Hate Me Before You Love Me (BDSM/Mature)

Chapter 1. The Sweet One

Alex stares in the mirror as he rubs his collars. It's a special one. Peter custom ordered it from some jewelry store; it's not visible like the leather one he usually likes. It's more like a choker than a collar; it is a black velvet chocker with a fancy silver ring in the middle of it. Peter bought him a beautiful pendant with the letter P engraved in Swarovski crystal. Peter has great taste, and Alex loves Peter. And Peter always has a way to tell Alex that he loves him. Alex rubs his toned body, pretending that it is Peter's hand, rubbing his caged dick slowly. He sighed. Peter said he can't touch himself when he is not around.


Alex has been with Peter for three years; they are a power couple to most people. Peter is building his tech empire, and Alex was his CTO. They fall in love because they are together all the time. But Alex decided to stay home and work as a technical advisor now. He loves to work wearing only his lace underwear, with Peter watching him through the web cam. Sometimes Peter texts him something that he wants Alex to do while he is watching him. It was like a game for them, and they both enjoyed it.


Alex's phone rang; he forgot that Peter was always watching him. He bites his lower lips and looks at the camera. He knew Peter was soft for his guilty looks. He picks up the call, and Peter's low, soft voice calling his name is such a turn-on. Alex moans slowly as he answers.


"Did you really just moan?" Peter chuckled.


"Oh, you know you make me weak." Alex winked at the webcam.


"Hey, baby. Did you just touch yourself?" Peter asks Alex in a low voice. He knew that Alex was weak in his bass voice. They really know each other, turn on, and turn off.


Alex faces himself at the webcams and looks at them with guilt on his face. "I'm sorry, sir." Alex threw a flirty look at the webcam.


"Oh, no. No. You are not going to charm yourself out of it today. And you are pushing my buttons by calling me sir," Peter laughed. "Or are you just teasing me? You want it, aren't you?"


"I would never dare to do so, sir." Alex winks.


"Oh, you are just fishing for trouble, aren't you, babe?" Peter pulled out his deep, low voice again.


"Pete, I love you." Alex looked at the camera sincerely now.


"Alex, I missed you every minute we were this far apart. I love you too."


"But I want to be your good boy. Stay home for you and never. Alex looked down.


Peter took a deep breath. "Babe, we are good. It's my mistake as much as yours. Please stop blaming yourself. I love you. Peter said it gently.


"I'm a horrible boyfriend." Alex started to sob.


"Alex, please.. Hey, I'll be home with you soon. Please stop crying. I love you."


"No.. You have that meeting at 3. I'll be fine. Alex rubs his tears from his cheeks.


"Alex, come to the office. I want to spend some time with you," Peter said, taking a deep breath.


"I can't. She's there.."


"I see her every day, Alex. She is fine with us."


"She was your wife, Pete."


"She was your girlfriend, Alex."


"Exactly!"


"Look, you can't avoid her forever. It's been three years. Beside, I really need you; my CTO is just... Peter took a deep breath. "Not you. And Emma knew that too. She is fine with us together."


Peter, Alex, and Emma have been best friends since college. Alex dated Emma back in college; after they graduated and started their start-up, Emma broke it off with Alex. She started seeing Peter not long after; they got married when they were 24 years old. They have two kids, Russell and Bea. Then Peter cheated on Emma with Alex. Emma had a meltdown and left the country for a year. Alex quits his job when Peter tells him that Emma is going back to their company.


"I'll see you tonight." Alex hangs up. He turned off the webcam, then threw his body on the bed.


Alex just wants to be pretty to Peter when he comes home. He wants to be on his knees, and he wants Peter to make him sore the next morning. He wants Peter to punish him for being naughty. Peter's palm on his bouncy butt, turning it pink, makes him go to that beautiful place. But now that the thoughts of his guilt are eating him, he wrecks his two best friends marriage. because he was greedy. He buried his head on the pillows and cried.


Peter knew Alex was off this whole week; he had been seeking Peter's attention more than usual. Peter got really busy because he just landed a few new investors. He got home very late every night; he even shouted at Alex a few times because Alex wanted his attention while he was not in a mood. Alex is his world; he always is. Alex was always so submissive, even when they were not in a relationship yet. Alex has always followed him like a puppy since they were in college. Then that first night they were together at last; after 10 years, they've been friends.


Peter remembers it like it was yesterday. They were working late at Alex's place, and he saw Alex wearing red thongs when he bent down and picked up a pen. Peter got his bone right away, and Alex was excited about it. He asked if Peter had ever tried to do kinky stuff. They had sex a few times after Emma broke up with Alex and before she started seeing Peter. So their attraction is always there, but both Peter and Alex love Emma, so they push their feelings away. But Alex just broke up with his boyfriend a couple of weeks ago, and he was lonely. Everything went so fast, and Alex ended up naked on Peter's lap, getting his ass slapped because he has been a bad boy, teasing his married best friend with bright red thongs. Peter handcuffs Alex to the bed after that and uses him so roughly that Alex has his hole sore the next day. Peter holds Alex, who's been in his subspace all night, and Peter feels alive for the longest time.


Peter turned off his computer and grabbed his stuff. He told his secretary that he would be back for the 3 p.m. meeting but that he needed to get home for lunch. He bumped into Emma when he was about to go down. Emma stopped him.


"Peter, you'll take Russell and Bea this weekend, right?" She put her hand on Peter's arms to stop him.


"Yes, as usual. Thanks, Em.." Peter smiled.


"How's Alex?" Emma looked away, but Peter still saw some of the sadness in her eyes.


"He needs me now. I need to go. I'm sorry.." Peter peeled Emma's hand from his arm.


"I missed him. Can I see him? He was always avoiding me. I just wish he didn't do that."


"He still feels guilty. Alex is a nice, decent man, unlike me. He is ashamed of taking me away from you and the kids," Peter shrugged.


"He should not feel that way. We were friends for years, and our marriage was a mess anyway. Back then, it's not his fault," Emma held her breath.


"I will ask him, okay? I need to go; I'll see you later."


"Okay, bye.." Emma let Peter go.


Peter drove home and found his partner crying in their California King bed. Alex always did this; he kept punishing himself for Peter's mistake. Peter rubs Alex's naked back slowly and whispers that he loves him. Alex lifted his face and rubbed his wet face with his palms. He slides out of bed and kneels in front of Peter. He was naughty, and Peter needed to discipline him.


"Alex, I don't have time for this." Peter pulled Alex up.


"But I made a mistake," Alex sobbed.


"Alex, just stop it, okay! This is not healthy! I am not going to do this with you again if you don't stop and act like the man I used to know."Peter yelled. He dislikes doing this to Alex, but Alex can be really deep into submission and say that he's just stopped being Alex.


Alex jumped in as a reaction to that series of yells. He stared at Peter, not moving any muscles. He does not know what to do. Peter reached in and hugged him. He said sorry for yelling at Alex.


Peter pulled himself away after he thought that Alex had calmed down. "Alex, can we be a normal boring couple for a month or two? I just missed you as my equal."


"So you don't want me to serve you anymore?" Alex's eyes started to tear up. He knew he would mess this up. It's because he is such a bad, naughty man. He stole his friend's husband.


"I'm not saying that we should not enjoy doing it once in a while. But you torturing yourself like this for the sake of my pleasure is just heartbreaking for me. I love you, Alex. We used to be friends; now you're just a slave for me, and I just can't do that. I missed my friend, my equal."


Alex took a deep breath. "I'll pack my bags. You should have just told me you wanted to break it off. It's not that hard to say it." Alex walked away and grabbed a duffle bag.


"Alex, that's not what I was saying." Peter's face turned sad. He knew Alex wanted this, and he stayed with him for it. Alex said that he is the only master that he is happy to be with because Peter is a loving master. He saw Alex continue to pack his stuff, so Peter grabbed the duffle bag from him. "Damn it, Alex! I don't want a breakup! I want..." Peter hesitated. "I want my Alex, the sweet man I fall in love with, not slave Alex. Okay?"


"You knew why I wanted to do this with you, right? Do you think I am happy to break your marriage apart? I would never have done that if you had not promised this," Alex stared at Peter. He doesn't want what Peter just suggested to him; he would rather leave if that's what Peter wants.


But Peter is angry too. "You know what? Go! I don't care about you! Never contact me again! If I send you your last paycheck, then we are done!" Peter stomped out of their home.


Alex stopped for a little while, wiped his tears, and continued to pack. He is a free man now. He unlocked his cock cage and took off his collar. He brushed his fingers one last time against that collar and took a deep breath. He grabbed his duffle bag, and one other bag filled up with what he owned. He left the penthouse before Peter came back.


Peter couldn't concentrate that day, knowing he had just kicked out the only nice thing in his life. Peter can claim to anyone that he built the company, but that is not true at all. Alex is the genius behind it; he's just the face of the company, a mascot.


He rushed home after his meeting and was hoping to find Alex there, kneeling to welcome him home. But all he found was an empty penthouse; somehow, the place felt lonely and sad to him. He regrets what he did to Alex. He tried calling Alex, but he didn't pick up. Peter threw his phone across the room out of frustration. He loses his sweet one because he is stupid.


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"Alex left?" Emma asked.


"Yes.." Peter stared at nothing. He did not go to sleep last night. He called a private investigator to find Alex. But Alex is an IT genius; he will cover his digital track. Peter knew that Alex had around half a million dollars in his savings. He can be anywhere by now.


"The only man who actually knew what we needed to do disappeared. That's great, Peter! What if he sold his software to someone else?" Emma raised her voice.


"Look, this is Alex. We are talking about the sweetest man we ever knew."


"You break his heart, and you expect he won't do anything about it? He got one of his ex-boyfriends in trouble with the IRS when they broke up."


"Yes, but that guy is an asshole! He abused Alex constantly."


"And you never hurt him? Are you sure?"


Peter sighed. Of course, he hurt Alex before.


"I'm going to find him." Emma walked out of the office and called Alex on his burner phone.


Alex picked up the call. "Hey, Em., I'm out of Peter's life now. I'm sorry for everything."


"Look, whatever problems you were having with Peter, fix them! I need you here. Working!" Emma yelled at Alex.


"Em.. I need to go; my flight is boarding. Take care of yourself and the kids. I can only offer you my deepest apology for breaking up your marriage."


"Oh my! Alex, that's three years ago! Three freaking years!"


"I need to go."


"Alex! Please don't go! You owe me!" Emma pulled that card out at last.


Alex sighed. "Fine. I'll stay, but I want to be the CEO," Alex hung up after that.


Emma rubbed her forehead, as she had an instant headache. She walked to Peter's office. Peter let her sit. "He wants to be CEO. You have to step down," Emma told Peter.


"Do you talk to him?" Peter scrunches his forehead.


"Yes, I called his burners." Emma shrugged.


"He has a burner phone, and you have his numbers? I don't even know he has one. Peter bites his lips.


"That's not the point. You are an ignorant person, and of course you don't know that. He knew he would need to disappear since I dated him. He gave me his numbers, and he said he would never change them," Emma explained.


"I'll give him the CEO position, but please tell him that I want to still work here, with you and him," Peter looked down. He turned off his computer. "I'm heading out."


"Where are you going?" Emma asked while typing a text for Alex. "You are still the CEO."


"I want to find my boyfriend; is that okay for you?" Peter grabbed his new phone and his laptop.


"Peter, what did you do to Alex?" Emma asked. "Because he just texted me that he wants you to work from home when he's back in the office tomorrow."


"Em, please ask him where he is and tell him I want to meet him." Peter sighed.


"Oh geesh, Pete. What did you do?" Emma stared at him.


"I told him to stop it."


"The sex thing?" Emma asked.


"Yes. He got upset, and he..." Peter stopped because he just doesn't want to tell Emma that this is all his fault.


"I'll call him, but no promises, okay?" Emma sighed.


"Great, thanks.."


"Peter.. He has loved you for a long time. He waits for you to fall in love with him. You hurt him so badly when you picked me instead of him back then. You really should treat him better." Emma took one last look at Peter before she walked away.


Peter closed his eyes. He is stupid, and he really should treat Alex better. Alex is the kindest man he's ever known. Alex was the best slave he would ever have, but Alex was also his best friend. Peter craved for something that was not forcing him to be the dom; he wanted to make sweet love to Alex again, like back then, back before he got married to Emma.


Peter's phone is buzzing; he got Alex's new address from his PI. So he packed his stuff and left the office. He arrived at the address about half an hour later. It was a low-income apartment building that was barely standing. Alex loves to live in poverty. Peter assumed it was because of his masochism. Peter parked and double-locked his car because this is just not the neighborhood that he wants his precious Tesla to be parked in without extra precautions.

He went in and went to the unit at the address that his PI had sent. He knocked on the door, and shockingly, Alex opened the door right away. He pushed out Peter and locked the door. He dragged Peter out of the building right away. Alex told Peter to get into the car and drive, so he did that. Alex told Peter to drive to the penthouse, and then he did not talk for the rest of the ride.


Once they arrived in the penthouse, they settled themselves on the sofa. Alex hesitates to start, but he finally opens his mouth. "Why were you there?" Alex asked. He probably knew the answer, which is begging him to come back, but he wants to hear it come out of Peter's mouth.


"I want to apologize and thank you for doing this. I just.." Peter licked his lips, which felt so dry. "Do you want anything to drink? I'm going to grab some drinks."


"Just water, and an answer to my question-why am I here?" Alex sighed.


"I will be back in a bit. I need drinks if we are going to do this."Peter walked away to the kitchen and grabbed a beer and a glass of water for Alex. Alex was an alcoholic; it happened during Peter's and Emma's first year of marriage. They had to take Alex to live in their home after he almost got hit by a car. He stopped drinking after that. Peter walked back in and gave the glass to Alex.


"So?" Alex sounded like a little impatient kid.


"What can I do to fix this? I made a mistake. And I told Emma that I'm giving up the CEO position as you requested. But I want to fix us. Look, I never meant to break it off with you. But I want us to be normal once in a while. Can we do that?"


"No. Because what we did was not just some play for me, Peter. It is what I wanted in a relationship; it's my life. So if you can't handle it, I do not want to be with you," Alex insisted. He could say yes to Peter's offer, but he is greedy-he always is.


"Alex, you know how much I love you. Why do you make this so hard? I said I need a break sometimes; don't you want that too? Maybe we can even switch once in a while. I just.. I hate to keep hurting you, and seeing you keep hurting yourself even when I'm not around, "Peter grabbed Alex's hand.


"Fine, I won't take your CEO chair, and I will go back to the office as CTO. And you can get two weeks every two months to be a regular couple with me. Are you satisfied?" Alex gives up. The feeling of Peter's hand rubbing into his just put him back to submission. Peter had very smooth and big palms, and Alex craved for those palms to smack his butt again.


Peter stared at Alex. "Can I kiss you?"


"You are my master; you don't need my permission." Alex looked down. He felt his cock throbbing; he wants Peter to push him down and strip him.


"Now.. now.. I told you, my sweet one, that is not how this works with me. You have to give permission, or else I won't do anything to you. That's our rule, so please don't do that again, or else I might need to punish you. Peter grazed his fingers on Alex's cheek. One thing that Peter has learned over the past three years is that Alex is a very responsive man; the lighter the touch, the more he will react.


Alex's lips tremble. He opens his mouth and lets out a small moan. His pants feel like they are getting smaller every minute Peter sits next to him. He wants Peter so badly; he wants Peter's cock inside him.


"Alex, come back to me, my sweet one. I know you are somewhere else. I want you to answer me, darling."


"Peter, I need you. My master.." Alex whispers.


"I can't be your master. Not when you don't wear your collar, sweet one. Peter puts his lips close to Alex's ears and licks them. "Do you give me permission to make you mine again?"


"Yes, master, please." Alex bites his lips. He feels like his cock is about to explode.


"No.. No.. Hold yourself together, sweet one. You are not dressed for it. Put on your collar and your pink panties, then go back here and sit on my lap. I might also make your butt cheeks pink because you run away from me," Peter rubs Alex's back.


"Yes, Sir.." Alex stood up, then walked to the master bedroom.


His collar is on their sex box; he picked the lace one this time. He took the pink lace G-string that he bought last week. He put both on and looked at himself in the mirror; his cock was already hard just from Peter touching him. He wonders if he could hold himself together for Peter. He walked out of the bedroom and found Peter gone. He left a note.


'Sorry, sweetheart. I changed my mind. This is your punishment, and you can't touch yourself tonight. Love you..'


Alex smiled, then turned around and went back to the bedroom. He deserves this punishment; he wants this. He might be the sweet one, but he will be a naughty one if he needs to.