|| Disguised Sins ||

Chapter 51

Trigger warning: miscarriage :(
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Alesso

"I. Am. Not. Suffering." I said through gritted teeth trying not to raise my voice at her.

She was not letting the topic go and it was all my fault, I shouldn't have had a slip of tongue. Fuck Alesso, why would you say that, what was I even thinking?

"You are hiding something, Alesso I want to help you but this won't work if you won't open up a bit."

Fuck, fuck, fuck she needs to stop talking.

"I don't want to talk about it, Maria"

I could feel my heartbeat go rapidly against my chest and my muscles becoming tight. Knowing what can happen I walk away from her near the treadmill section while toning out of the conversion and trying to keep calm breathing.

"Why, why don't you want to tell me?" She started walking towards me while raising her voice a bit.

Leave it be, Maria.

"Ignore it, Maria." My chest was heaving as I tried to steady my breathing.

"What do you mean ignore it!? I have been ignoring all the red flags all my life and here you are telling me that the alarm went off because something was related to me! Why do you always lie!" She raised her voice as she approached me.

Shit. She needs to stop right now.

"I am not lying! I am just not telling you about it." I know there was no logic in what I just said but I was not concentrating on that. I was losing my temper because she wasn't listing to me when I want her to.

Please stop this now. Quit it already.

"What in the fuck is the logic in that!" She shouted making my body temperature rise. My bones become rigid and I curl my fingers into a fist.

"Don't shout at me!" I raised my voice and turned to face her with a warning glare. I could hear my heartbeat in my ears, my head starts to pound and my sight become hazy and then all went black.

"I love you." That was all I heard before I started to come back to reality. I looked in front of me to see Maria's body pressed against the wall while screaming in pain as tears ran down her cheeks looking like she would pass out any moment.

What's wrong?

I look down to see my hand holding her throat with a tight grasp making my eyes go wide in fear. My blood runs cold as I removed my hand from her throat.

Fuck! I lost myself again.

I was too shocked to notice what was happening but she kept screaming as if something was still hurting her. Her body went limp and I tried to support her while holding her waist.

Her hand was clenching her stomach as blood ran down her thighs making my breathing stop.

"Shit, Maria! Please tell me where you are hurt. I am so sorry, please wake up." I remove her hands away from her stomach and pulled her shirt up to see if she was injured but there was nothing.

Where is she bleeding from?

My heart froze as the realisation drew upon me and then snapped my gaze back to her with a pale and horrified face. My heart instantly stopped and my brain thought of nothing but one thing.

No- Please don't tell me- Fuck!

Pulling out my phone I told the driver to get the car ready immediately as I scooped Maria in my arms running down to the main gate. This feels so familiar. And all because of me.