Hate Me Before You Love Me (BDSM/Mature)

Chapter 23. The First Scene

Peter finally met Robyn again the next morning, and this time Robyn apologized to Peter. Robyn said that Ken explained everything in text to him last night. He didn't know that Peter and Alex were getting a divorce; he thought that Peter was cheating on Alex with his dad. It was a short conversation, then Robyn said he needed to go back to the office. Peter had not spoken to Alex or Sean since last night, when he spent a romantic night with Ken. Maybe Ken will be the one that will love him forever, but he doesn't want to rush into it. They made love once again last night, and this morning, Peter asked if he could be the bottom, and they did it again this morning. Peter finally feels like someone has actually fulfilled his sexual needs and will love him exclusively.
"Babe, are you working today?" Ken asked, then, wrapping his arms around Peter.
"Hmm.. I don't know. I think so. I need to go back to my place. I need to see my kids.." Peter smiled and kissed Ken's cheek.
"Oh, right.." Ken wanted to take Peter somewhere, but he remembers now that Peter has kids.
"You sound disappointed?" Peter chuckled.
"Peter, do you want to date my son?" Ken holds his breath. He still feels guilty about Robyn, although it's not his fault that Peter had sex with him and dated him instead of Robyn.
"What? No.. I want to date you.." Peter turned around and stared at Ken.
"Robyn is transgender. He.." Ken was trying to avoid eye contact. "He adored you long before I even knew you or Alex existed. I feel like I sabotage it and you know.." Ken sighed.
"Do you want me to date him?" Peter doesn't know what to say. He does miss being with a woman, but Robyn is not a woman. He'd never been with a transgender before.
"I don't want you to date him. But, I'm a father. You know how that feels too, right? That you just want your kids to be happy no matter what it takes?" Ken could not contain his sadness.
"I'll take him on a date if that is what you want. But I want you, not him. I do know how it feels.." Peter admired Ken. Ken adopted these kids years ago and he is still willing to do anything for his kids. This is the same feeling that Peter has for Russ and Bea. He knew they were not his biologically, but that didn't matter. He is their father and he is willing to do anything for them.
"Thank you.." Ken smiled bitterly and kissed Peter's lips gently. He loved this man with all his heart. He knew that now. because it's so painful to ask Peter to give Robyn a chance.
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"So you did this because my dad asked you to, right?" Robyn chuckled.
"No.. I.." Peter looked down. Of course, Robyn knew he was not stupid.
"Or you are bored with regular men and want to try something else?" He raised his eyebrows. Robyn knew that Peter was bisexual and Alex was pansexual.
"No.." Peter doesn't want to explain this to Robyn. "Can we just enjoy the night?" He hopes that Robyn will stop asking and just play along.
"Fine.. I'll stop.." Robyn chuckled. "I only had top surgery and used hormones, just so you know.."
"Robyn, I'm not going to have intercourse with you.." Finally, Peter replied.
"Oh? My dad told you not to have sex with me?" Robyn stared at him. It kind of irritates Peter.
"I'm here not because your father said I have to do this, okay?" Peter finally shut down Robyn.
"I'm sorry.." Robyn knew he had crossed the line.
They are dining in Robyn's apartment, which is one level below Ken's penthouse. Ken flew out to LA that night and allowed Robyn to use his pool if he wanted to entertain Peter there.
"I'm not hungry. Let's swim instead.." Robyn has not touched his food yet, and so is Peter.
Peter does not want to do that, but he also promised to Ken that he would have a date with Robyn. So he hesitantly agreed to go swimming. He knew Robyn just wanted to get naked with him.
When they finally got to the swimming pool, Robyn took off all his clothes right away. He only wore his underwear and dragged Peter to do the same. Peter had never been intimate with a transgender before, so his head was kind of spinning out of control. He doesn't want this at all. He only wants Alex or Ken. He knows that sometimes he jokes about wanting Alex to be his girl and dressing Alex in female attire, but this is something else.
Peter felt so uncomfortable that he ended up rejecting the invitation to swim with Robyn and went home instead. He knew Ken would be mad at him, but he would take the anger because he didn't want to be with Robyn.
The next day, Peter finally told Alex and Sean to move out, then told Alex that he was quitting their company. He wants to focus on raising Russ and Bea. Cole threw a tantrum when he knew that he had to move out with Alex. Peter saw that Alex was shattered by this reality. He barely spoke after Peter told him what he wanted.
Sean, on the other hand, knew that this would happen and accepted it. Peter told him he could stay and teach Bea and Russ, but he and Sean were done in terms of relationships or sex. Sean just nodded. He said he would stay until he found a good job and a place to live.
Peter knew the kids hated him because he ripped them apart from their older brother, but he just couldn't stand Alex anymore. He couldn't let Alex keep hurting him like this. He knew that Cole would never forget him for doing this to the family. So, Peter ended up locking himself in the bedroom for the rest of the day.
But around 2 pm, there was a soft knock on the door. Peter unlocked the door and opened it. On the other side of the door, Robyn was standing there. But he dressed up as a woman and even put on some make-up. She is beautiful as a woman.
"Can we talk?" Robyn asked.
"Yeah sure.." Peter let Robyn in. They sat on the sofa across from the bed. "You look.." Peter hesitates. He doesn't know if it is appropriate to call Robyn beautiful.
"You can say it.." Robyn smiled. "Is this better for you than last night?"
"Last night was not because of your looks, Robyn.." Peter sighed. "I'm just not comfortable doing anything intimate with you. I am dating your father and I'm still married to Alex."
"My dad said that you want to have sex with a woman.." Robyn gave him puppy eyes.
"And you are not a woman.. Why are you doing this? Come on Robyn, you are a man.." Peter closed his eyes and shook his head.
"Alex said that you liked him when he dressed up as a woman.." Robyn kept defending his decision.
"We are consenting to do that and there's a lot of talk before that. And we did it because we wanted to be playful, not for this. Robyn, you can't just say you are a woman again to me just because that's what I want. That's not right.." Peter's annoyance grew with every second that Robyn pushed him.
"Fine.. I'm.." Robyn sighed. He is not there to tease Peter after all. "My dad sent me here to say I'm sorry.."
"Oh.." Peter doesn't really know what Ken knew, but this is a lot better than what he thought it would be. Peter thought that Ken would hate him for ruining the date.
"He cares for you and me. The reason I came here as a woman is because I want you to give me another chance. I know you are bisexual, not pansexual. So, maybe this confuses you less.." Finally, Robyn tells the truth; he still wants Peter. His dad told him to stay away because Peter might not be right for Robyn after all.
"I never feel confused with you. But I like Ken, and he is a great dad. He cares about you so much that he asked me to go on a date with you. But I'm just not that kind of person. People ask me all the time to have a poliamory relationship, but I'm just not that man. I'm sorry.." Peter stood up and started to pace around Robyn. "Look, I'm sorry.. but if you want a good man, I can introduce you to Sean. I don't know if he can enjoy it with you because he is gay, but he is nice and he likes to be in a poliamory relationship."
"So you don't want me either way?" Robyn asked.
"I can't do that to your father. I know he is not your real father, but he is a good father.." Peter took another deep breath.
"He is a great father.." Robyn wiped away his tears. "I can't ask for a better one. I'm sorry.."
"Oh, Robyn.." Peter sat back down on the sofa and rubbed Robyn's back gently.
"He was so supportive of my transition, I'm stupid for asking this.." Robyn sighed "My dad loves you and I should have respected that.."
"It's fine, Robyn.." Peter still rubs Robyn's back.
"Look, um.. Dad is coming back, please have dinner with him tomorrow? Maybe even bring the kids?" Robyn smiled finally.
Before Peter had time to answer, Cody and Alex walked into the bedroom. Cody was obviously still sobbing and Alex tried to calm him down. "Pete.. this is all my fault. I know. So.. if you don't mind.." Alex realized that Peter was hugging Robyn, and his heart broke again. Of course, Peter will find love easily because he is handsome and kind. He wasted his chance because of his stupidity.
"Cody can stay if you allow him.." Peter stood up and walked towards Cody. He hugged Cody and apologized to him. He loves Cody. His heart is aching to see Cody miserable like this.
"Thank you, Pete.." Alex slowly walked away. He is a masochist, but this is more painful than anything he can tolerate.
"Alex.. I need to talk to you later..." Peter knows that Alex is hurting now. He is losing everything he had.
"Okay.." Alex didn't even turn around. He sighed, then left the bedroom.
"Cody.. you can go back to your room. I'm sorry that I did this to you. I love you.." Peter kissed the top of Cody's head. Cody nodded. He was still sobbing, but he felt a lot better than before. He can stay with Russ and Bea; that's the most important thing for him. He walked out of the bedroom too after that. Peter took a deep breath and turned to face Robyn. "Um.. Robyn, I will arrange when I'm ready to be with your father again. But I need my time. If you excuse me, I need to take care of this child's issues with my husband." Peter pressed his lips together.
Robyn stood up and fixed his dress. He walked towards Peter and hugged him. "Can I at least kiss you once?" He stared at the handsome man. Peter nodded. Robyn went for the lips. The softness of Peter's lips intoxicated him as he enjoyed the kiss. But Peter pulled away fast. Robyn had to respect Peter's decision. He said his goodbyes and left Peter alone in the bedroom.
Peter texted Alex to come back to the bedroom. He doesn't know what will happen, but he just can't let Alex be in this pain alone. Alex came back a few minutes later. They sat on the sofa, but none of them was actually talking, so after a bit, Peter decided to start the conversation. "How do you want this to work?"
"What can I do to fix us?" Alex's eyes were already all teary.
"I can't be with you anymore.. I'm sorry.." Peter felt the pain in his heart by saying that.
"I'll be your sex slave or whatever you want me to be. I just need you, Pete.. I can't do this on my own.." Alex sobbed.
"You promised me that before.." Peter sighed. Alex didn't actually cheat on him this time, but the video and the fact that Alex lied all these years about Russ and Bea just hurt him so badly. "Let me be free for a while. Maybe one day, our paths will cross again. But for now, I just want to find someone that loves me as much as I love them."
"Can I at least stay close to you and Cole? And could you please stay with the company?I just can't do this alone.." Alex pleads.
"If Sean is willing to live with you, sure.. but it's his place, so you have to ask him. I will not be going back to the company. I'm sorry. You can sell it if you want.." Peter sighed.
"Then we'll sell it. I can't build a company alone, Pete.." Alex finally calmed down a little.
"I'm sorry this had to end like this. I love you; I just can't trust you anymore.." Peter held Alex's hand and gave him a kiss on the cheek. "I hope the kids and you can forgive me for doing this."
"You did nothing wrong.. I'm the stupid one. I will fix myself, I promise you. And one day, we'll be together again.."Alex stood up. He just doesn't want to talk too much anymore after that. Because there's no point in insisting on something that he won't get anyway.
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Two weeks after that, the company was sold and Sean moved back to Boston. Alex has remained in the compound and is now working part-time for a technology firm.Peter finally took a part-time job at Ken's company. He worked with Robyn as the technical and engineering advisor. Basically, their lives came back to normal.
Peter is dating Ken now, and he often spends the night in his penthouse. But Ken has been asking Peter to spend time away from their kids together. Peter hesitates because Cole kind of hates him for trying to tear their family apart. And he also hesitates because most of Ken's children do not approve of their relationship. But he knew that his kids needed to know about his new lover. Ken is different than Sean or Alex, but the thing that makes Peter uncomfortable the most is how they have to sneak around to date Ken. They mostly do stuff at Ken's penthouse, and it has everything, but he also wants to go outside with Ken and show him up to the world.
That night, Ken stayed over at Peter's place for the first time. There are a lot of questions that Ken wants to ask about stuff in the bedroom. Because it seemed like Peter had a specific taste in sex that he never told Ken about,
"So, that is why you don't want me to go here?" Ken raised his eyebrows and pointed the chain that's laid in the floor.
"Oh shit.." Peter had not been in the bedroom much. He sometimes slept on the couch in the living room at his kids' place. He tried to avoid Alex as much as he could, and being with the kids was one way to do that. Alex tried to stay away from the kids because he knew that he eventually needed to get away from them and he just wanted to get used to it. So he never really put some of the equipment back inside the box. And now he's scared of opening that box in front of Ken.
"Tell me about it.." Ken is interested in this kind of thing, but he is old school. He just does sex like a regular gay guy.
"That's just what Alex likes. I just did it.." Peter lied. He, of course, enjoyed it, but Alex liked it more than he did.
"What if I told you I'm curious? You're the dom, I assume?" Ken smiled.
"I am.. I was.." Peter sighed.
"Peter.. I want to do it with you.." Ken smiled.
"It's complicated stuff, Ken. I don't know you that well. I'm just.." Peter sighed again.
"Can you just tie me up for the first time? I want to try.. please?" Ken bites his lips.
"Are you sure?" Peter is still hesitant about introducing his secret kink to Ken.
"Being with you is different than with anyone I have been with. And if this is what you like, then I want to be a part of it." Ken grabbed Peter closer.
"Fine.." Peter smiled and drew Ken to the bed. He pushed the older guy to lie on his back in the middle of the bed and ordered him to get naked then stay there. He grabbed some cuffs for Ken's wrist. He suddenly felt sad. He used to do this to Alex, and he missed Alex. But he has to move on. Peter put the cuff on Ken's wrist and he could see that Ken's dick was twitching from that. Peter calmed Ken down and told him that if he needed to stop, he should tell Peter. Ken just nodded.
After he hooked up the cuff to the ring that was built into the bed head, Peter started to tease Ken with kisses. He was being very playful with his kisses. He pulled away once in a while to let Ken try to reach him. Ken loves this teasing so much and is kind of regretting that he has never done this before with anyone before.
"Are you feeling alright?" Peter whispered in Ken's ear.
"Mmhmmm.. I am feeling so hot for this. Do something to me.. please.. mmm.." Ken moaned and mumbled his words.
Peter started to suck on Ken's nipple and Ken's body tensed out a little, then he moaned that he wanted more. So, Peter decided to pull Ken's nipple with his teeth.
"Oh.. oh... fuck.. yes..." Ken pulled the cuff away as a response to the sensation on his nipple.
"You want more?" Peter teased Ken by circling his finger around his nipple, then he nibbled it again with his teeth.
"Yes.. please.. hmmm.." The cuff jiggled again, and Ken grabbed hard at the cuff this time.
Peter sucked the other nipple and then pulled it with his teeth again. Ken felt like he was on cloud nine. Why hadn't he done this before? Peter pinches both Ken's nipples and then twists them. Ken kept screaming in pleasure, enjoying this tease of pain. Peter pulled Ken's legs apart, then spread apart his butt cheeks. Peter started teasing Ken's hole with his tongue. Ken's body wiggled and tensed up from the sensation, and he begged for more.
Peter stopped after a bit because he saw Ken was almost on his edge and he grabbed the lube. He poured some on his finger and started to open up Ken's hole even more. Ken felt like he was about to explode, but he held on because he wanted to finish when Peter was inside him. Ken finally rushed Peter to get inside him, even though his hole was not fully ready to welcome Peter's grith. When Peter started to penetrate him, Ken felt so peaceful. He felt like he was floating. He doesn't know if he can have regular sex and enjoy it after this.
Peter quickly unhooked the cuffs and lay next to his new lover as they both finally unloaded their cums. Peter wants to cry because he misses Alex so badly. Ken is great, but Alex is his soulmate. Their sex is just above and beyond. Peter stood up to grab some drinks and lotion for Ken's wrists. Every step is hard for him to take because it reminds him of how he took care of Alex every time they had a scene. He is still in love with that stupid man who kept hurting his feelings.