Arabelle.

Layers.

If you want to die, then you are not living. When you start living, will you then start wanting to be alive.

Arabelle isn't the one to fall in love, she's had too many heartbreaks to even think about falling in love. Those heartbreaks weren't just from ex boyfriends, they were from all her ex loved ones. Like her dad, She misses him. She still wonders how she can miss someone who was never there in the first place, but she still tends to miss him. There is no way that she can get him back though, because he is too far deep in the ground to dig up, 6 feet might not seem like a long distance, but once you think about it, it sure is.

Lots of people know what it's like to be heartbroken repeatedly, Arabelle did. She was sensitive once, until she got fucked over. Now she chooses not to even care about what happens next. She had feelings once, but now she's numb, she doesn't feel a thing. Many people see her as this girl with bright eyes, and a breath taking smile. Is what she shows all she is? No. There are layers to people. There is more than what's just on the outside, there is more than what people choose to show, there is always more. Not many people knew a lot about Arabelle, but they always chose to point her out.
"Why are you so quiet?"
because she doesn't have anyone to talk to.
"What is that?"
Scars. Thanks for pointing them out like an asshole.
"Why do you wear so much make-up?"
She's self conscious and feels the need to wear make-up so she is pleased with herself.
all she could ever think was
"WHY DO YOU GIVE A FUCK?"

It's rough being alive when you don't want to be. It's tough knowing that no one truly cares if you're alive or not.
Arabelle is only 15, she's 4'11, with dark brown eyes, and dark brown straight hair. She doesn't talk much, but when she does, she never stops. She's a Sophomore at Stakens High School, and she has a handful of friends, but many people know of her. She was aware that people knew more than they should know, but she didn't really care. All she cared about was going home and getting away from everyone; isolating herself. She didn't really like people, at all. She was a painter. She sketched, coloured, painted; anything doing with colour. It was her favourite thing to do to pass time. In 2013 she was diagnosed with Depression, then in 2014 she was diagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder. Not many people knew how insane she was, but they knew she was insane.

Insane. What a funny word. Crazy. Scary. Mental. Psychotic. Where did these words originate from? Who was the first person to say "You're Insane!"? Why did they say it? Curious minds are the worst at night. Night. Knight. Where was Arabelle's Knight in shinning armour? Why didn't the princess choose the prince instead of the knight? Curious minds are the worst. Period. Arabelle fell in and out of love. Never found the right person. She was only 15, but she had too many heartbreaks for that age. That's why she is so wise. That's why she is the way she is.