Hate Me Before You Love Me (BDSM/Mature)

Chapter 30. Two Months Later

Peter stared at the naked man next to him, and a sadness creeped up on him. After they lost the baby, Peter told Bella and Alex that he'd done with them. Peter blamed Alex for pushing him to try again, and he didn't blame Bella, but he couldn't push away his sadness if Bella was still around. Peter rubbed the red marks on the man's back; he did that to that man earlier. He pulled out his flogger earlier that night and did a very hot scene with the man. He flogged the man at least fifteen times, and the man just moaned in pleasure. Suddenly, the man turned around and faced Peter. He rubbed the man's face gently as the man gently inched closer to him.
"Pete, are you okay?" It's a rare case that his sub actually checked on him. Alex is always too selfish to do that.
"Is it bad if I said that I missed Alex?" Peter shook his head gently. He knew that Alex moved to Texas with Bella, but he doesn't really want to talk with Alex for now.
The man sighed gently. "I knew you still loved him. You should fly there and talk to him."
"I can't, Ken." Peter shook his head.
He ran back to Ken after his life fell apart from losing the baby. The real reason he broke up with Ken was because Ken announced to his kids that he's retiring and that he wants to openly date Peter. His kids were pissed off, and Peter told Ken that they should break up. Ken was so upset back then that he threw his phone at Peter, and it hit him on the lips. His lips bled out, and Peter was so disappointed with Ken. He knew Ken didn't want to hurt him on purpose, but it's his principle that you should not hurt anyone without their consent. Peter said he wouldn't tolerate abusive behavior, and he told Ken not to contact him or Alex ever again. Peter knew that Ken was not aiming the phone at him or his lips, but he was very disappointed with Ken's self-control. When he ran back to Ken, Ken admitted that he went to therapy after that incident. He said that was the first time he did such a thing, and he went to therapy to make sure it would be his last. Ken told Peter that he wanted to throw his phone to the floor, yet it flew to Peter instead. But he also admitted that he needs to get his anger under control.
They were only apart for half a year, but Peter could see how Ken is more calm now. He doesn't rush the relationship anymore, and he learns what BDSM means for Peter. Sometimes he hired a professional sub for Peter, and he would watch them do a scene. The sub was usually a woman because Peter said that he had no interest in having sex with another man. Peter said that Ken, Alex, and Sean are the only men that he wants to think about. Ken surprised Peter by inviting Sean into their relationship. Sean was happy to get to know Ken, and they are a great match because they are both great subs for Peter.
Peter felt another man's hand rubbing his stomach. "Good morning, Sean." He turned around and stared at the other man.
Sean smiled and gave a gentle kiss to Peter. Then he pulled himself up and went on top of Peter to kiss Ken's lips. "Good morning, handsome." He laid on Peter's chest.
Peter rubbed Sean's nipples, which were ripe from some of the abuse he gave him last night. And Peter knew he was happy at that point, but he still thinks about Alex a lot. He never got a divorce from Alex; basically, they are still married. Sean communicated with Alex sometimes, but Peter told him he didn't want anything to do with Alex again.
"Are you both okay? I knew last night was an intense scene." Peter rubbed his hand on Sean's head while his other hand held Ken's hand.
"I'm very energized from the scene last night, actually." Ken smiled and kissed Sean again.
"Ken was so hot last night, I want to suck on his balls again soon." Sean smiled.
Last night, Peter bound Sean's wrists to Ken's thighs and told him to suck on Ken's balls while he flogged Ken's beautiful bare back. They installed a hook on the ceiling that Peter would tie one of them to. Last night it was Ken's turn to have his arm bound with a rope that Peter tied over to the ceiling hook, then the rope pulled onto another hook on the wall. He put Ken on a spreader bar too, so he got his cock and butthole exposed for Peter to use. He made Sean kneel in front of Ken's flaccid dick and then clipped his wrist cuff to Ken's thighs cuff. Ken ended up with both Peter's and Sean's load inside him last night.
"I love you. Both of you make me so happy." Ken snuggles his boyfriends closer. "But, you really should travel to Texas and talk to Alex if you missed him." Ken smiled bitterly. The truth was, Ken and Sean knew that one day Peter would go back with Alex.
"I don't think that's a good idea." Peter sighed.
"What if I told you that Alex is not really in Texas anymore?" Sean gently sighed. "He moved back to San Francisco a week ago. I saw him once. You told me you didn't want to hear about him, so I didn't say anything. I'm sorry."
"You don't need to be sorry, Sean. I love you and Ken so much that I don't want to think about Alex anymore. Can we stop talking about him?" Peter sighed.
"I want to take you both on a date today." Ken kissed Peter and Sean.
"I have work, Ken." Sean rubbed his eyes. He stood up after that.
"After work, then?" Ken pulled himself up. His face gave a grimace of pain for a moment.
"Are you okay?" Peter worried about Ken for a moment.
"You lashed me so many times last night; of course my back and buttocks will be sore, Mr. Handsome Dom. But I am perfectly content with that pain." He kissed Peter gently.
"Let me use some balm to soothe it then, please." Peter asked.
"I am asking Sean for a date tonight; please let him answer, babe." Ken chuckled. He loves how gentle Peter is outside their scene. Even during the scene, Peter always took good care of him, and he knew that it was not easy because both he and Sean were beginners compared to Peter and Alex.
"Sure, I'll try to be home before four. What do you have in  mind?"Sean is half-yelling from the bathroom because he needs to be at the school he teaches in 45 minutes.
"Just text me when you are done. I will pick you up with Peter." Ken smiled gently. The truth is, he doesn't yet know where he would take his two secret lovers.
"Ken, I thought Carmen wanted to interrogate me tonight." Peter raised his eyebrows.
"As much as I love my daughter, I am not letting her ruin what we have." Ken shook his head. His kids are still very hesitant about accepting Peter and his kids, and they knew about Sean too. They were not happy that Peter kept inviting people to date their father.
"I have to talk to her eventually. I am here to stay, I promise you." Peter kissed Ken gently.
"I'm almost fifty; she can't treat me like I am a teenager. I refused to entertain her silly idea that I needed protection from her. I raised her, not the other way around." Ken rolled his eyes.
"Pete.. I think we need to take Cole to Alex's place one of these days. I just want him to grow closer to Alex." Sean started to put on his clothes.
Peter stood up and helped. Sean buttoned up his shirt. He kissed Sean's nipples and asked if they felt hurt from last night. Sean just shook his head and told Peter that he only felt amazing that morning. Ken stood behind Peter; he wrapped his arms around Peter's naked hips and put his head on Peter's shoulder. Sean stole a kiss from Ken, and then he giggled. Peter pushed Ken's hand to his flaccid dick. He asked Ken to fondle his dick and balls while he helped Sean dress up. Sean cursed a little because his dick started to betray him. Instead of calming down, he doesn't have to get out of the apartment with a hard on.
"Pete, please don't do this. Mmh... Fuck.." Sean moaned as Peter fondled Sean's dick gently, like Ken fondling his dick.
"Ken dropped on your knees and sucked Sean dry, please." Peter kissed Ken's lips.
Ken followed Peter's order and started to suck Sean's dick. Peter dropped on his knees too; he sucked on Sean's balls and kissed Ken's lips down there. At some point, Ken sucked on the left side of Sean's dick while Peter sucked on the right side, and then they kissed each other with Sean's dick in between them. Sean cursed, put his hand on Peter's and Ken's heads, and led them to suck him. Sean felt his dick was about to explode soon enough because he was in love with these two men who were sucking him. Seeing them play with his dick and balls while kissing each other just turned Sean on. Sean had multiple partners before, but he never had anyone that's as sexually compatible as Peter and Ken to him. His ex was more interested in having more partners than actually trying to satisfy Sean's needs. Sean finally emptied his balls that morning, not long after Ken started to suck his dick. Ken and Peter licked each other's lips to clean up Sean's cum from their mouths. They let Sean go to work after that.
Peter went back to working with Ken, and his kids continued to be homeschooled. He felt like there were so many decisions in his life to settle in one place. Alex begged Peter not to separate Cole from Russ and Bea just because he messed up. He signed his guardianship to Peter before he left for Texas. The kids barely knew what happened, but they knew that Peter was grieving. They were a happy family one day, and the next, Alex and Bella were leaving them. Peter asked for Alex's address before Sean left that day. He asked Ken if he could meet Alex. Ken told him that he's worried, but he wants nothing more than what makes Peter happy. Peter has been happy since he went back with Ken, but he knew that he had to talk to Alex eventually. He drove to the address that Sean gave him. He finally called Alex for the first time in two months to tell him that he was in the lobby.
Alex came down five minutes after Peter called. Alex looks different; he bleached his hair to platinum blonde, and he has more muscle than before. Peter noticed that he still wore his wedding ring, unlike Peter. They didn't talk much in the elevator. Alex lets Peter in to his new apartment. Peter tried to look for Bella, but he couldn't find her.
"So, why are you here?" Alex asked without any hesitation.
"Where's Bella?" Peter asked.
"You dumped her after she lost your baby; you are a dick for that." Alex's attitude really changed, and Peter noticed that right away.
"Do you want me to arrange for Cole to stay here every weekend?" Peter asked again. He was a little sad to admit that Alex was right; he was a dick to Bella.
"You just can't apologize, can't you?" Alex clenched his jaws.
"I don't want to." Peter answered coldly.
Bella is finally inching out of the bedroom. "Peter." She called Peter gently.
Peter stared at Bella. She looks as different as Alex; she has short brunette hair with a blue streak in between. Peter saw Bella gain some weight and get a little curved on her now. "Hey, Bella. I'm sorry for not contacting you after we lost the baby." Peter sighed.
Bella ran and hugged Peter. "It's not your fault, Peter. It's my fault. I'm too weak to keep the baby. I'm sorry.." She buried her face in Peter's chest and started to sob. "I'm sorry I ruined your marriage. I'm a horrible person." She continues.
Peter felt so sad that she blamed herself. He never blamed Bella for anything. He partially blamed Alex, but it's not an isolated incident with Alex. "Bella, you shouldn't feel sorry. My marriage to Alex was done before it began. I am happy now. I don't want you to apologize for anything. Okay?" He tilted her face up and wiped her tears. He didn't kiss or do anything that he usually did when Bella was upset. He can't feel that he is still in love with this woman anymore.
Alex pushed Peter away. "You can't touch her anymore." He ordered Peter.
"I won't." Peter gently moved away and put a distance between him and Bella.
"Alex, you and Peter belong together. I'm just your sex toy." She sobbed.
"You are not my sex toy, baby. I love you, and you know that." Alex rubbed Bella gently, but then his hand moved to her crotch and he slid his hand inside Bella's shorts.
Peter shook his head. "I was thinking that I could talk like an adult about Cole. But of course you just tried to gaslight me again. So, fuck you, Alex!" Peter turned around and headed to the door. The funny thing is that he doesn't feel aroused anymore by his ex-partners. His mind and heart belong to Ken and Sean now.
"Wait, Pete.." Alex called him. "Bella, I need to talk to Pete." He kissed Bella, and Bella left him and Peter.
"Can you talk like an adult?" Peter turned around and stared at Alex.
Alex's expression changed to sadness. It's Alex that he knew for a decade again. Alex was just pretending earlier that he had changed. "Fine, you are happy, and believe me, I do want you to be happy. I moved back because I heard our company that we built is struggling. I want to buy it back, and I want to work with you again. Bella needs us, baby." He grabbed Peter's wrist.
"No, Alex. I moved on. You can send the divorce papers to Ken's address. I am happy with him and Sean now. You have no idea how great it is to be free from your toxicity." He shoved Alex's hand away.
"I'm not sending you any divorce papers. I still want you." Alex started to sob, but Peter just scoffed.
"No, your tears don't mean anything to me anymore. I care about you and Bella, but I realized now that you are so toxic that I never feel happiness with you. I just forced myself to be with you because I feel guilty. I don't feel that anymore, even if you cry in front of me and beg me to stay." Peter shook his head.
Alex rubbed his eyes. "Fine, just send Cole here every weekend then. But I am not signing any divorce papers. I want to get our company back."
"I'll drop him." Peter walked out after that. There's some relief inside him. He apparently lost all pity for Alex, and he doesn't know when that will happen. He cares about Alex and Bella, but he doesn't feel the same way as before.
He picked up his phone that's been buzzing for a while. It's Ken, and he knew Ken was worried that he would lose Peter to Alex again. "Hey, babe."
"So... do I need to cancel tonight's date?" Ken took a deep breath.
"No, I'm heading home now, and I really want to fuck you so badly. I missed you, babe." Peter chuckled.
"You know, even Sean was anxious. He kept texting me." Ken chuckled a little.
"I saw him and Bella. I don't feel the same way about him anymore. So, we are going to celebrate tonight, and I really want to do a special scene tonight." Peter chuckled again.
"Oh, I am all in. Actually, I bought something new. I want you to use it tonight." Ken sounded excited.
"Well, you need to show it to me before tonight because I need to plan what I want to do." Peter felt happiness warming up his heart.
Ken agreed to show it when Peter came back home. Peter felt a little bit guilty that he couldn't love Alex like he did. But Ken and Sean gave him the love that he needed from Alex all these years. Maybe he would patch it up one day with Alex, but all he wants now is Ken and Sean.
That night, Ken took Peter and Sean to the BDSM cabin that Peter used once with Alex. They upgraded the cabin a little. There's an X-cross and wood pillory now inside the bedroom. Sean looked like a child when he saw the inside of the cabin. He pointed at everything with excitement. Peter laid his head on Ken's shoulder and smiled. Ken was finally able to grab Sean and pull him into a hug with Peter.
"I'm only renting the cabin for a day because I know you are working tomorrow. But I am planning to rent it again next weekend." Ken smiled.
"Are you two ready?" Peter smiled, too. Both Ken and Sean nodded.
He told them to take off all their clothes. Peter swiftly took off his clothes, and then he pulled out the duffle bag that he packed. He pulled out a shoulder-to-wrist restraint and put it on Sean. He told Sean to kneel while he's working on Ken's restraint. He tied Ken up to the x-cross, and then he pulled out what Ken just bought. Ken told Peter that he was curious about CBT, so he bought a leather parachute. Peter put it on Ken's balls, and he told Sean to kneel in front of Ken. He told Sean to prop his butt up. He gently worked on Sean's butthole, and then at some point he just slipped an anal hooked to his butthole. He tied up a rope to the end of Sean's anal hook and tied the other end to Ken's leather parachute. As he moved Sean around, the parachute on Ken's balls got tugged gently. Ken moaned a little, but his dick got harder very fast from it.
"Ken, are you okay?" Peter asked.
"I'm great, baby." Ken took a deep breath.
"Sorry, Ken." Sean apologized.
"Please don't be. I'm enjoying you pulling my balls around, honey. Ah..." Ken moaned as Sean moved a little closer to Ken.
Peter moved Sean a little bit and then put Ken's semi-hard dick inside Sean's mouth. He told Sean to start sucking Ken's dick. He pulled out Sean's favorite flogger and started to flog Sean's juicy butt, causing him to jerk and twitch. Sean's movement tugged the leather parachute and made Ken mumble. Peter stopped to enjoy the view for a few seconds. He pulled Sean's lips from Ken's dick and pushed his flaccid dick toward him. As Sean moved around to suck Peter's dick, his anal hook kept tugging Ken's balls. Peter landed his lips on Ken's lips and then started devouring the older man's lips. His hand twisted Ken's nipple and Ken moaned from the pain and pleasure he experienced right now. Once he thought that his dick was hard enough, Peter pulled out the anal hook from Sean's butthole and inserted himself inside Sean. He pushed Sean's head back to Ken's dick. He started to suck more intensely as Peter fucked him. Peter rubbed Sean's dick as he penetrated the man. It was an amazing feeling when the three of them orgasmed almost at the same time. Peter released both Sean and Ken from the restraints and told them to take a shower while he prepared some dinner. Ken ordered a takeout, so Peter just needs to microwave it. He brought the dinner to the bedroom while his two boyfriends were snuggling each other. Peter felt like his heart was content as he saw that. He joined them, and they had a great sleep that night.

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** Notes: I'm marking this book as "ended" for the time being because it will be put on hold while I focus more on my two other projects. I hope you enjoyed it, and I am sure I will continue this one day! Thank you for reading this book!
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