Hate Me Before You Love Me (BDSM/Mature)

Chapter 11. The Winter Camping

“No news from Sean?” Peter asked.
“I think he is done with us?” Alex sighed.
“I probably deserve it..” Peter smiled bitterly.
“Thank you for last night..” Alex hugged Peter.
“Well, I, probably the one that needs to say thank you.” Peter held his breath.
Last night they both cried and had a long talk about their whole relationship. Peter still has not forgiven Alex, and Alex understands that. Alex told Peter how he has been a good boy after their break up, trying to be in therapy and not doing scene anymore. He still gets his release of his kinks from porn.
Peter explained to him that his problem was not becoming a dom for Alex; he enjoyed it as much as Alex enjoyed it. All he wanted was a break from it; he wanted an intimate moment with Alex like what he had with Sean now. But he also missed doing scenes with Alex; he said that Alex will always be the most beautiful sub he will ever have.
Some of the ice on their hearts seemed to melt over night, though they are not closer to starting to be each other's boyfriend anymore. Their friendship on the other side had gone better. They start to tolerate each other again, maybe even care about each other again.
This morning they started to feel like Sean would never get back with them ever again. And that fact took them back to the familiar feeling, it is only the two of them against this world. Because both of them have been toxic to each other for a long time started with Peter accusing Alex of something he did not actually do. Then their first break-up that they never talked about. Then Peter moves on with Alex’s ex-lover, Emma, leaving Alex alone to fight the world. Then, when they finally got back together, Alex became more selfish and manipulative.
They both know that they don’t belong together anymore. But after their talk last night, they knew that their love for each other was limitless. It’s just seemed to them that it was never at the right time. Peter promised that he wants a couple therapy sessions after this camping trip is over.
Their wondering minds suddenly stopped when the news said that there would be a huge winter storm coming at them tonight. They packed up right away and headed to New York City. They parked their trailer somewhere in New Jersey and got a hotel room in Lower Manhattan.
They texted Sean to come over if he still wanted these two dysfunctional men with him. He did not answer. It’s understandable that Sean did not texted back. Sean has not exactly been communicating much with them since he left them.
Their hotel is a small business hotel and it's pretty cramped. But it is close to Chinatown and Little Italy, so they can grab food by walking. They do not intend to go out much, especially when a storm is coming. They bring some cup noodles and food they can microwave from the trailer there.
That night, Alex bundles up next to Peter. Alex turns on some horror movie on the TV. He loves watching horror movies even though he usually hides in Peter’s manly chest when he is scared. Peter holds him like he used to. Alex just feels so happy.
“Peter, thank you for this..” Alex said.
“Alex, do you want to have sex with me? But mot a scene..” Peter asked.
“I..” Alex bites his lower lips. “I want that, but what about Sean?”
“Did you have sex with Sean?” Peter asked.
“Oh… Never… But he asked me before. I said that, I don’t think Peter likes to share him with me.” Alex looked down.
“You are right..” Peter sighed. “And I should not asked you too, now. I am still with Sean..”
“Beside, I would rather be your friend than your boyfriend. At least for now.. I have to fix myself first, Pete..” Alex rubbed his head on Peter’s chest.
“Alex, why did you cheat on me?” Peter took a deep breath.
“Because I’m stupid? I don’t know, Pete. I like to not be your perfect boy sometimes. I want you to really punish me for my bad behavior, discipline me..” Alex sighed. “I am addicted to the lifestyle..”
“So, you wanted me to caught you cheating on me?” Peter asked.
“I did.. I am a mess, Pete. I’m sorry..” Alex said. “I always rejected to have sex after my meet ups, giving you hints about it, but you just trust me..”
“Why didn’t you stop?” Peter asked.
“I did it like five times with and once with Emma. I did not do it as many times as I said before. And Chloe was the one that suggested this at first. After a few times we did it and it did not work I just stop.” Alex sighed.
“You trust Chloe? Come on Alex.. I thought you were smarter than that..” Peter said. He is not angry with Alex anymore, he is angry with Chloe. “She still wants you because you are her perfect slave. But she is so toxic!”
“And our relationship is not toxic? You lost your interest on me after year one, Pete. I have to try harder to make you want me..” Alex started to raised his voice now.
“What?” Peter shook his head. “What makes you think I lost interest on you?”
“You just become too busy for me..” Alex started to cry now.
“I was busy! The company is expanding and you leave me alone to do your job and mine..” Peter yelled but hugged Alex tighter after that. “I’m sorry.. But, I still love you. Even now..”
“Really?” Alex tilted his head.
“Yes, I still love you. But, we are not getting back together. For now, I have Sean..” Peter sighed.
Suddenly there’s a knocked on their door. Peter grabbed his robe and put it on. He opened the door and Sean was on the other side of the door with one other man.
“Can we come in?” Sean asked.
“Sure, but it will be cramped..” Peter smiled.
Sean walked in with the other man. He closed the door behind him. “So.. This is my husband, Clay..” Sean tried to push out a smile.
“Husband?” Peter furrowed his eyebrows.
“I am still married to Clay. But we are.. were separated.” Sean looked down. “I’m sorry Peter.. I’m sorry Alex..”
“Were?” Peter asked again.
“We decided to try it again..” Sean looked away and held Clay's hand tightly. “Clay is in New Jersey and I want to be with my dad. And the rest of my family is there. My mom is not getting younger..”
“Oh…” Peter sits next to Alex weakly. “I understand..”
“I’m sorry Peter.. You can join us if you…” Sean held back his words. “It’s not your thing. I’m sorry..”
“It’s okay, Sean. It is not my thing, you are right.” Peter smiled. It’s a forced smile, but he feels a little relieved. At least he would not be in an awkward position to have a threesome with anyone ever again.
“I will pick my stuff up before you go back to California, if you don’t mind?” Sean asked.
“Sure..” Peter smiled again.
“Okay, we are going back to New Jersey. And I am sorry, again..” Sean sighed.
“No need to be sorry. It happens..” Peter sighed.
Sean left after that, and Peter held Alex tightly that night. Somehow, he feels like something has been lifted up from his chest. Now, he can focus on fixing his relationship with his sweet one.
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They stayed in the hotel for another night because everything was just blocked by the snow. Alex started to get a little bored watching the TV with Peter, so he suggested that they should have sex, just for fun. And since Peter is single again now, he wants to do it without any hesitation.
They started it with a making out session. Peter missed Alex's soft lips and his responsiveness. Alex can get really hard just by making out with Peter. He already moans softly and his dick is already twitching. Peter can feel it in his thighs.
Peter groped Alex’s balls and played with it softly. “Fuck, Pete..” Alex moans.
“Do you like that?” Peter smirked.
“Oh yes.. Sir..” Alex's eyes suddenly opened wide. “I.. I’m sorry, Pete..”
“It’s fine.. Sweet one..” Peter smiled gently. “You can call me Sir. But, I am not punishing you.”
“Thank you.. I slipped out..” Alex sighed.
“Hey, it’s fine.. Call me Sir..” Peter smiled again.
“Yes, Sir. And I love you playing with my tiny balls. I love your big strong hands on it, Sir..” Alex whispers.
“Yeah? Would you like it if I rubbed it like this?” Peter rubbed Alex’s balls in circular motions.
“Yes.. Hmmm.. Yes.. Sir…” Alex grabbed Peter’s head and leaded it to his neck. Peter started to suck Alex’s neck, giving him a mark. “Oh… Hmm..” Alex moans again. “Pete, let me suck you, please?”
“Sure..” Peter let Alex go. Alex dived down and started to licked the head of Peter’s dick. “Oh, fuck.. You feel so good, sweet one..” Peter closed his eyes. He grabbed Alex’s hair and pushed his head down. Alex swallowed Peter's semi-hard dick and sucked it eagerly. Alex keep bobbing his head to Peter’s dick. His tongue is swirling Peter’s dick. “Fuck..” Peter cursed. He loves Alex’s blowjob.
Peter pulled himself up a little so he could watch the view of Alex swallowing his thick dick. Peter feels like his dick is getting harder. So, he grabbed Alex’s hair tighter and pushed his head deeper. Alex gagged a bit from the deep throat, but Peter knew Alex loved it. He told Peter that before and now he is even more eager to swallow Peter’s whole length. Alex’s motions got faster, but Peter pulled him out after a few minutes.
“I don’t want to cum in your mouth..” Peter said. “Come here, let me enjoy your lips again..” Peter pulled Alex on top of him. They made out again.
Alex pulled out from the kiss after a bit. “I want you to fuck me. Is that okay?” Alex asked.
“Yes, I will fuck you.” Peter kissed Alex again. His hand pinched Alex's nipples and twisted it.
“Fuck.. Please do that again..” Alex whispers.
“Like this?” Peter pinched and twisted Alex’s nipples again.
“Yes, Sir…” Alex’s eye balls felt like rolling to the back of his head from that sensation. Then another pinch came. “Fuck.. Yes.. Thank you, Sir..” Alex said.
Peter flipped Alex on his back and opened his legs. “Do you have lubes?” Peter asked.
“Oh in my backpack..” Alex answered.
Peter stood up and searched Alex’s backpack. He grabbed the lube. He settles himself between Alex’s legs again and pours a generous amount on his finger. He stuck  one finger in slowly. Alex moaned beautifully. Peter slides his finger in and out, but he knows he doesn’t want to hit Alex’s prostate yet. He slides out his finger and puts more lube on the next finger. He slowly put his second fingers inside Alex's hole. Alex whimpered. He did it for a few moments until Alex felt a little loose, then he slid in his third fingers.
“Do you think three is enough?” Peter asked.
“No.. Four, please? You are big, Pete..” Alex said.
“Fine..” Peter slides the fourth one as he agrees on it.
“Aaahh… Fuckk..” Alex grabbed the pillows tighter.
After a little bit, Peter replaced the finger with his dick. He started to slide his dick inside Alex. They both cursed and moaned. They did it slowly this time. It took Peter almost 7 minutes to finally came inside Alex. He collapsed next to his lover after that. Alex came too, because Peter kept hitting his prostate with his dick.
“Thank you, Pete..” Alex said.
“This does not mean we are getting back together, okay?” Peter said.
“Yes, I know..” Alex smiled
“But, we will try again..” Peter said.
“Yes, we will..” Alex kissed Peter’s lips softly.