Calming The Storm

Chapter fourty-eight

                Smoke's pov

We chatted for a bit more then Conner shot at us. We all took off. As we did he had slipped away.
As we all took a turn a truck turned in and as we all took to a stop we all fell over with our bikes.

"Smoke are you okay?" Jax asks.

"Yeah I'm fine." I say as a pick a pebble from my elbow and stand.

"Darling are you sure?" Happy asks me while looking over my knuckles that were turning red.

"Baby I'm fine." I say.

Later

We are at the studio and I'm talking to Happy.

"Do you think we rushed into this?" Happy asks pointing at him and I.

"No. Do you?" I ask.

"No. Smoke, I mean it when I say that I love you. I've loved you since you were nineteen. When you were twenty-one it just wasn't time for us." He says.

"I know. I had a lot of growing up to do then. Maybe we we're always meant to be." I say.

He smiled.

Later we met up and found Conner.

"Who we're you selling to?" I ask while pacing.

"It was outside of your territory." He says.

"Specifics!" Happy and I nearly growl.

"Salvadorians outside Nevada. Some were Chinese and some Russians up North." He says.

I look up at Happy and then looked back to Conner.

"No one you would know." Conner says.

As they began to talk about guns Happy put me behind him.
After a moment we left and returned to the studio.

Happy is smiling at me.

"What?" I ask.

"Your so beautiful. You have no clue how it feels now I have you back." He says.

"Nothing will happen to us this time separation wise?" I ask.

"I'll try to not let it. I'm going to take care of you. It's my job to. I've always wanted to take care of you." He says.

"I'll take care of you.. we take care of each other." I say.

Later we are in a meeting and learn Jax's plan.

I sat in my chair silently crying.

"All these in favor. Jackson Teller meeting Mr. Mayhem." Chibs says.

"Yea." Quinn says.

"Yea." Montez says.

"Yea." Rat says.

"Yea." Tig says.

"Yea." Happy and I say.

As much as I don't want it. I know it has to.

Tears fell down my face.

Later we met up with Jax.

"Bub." I say pretty much jumping into his arms and hugging him.

"Hey sissy." He says hugging me.

He then let me go and took his cut off as well as the president patch.

Happy wrapped his arm around me as I blinked away the tears.

He took VP off of Chibs and gave him President. Chibs gave Tig VP.

A moment later.

"I wouldn't ever put that burden on you." Jax says.

He then walked to me and hugged me tightly.

"I love you sissy. Love you so much." He says as we held each other.

"I love you bub." I say as I cry.

He then let me go and went and hugged Happy.

"Take care of my sister." He says.

"I will. My life depends on it." Happy says.

"Marry her one day. You hard asses belong together." He says.

Jax then hugged me again and left on our fathers bike.

I'm crying my eyes out and drinking whiskey. I'm also sitting by Happy. I didn't even get to tell Jax that Juice wrote to me before he died. I haven't read it. A mom later I pulled Happy aside.

"What is it my darling?" He asks.

"A letter. From Juice." I say with my voice breaking and taking it from my pocket.

"Let's read it." He says as we go back to sit down.

I took it from my pocket and opened it.

My dearest Panther,
By the time you read this, I will be dead. I need you to know, I don't regret anything we've ever done. You brought out the best in me. I knew I was different the moment we wrestled. Panther, you see right through everyone's Bull shit. Your a good woman with a lot of love. I was so great full to have a woman like you in my life. Don't ever feel bad about divorcing me. When it all came down to it, we weren't meant to be. You already know that it's Happy. He understands you in a way I never could. You did not deserve what I had did to you. It was cold and heartless. I needed you to see that I didn't deserve you or your love. I know you think that I stopped loving you. Truth is, I won't stop loving you. I just don't love you like I had in the beginning. I know you already had it figured out. When the time comes, I'll take care of Jaunita. I've seen her once in my dreams. You we're right. She is beautiful. Looks just like me. I promise I will take care of her. I don't want you to cry over me. I did you so wrong. Be you. Your so full of light. Full of hope. Full of beauty. To me you are perfect. I will always see you that way. Shine just like the diamond I know you are. I really hope that you go back to Happy. Now that is one brave man to have the balls to love you. Know how to handle you. Especially when your a smart ass. He's always known how to get you to talk. Maybe it is the fact both of you are hard asses. Or it's just the tension. Good tension. He has brought out a side of you that I never could. I know you didn't stop loving him. I know that you loved me with everything. There is just something about you and Happy. It brings out the best in both of you. I've also written to him.

"What does your letter say?" I ask as I hand him his letter.

He took it from his pocket and began to read it.

Dear Happy,
You know by reading this, I'm dead. Please take care of Panther. She deserves you. You get her in a way I never did. I know she's loved you since she was nineteen. She is the one for you. I know you won't take her for granted like I did. I've never loved a woman like her, who's shown me true love. I know you love her. Be with her. You know her heart and soul. How she thinks. You know so much about her. She may not want to admit it but she's sensitive and rough around the edge.

"I'm not sensitive." I say.

Happy looked up at me.

"Darling." He says as he gives me a look.

"Hush." I say.

Panther is something special. We both know that. She deserves so much love and I know you can give it to her. Put her first just like the club. A good woman like that is hard to find. Keep her close. I know you will protect her. She deserves so much love. I know you will protect and love her and guard her with your life.
Sincerely, Juan.