." Alesso said as we cuddled in the bed.

"I don't know if I should." I don't want him to feel guilty for what he did unintentionally.

"Hey, I want to know. I don't want to hurt you." He looked at me sadly as he strokes my bruised cheek. I take a deep breath.

"Ok." I swallow hard. "What is the last thing you remember?" I say and look at him.

He clears his throat. "We were having dinner and you asked me about the job." I nod and recall the event to tell him. I won't tell every detail, I don't want to burden him with remorse.

"So um...I asked you if I could join the company and then you were reluctant to the idea and said something about your work not working peacefully causing us to be in danger. So I got...a bit mad because I need to work and can't sit doing nothing." I let out a shaky breath and continued.

"Then we kind of went back and forth with the argument and then I said I would just leave this place for the time being and work." I said guilty and looked at him to see he was pained by my words and nodded for me to continue.

"I didn't want to leave Alesso, I was just frustrated because you were not telling me what was the job issues," I say hurriedly and he shakes his head.

"Hey, I know. I can be a difficult person to live with. I can understand." I nod at him.

"So then you like, turned pale but it was not a scared pale it was more of sinister pale. Y-your eyes were black and your knuckles had turned white. I thought maybe you were just angry but then you started to speak and it scared me..." My voice broke and he pulled me to his chest.

Fuck I was so scared when he said I will be his plaything with a sinister smirk. At that moment all the air in my lungs was gone. I panicked and tried to run but he pulled me by my hair and slapped me. I cut my lip due to the impact. The next thing I knew I was thrashing out of his hold when we were on the bed. I cried for him to stop and it hurt but it was like he was a completely different person.

I remember him saying 'let's play' when he pulled out his gun and aimed at me. But then his features softened and looked confused.

"It will be ok. I am so sorry for what I did." I keep crying and then slowly drifted to sleep.

Things are going well between us for the past week. He didn't have any night terrors or panic attacks. I asked him if he ever thought to go to a therapist but he doesn't like the idea of that.

He let me do work from home with him though. I sit with him and Matteo in the office. I like it, I don't have to go to the office, just sit at home and do work. It is frustrating sometimes due to Alesso and Matteo constantly bickering about something stupid. Matteo is funny and reminds me much of Chris.