|| Disguised Sins ||

Chapter 55

Read the author's note in the end, please. It is important.

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Maria.

Trust.

Trust is one of the things I have lost with others. All these years of my life have brought nothing but trust issues and if tomorrow someone told me to trust them, I simply won't be able to.

After what Alesso explained to me about how Taylor worked for the Russian Mafia, it brought goosebumps on my skin. To be honest I was terrified of how many people I know could be working undercover.

I shared many secrets with Taylor back in the days, he knew where I was, what I was doing, or when and where I snuck out with Jo after bedtime. It just made me a question, he had so many opportunities to kidnap me or kill me but never did I feel a bit uncomfortable or threatened with him. What made him stop? Maybe he was just waiting for the orders.

Me and Alesso had to postpone our appointment by a few hours because of what happened. I was not in a state or mindset to go to the ultrasound, so we hung out with the rest of the family. I have a feeling mum and Georgia have gone a bit crazy. They are acting weird.

They kept giving me eyes as if I am some specimen in a laboratory and offering me things to eat saying I have become thin. I think I should have told them they are making me a bit uncomfortable. Maybe it is because they have come of an age they are behaving oddly.

Right now me and Alesso are waiting for our turn for the check-up.

We were seated on a couch surrounded by many pregnant women and their partners. Alesso seemed nervous as soon as we got in, I don't know why. His hand has gone wet five minutes ago due to sweating which usually happens when he is anxious about something. I didn't tell him about it as he kept holding my hand, I know people can be nervous in their own way.

"Are you ok?" I decided to finally ask him.

"Yeah, why wouldn't I?" He looks at me trying to hide his uneasiness.

"Cause your hand is sweating like a pig." I chuckled making his eyes wide in realisation and wiping his hands off on his pants.

"Sorry." He says.

"Now tell me, what is it?" I tilt my head a bit.

He let out a reluctant sigh and looked at me. "I don't think I can do this." He murmurs making my heart drop.

"What?" It was barely a whisper and my hands immediately covered my not so swollen stomach in defence. Tears prickled in my eyes thinking about what he is saying.

"This is not the right time." He says making me shake my head to defy him.

"No, we are keeping the baby Alesso." I don't want to lose another one as well.

"Think about it, you were attacked just a month ago, then went in a coma, then Taylor came off as an undercover for the Russian Mafia. You are literally hunted by them, do you honestly think this is the right time to bring a defenceless child in this mix?" He explains making me let my tears fall.

"Please no..." I sobbed ignoring all the looks I am getting from other patients. They must think I am such a drama queen.

"Maria," he let it a sigh. "It won't be right for the baby."

"I am not letting you kill it," I said sternly. "I will raise them on my own if I have to." I don't know why is he being like this. In the morning everything was going so good, he was supportive about it.

"I am not saying that-"

"Then what?" I narrowed my eyes wiping the tears away.

"I-I don't know if I can be enough for the baby." He mumbles making me slump my shoulders in relief.