Hate Me Before You Love Me (BDSM/Mature)

Chapter 21. The Complicated Future

"A divorce again?" Peter's dad was staring at him with anger in his eyes.
"I'm in my 30s, Dad. I don't need your permission to get another divorce." Peter rolled his eyes.
"We accepted that you wanted to marry a man, and now just like that, you want a divorce. This is ridiculous!" Josh, Peter's dad, can't believe how bad Peter is with his marriage. This one lasted a few seconds.
"I'm not here for your blessings or anything. I'm just letting you know." Peter stood up. He walked away from his angry father.
It caused pain for Peter to get a divorce again, but he had enough of Alex's behavior. He promised himself Alex would never step all over him again. Especially not that he knew that Alex lied to him about Russ and Bea. He married the man who had an affair with his wife. Peter threw Alex out and moved Sean to his place. Alex currently lives at Sean's place. Peter saw that Kelly went there a couple of times. Alex is just all talk when it comes to fixing himself.
Peter saw Sean only in his underwear in the kitchen. Somehow, that made Peter sad. He wished it was Alex with his g-string flaunting his ass in the kitchen. Peter still loves Alex; he can't deny that. But Alex had never told him the truth, and it hurt him. Peter leaned in next to Sean.
"Sean.. I'm thinking of.." Peter sighed. He knew Sean is gay unlike him.
"You want a pussy?" Sean looked at Peter.
Peter looked down. He felt like he was hurting Sean by doing this. "I'm sorry.."
"You never wanted me in the first place.." Sean tilted his head to look at Peter.
"That's not.." Peter sighed again. "I don't know what I want, Sean. I'm sorry.."
"You're still in love with Alex?" Sean pressured Peter more.
"Sadly, yes. That man is my other half. I'm pathetic, I know. I just.." Peter shook his head.
"Peter, do you want me to move out?" Sean looked seriously at Peter now.
"I need someone, but I know I'm hurting you by asking you to do this. I'm sorry.." Peter pouted his lips. He just can't do anything right at this point. His life is as messy as it can be.
"I love you, Peter.." Sean sighed. "I really don't know if I can do this. But I'll stay.." Sean smiled bitterly. He hugged Peter. He felt horrible for Peter, who kept loving Alex but never really got what he deserved.
"I don't know what to do.." Peter buried his head in Sean's shoulder.
"Just do it one step at a time, okay? You'll figure this out. Okay?" Sean smiled.
"Thank you, Sean.." Peter kissed Sean's lips.
"Do you want to try to do a scene with me tonight?" Sean's face turned serious. "But I don't like you checking me every 5 seconds. Can you trust me to do that?"
"Oh.." Peter had barely ever done it with Sean; it kind of scared him. He knew that he checked on Sean a lot more than Alex, because he was still unfamiliar with how Sean reacted to pain.
"I'll say if I feel something I don't like, but please don't feel bad if you hurt me. Because I want to feel the pain." Sean looked at Peter.
"We need to go through a list. I have to know your limits." Peter looked concerned.
"I don't know much about my limits, Peter. You always do just close to vanilla stuff with me." Sean pressed his lips.
"Nipples clamp, how do you feel about that?" Peter started to plan the scene.
"Um.. neutral, I guess?" Sean bites his lips.
"I don't like doing extreme pain, like ball stuff. And sounding is just too much.. I can't.." Peter shuddered. He pulled Sean to the couch, then put him in his lap like a little kid. "I like more psychological approach when I am dominating. I want you to build up to that subspace and enjoy the scene. I checked you more than Alex because I don't know how you react to all this stuff yet. I trust you. I just need more time to learn more about your responses." Peter pulled Sean close and kissed his lips gently.
Alex suddenly walked in as the two men kissed on the sofa. So he pretended to cough, and stopped the making out session. "I'm taking the kids out to the zoo. Are you coming?" Alex really wants to prove to Peter that he has changed.
"No.. um.. you can't take Russ and Bea. I don't want them near you." Peter panicked. He doesn't want his kids to grow closer to Alex. Sean jumped out of Peter's lap too. Sean stumbled to the bedroom out of shame. He doesn't want to be the third person in a fight again.
"Peter, I won't sign the divorce papers and you know it. I slept with Kelly when we broke up. When you were with that man!" Alex pointed at the bedroom where Sean was. He knew bringing Sean was not beneficial for anyone, but he was tired of Peter constantly blaming him for something that he didn't do.
"You lied to me! All these years! You don't deserve any trust in me anymore!" Peter stood up. There's some part of Peter that wants to punch Alex.
"I didn't know they were mine!" Alex sighed.
"Just go, please. Don't touch my kids!" Peter stormed out.
He drove to the city, grabbed some coffee, and sat in a park while drinking his coffee. He just wants to be alone. He is trying to reply to any emails that need some sort of reply. Suddenly, a handsome gentleman, very well dressed, sat next to Peter. He wore a dark blue suit and pants. It's well fitted and wrapped around his toned body perfectly. The gentleman seems to be preoccupied with his phone calls and fails to notice Peter. So, Peter ended up ignoring him too. The man is probably in his 40s but he looks really elegant.
A few seconds after the older man hung up the phone, he jumped from the realization that Peter was next to him. "Oh gosh! I'm sorry.." He stood up. "I didn't realize.." The man's mouth is open, but no more words come out of it.
"It's fine." Peter smiled.
"You are Peter Moore, aren't you?" The man was staring at Peter.
"Oh? How do you know?" Peter doesn't know he is that famous.
"I'm Kenneth Harrow. I'm one of your investors. Well, secret investor." Ken offered his hand.
"Oh.. I'm sorry.. I didn't realize you were one of my investors." Peter shook Ken's hand.
"Well, I'm actually following you because of some video my investment firm found last week.." Ken stared at Peter.
"Oh.." Peter felt like he was sick in his stomach. It's Alex's porn.
"You knew about your husband's affair?" Ken raised his eyebrows. "You do know that investing in a company that has a gay couple running it is already very risky. We can't tolerate that video." Ken sounds angry.
"I'm sorry, Mr. Harrow. I will try to contain the situation." Peter bites his lip. "I'm not great at marriage. But all I can promise you is that we have a good product. I really hope you won't pull out of the investment because of the sex tape." Peter looked at the older gentleman.
The man shook his head. "I'll have my IT scrub that video as much as I can. But, you need to see me in my penthouse tonight. Just you." Ken pulled out a name card. "Text me your address and I will pick you up this evening at 5." Ken finally stood up and nodded at Peter.
Peter could only shake his head. His life is in shambles thanks to his husband. Even if Alex was not really cheating on him, that sex tape would just burn their company that they worked so hard to build to the ground.
Peter did not tell anyone the details of what he was going to do that night, but at 5 p.m., a Mercedes Benz was on his driveway. The driver took him on an hour-long drive to downtown San Francisco. He dropped him off in a private lift to the penthouse. Peter feels nervous and curious. Who is this Ken Harrow? He knew there was an investment firm that put a lot of money into their company, maybe close to 30% of stocks, which meant that he would be the majority shareholder after Peter and Alex got their divorce finalized. But the company insisted that they couldn't tell Peter who the investor was and that he didn't want anything to do with the BOD.
Peter saw Ken sitting on a huge couch with two pretty women next to him. He walked closer with hesitation because Ken seemed to be very handsy with the two women. He really didn't want to see all this intimacy.
"Mr. Harrow?" Peter slowly stopped close to the couch. Ken ignored him and pulled one of the women closer, then started to slide her top off. "I'll wait in the pantry." Peter sighed and turned around.
"No.. no.. come join me." Ken gave an evil smile.
"You are calling the wrong person. You should call Alex for that." Peter sighed.
"You are the serious one then?" Ken chuckled and asked the two women to get away.
"I'm not going to just jump in and grope some woman for your entertainment." Peter was very agitated.
"I'm sorry Peter, I'm joking with you." Ken knew he had gone overboard.
Ken is gay, but he has always kept it hidden.That is the reason he invested in Peter and Alex: he wanted to support the gay couple. Ken got his wealth from the mining business, and a lot of his tech investments panned out.
"What do you want from me other than to harrass me?" Peter looked at Ken.
"I'm sorry, Peter. That was not my intention. I'm joking.." Ken pressed his lips. "I respect you and.." Ken stopped. He had his doubts. "Can I tell you a secret?"
"I'm here. So, why not?" Peter finally turned to face Ken.
"I'm gay. But no one really knows. You are brave and I applaud you." Ken finally told his truth.
"So what's that whole show with the women? Are you trying to trick me again?" Peter is really upset with Ken. The thought that Ken made a joke about being gay really upsets him. "You're like 50. How can no one know you are gay? You must've been lying to me." Peter raised his eyebrows.
"I'm not lying.. I'm one of your biggest fans. I.." Ken is second guessing if he can tell the truth again to Peter. Peter seemed to be very irritated already. "I'm in love with you. I just couldn't make a move. You were always with someone else." Ken sighed. "I have been keeping an eye on you ever since we met at that guest lecture in Harvard. You didn't even remember me. And I'm only 46.."
"I'm sorry.." Peter felt horrible for accusing Ken. He finally sat next to Ken. He looked at Ken. He was handsome. He might be a lot older than Peter, but he is in great shape. "Mr. Harrow, I'm sorry I was being rude earlier." Peter stared at the older man's green eyes. "Can I hold your hand?"
"Yeah.. and please call me Ken." Ken gave a smile to Peter. "The women are just for show. I paid them, because I know you are bisexual. And I'm just hoping that if you want that woman, maybe we can have a foursome and.." Ken closed his eyes and sighed. "And maybe I can taste you, just for a night.."
Peter took Ken's hand in his and held it tightly. He gave a small chuckle. "You're so sweet to think I'm that kind of guy. But I am not."
Ken snorted. "I should have realized..."
"First, take me out on a date, then maybe..." Peter cracked a grin. "Perhaps you could take me to your bedroom. Okay?"
"Are you playing hard to get?" Ken cracked a grin. They chuckled a little.
"I'm curious, have you ever dated a man?" Peter locked his gaze on Ken.
"Of course I have, and I'm trying to keep it a secret, but I've been dating a man since I was 25 years old. I was about to marry one of them, but it didn't work out." Ken exhaled a sigh. "He ended our relationship because I refused to come out, and he died of HIV a few months later. His partner, who came after me, had it, so he passed it on to him. It was the 1980s, and it seemed like everyone had HIV at the time, so I pretended to be straight for a decade or so. I married a woman and then a trans woman. However, I still prefer to be with men." Ken inhaled deeply.
"I've got a boyfriend, Ken." Peter stumbled. "I mean, I have someone. We're in an odd situation right now. He loves me, but I'm not certain that I love him. It's just so messy for me right now, Ken."
"I've divorced three times; you're fine." Ken laughed.
"I need to return to my children. I'm sorry.." Peter exhaled a sigh.
"Could you please stay? I'd like to speak with you about your company." Ken locks his gaze on Peter. "Or is it the other man you rushed home to see?" Ken cracked a grin.
"What would you like to discuss about the company?" Ken piqued Peter's interest.
"Get out of the company; I'm withdrawing all of my funds. Then just, work for me." Ken inhaled deeply.
"So, best of luck with your next endeavor. I'm not leaving my job." Peter rose to his feet. He may despise what Alex did, but he remains in love with him. And the only thing they have in common is the company. After that, Peter left.
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"Are you really sure?" Peter asked.
Sean nodded, the O ring gags stretching his beautiful lips. It took Peter half an hour to restrain Sean. He put a cock ring that was connected with a butt plug on Sean, so Sean's hole will be ready for him anytime. Then he used a shoulder to wrist restraint. It looks like a harness that has wrist cuffs attached to it, putting Sean's wrists bound behind his back. Peter also put on thighs and ankles restraints on Sean, he have a plan for it later on.
"I'm not going to check on you but you just tell me stop if you can't take it anymore. Okay?" Peter make sure of their arrangements again. He is scared of this because he doesn't know how Sean's react to BDSM that much. Sean nodded again.
It took them a full day to talk about this scene because Sean does not want Peter to check on him often. They talk about limits, boundaries, and what they want to explore in this scene. Sean has not done this for a long time, so he is kind of willing to try everything. But Peter was not comfortable with that, so he interrogated Sean for hours yesterday.
Peter wore leather chaps, a jock strap, and leather boots. He pulled Sean to a kneeling position and rubbed his crotch against Sean's face. Sean stuck his tongue out, trying to lick the jockstrap. Sean moaned, but the fact that Peter was in control of him turned him on, so his cock started to show his excitement. Peter grabbed Sean's hair and shoved his face closer to the crotch. Peter clenched his jaws. He mumbled his excitement. The wiggling tongue rubbed against his dick inside the jockstrap.
"Fuck.." Peter mumbled. He grabbed Sean's hair and pulled his head away. He slapped Sean's cheek twice, because Sean said he loves to be slapped and spanked. "Your tongue is naughty, so I have to punish you." Peter pulled Sean's hair again. He dipped into Sean's open mouth and kissed it. Sean's tongue was wiggling, trying to reach for more touch and sensation, but Peter pulled himself away, then a surprise slap landed on Sean's cheeks. Sean whimpers. The slap is like an electric jolt to him. Peter opened his mouth to check, but he remembered that Sean didn't like that. Peter started to feel some sadness creeping inside him. He missed his other half. He wants to do this with Alex. But when he looked at Sean's face, which was full of submission, he knew he had to continue with the scene.
He slipped his dick out of his jockstrap and fed it to Sean's already open mouth. He started to move his dick while Sean tried to wiggle his tongue around it. Peter grabbed Sean hard and shoved his face in and out of his cock. Peter clenched his jaws and took a deep breath. He finally pulled Sean's head all the way back and gave another slap on both of Sean's cheeks. He dragged Sean then sat on the couch. Then he manhandled Sean to lie on his lap. He felt Sean's hard dick on his thigh. He pulled the butt plug out and grabbed a leather paddle. Peter grabbed Sean's hair and pulled his head. Sean groaned and Peter could feel Sean's cock twitching on his thigh.
"You are my perfect naughty boy, aren't you?" Peter finally whispered in Sean's ears. Sean nodded. Peter took off the gag. Sean started to plead that he needed Peter. "What do you want me to do to a naughty boy like you?" Peter asked.
"Punish me, Sir.. makes my cheeks all red and sore. Please.." Sean pleads again.
"Hmm.. Your wish is my command, darling.." Peter kissed Sean's back around the restraints. Sean moaned. He tensed up a little. Peter rubbed his back gently. "Relax, take a deep breath.." Peter kept rubbing Sean's back until Sean relaxed again. Then he started to slap Sean's beautiful butt cheek with the paddle slowly.
Sean moaned. "More, please.. please.." Sean wiggled and his cock twitched again. Then came three hard smacks on his butt cheeks. "Thank you, Sir.. please I need more.."
"Yeah? More slaps?" Peter slapped the butt playfully. Sean nodded and kept pleading for more slaps on his butt cheeks. Peter finally slapped it with the paddle again a few times in a row. Sean squealed, but he pleaded for more. Peter lifted Sean up. Sean is so much bigger than Alex. He struggled a little. He led Sean to the bed and threw him on the bed, so he bent over on his stomach at the edge of the bed. Peter spread Sean's legs and his butt cheeks too, and then slapped the butthole five times in a row. Sean squeal but he did talk much after that impact. Peter can't hold it anymore he needs to check on Sean.
"Baby are you okay?" Peter climbed up to the bed and dragged Sean to the bed too. He hugged Sean because Sean's face was drenched in tears. Sean did not say anything and started to feel horrible. "Please talk to me, Baby.." Sean is tightly grasped in Peter's grip.
"..mfine.." Finally, Sean mumbled a reply.
"I'm sorry.." Peter wiped Sean's tears from his cheeks.
"Fuck me.. please.." Sean pleaded.
Peter flipped Sean over to lie on his stomach and released him from the restraints. Then he flipped Sean again to lay on his back. "I can't fuck you. You are dropping, baby. Please come back to me?" Peter grabbed Sean and rubbed him gently.
Peter wants to cry too. This never happened with Alex. Alex is his perfect sub. He should never have hurt Sean like this. Sean finally fell asleep after half an hour of aftercare. Peter left the bedroom after that. He walked to Alex's bedroom and knocked on the door. When Alex opened the door, Peter slid down to the floor and cried. He is in love with the man that only gives him pain.