Hate Me Before You Love Me (BDSM/Mature)

Chapter 17. The Top Drop

The next morning, Peter woke up and no one was beside him. He rubbed his eyes and heard some giggling. He stood up and saw Alex was kneeling next to the bathroom sink, his wrist bounded on his back. Sean playfully slapped his dick on Alex's cheeks. Peter somehow felt horrible looking at that. He rarely felt a top drop from a scene, but he felt like he was experiencing one now. He felt like they just used him for their pleasure, and once they got that, they preferred to do it with each other. So Peter grabbed his clothes and put them on. He walked out and headed to the all day dining to grab some breakfast.
As he sat down after grabbing some stuff on his plate and a drink, someone tapped on his shoulder. "Peter?" said the woman behind him. He looked back; it was Cass, his ex-girlfriend from collage. "Hey.." Peter stood up and she gave him a cheek to cheek kiss.
"It been a while, right?" She chuckled and then pointed at the empty chair. "Can I sit here?"
"Yeah sure.." Peter smiled. The last time he saw her was when he broke up with her, to be with Alex.
"So.. I heard you are very rich now?" Cass smiled.
"I don't think those are the right words, but I do own a company now. How are you?" Peter asked.
"Are you here alone?" Cass sat across from Peter and put down her plate. "And I am doing good, well, probably not as good as you are. No husband, no children, just married to my job." Cass chuckled.
"I'm here with Alex and one of our friends." Peter smiled. Cass looks pretty with her red hair and green eyes. Peter still feels horrible from seeing Alex and Sean having fun this morning. He could never make Alex and Sean have that much fun; it just really brought him down.
"You have a wife, right?" Cass started to eat, but she looked at Peter when she asked the question.
"No.. I got divorced four years ago and she passed away last year. I'm back with Alex now." Peter pressed his lips together. Is he even still with Alex now? Because right now, Alex and Sean are having fun without him.
"Oh.. Gosh.. I'm sorry for your loss!" Cass stood up and hugged Peter. She sat back down after that.
Peter smiled bitterly. He really feels awkward when someone does that. Because, he obviously still had a lot of issues with Emma when she passed away. Suddenly, he saw Sean waving at him from a distance. He's holding Alex's hand. Alex looks perfect. And Peter still has his drop because he just forgot to do aftercare last night, for him and for his subs.
"My husband is here." Peter gave a forced smile to Cass and stood up to welcome Alex and Sean. The two men approached him. They hugged upon their arrival. Alex was surprised to find Cass.
"Cass!" Alex said loudly.
"Hey, boyfriend stealer.." Cass winked.
"Oh come on.. That was ages ago.." Alex hugged Cass.
Sean whispered to Peter while Alex talked to Cass. "Why are you leaving us?" Sean asked. Peter did not answer. So Sean just grabbed his hand and held it. "I'm sorry for this morning. We did not do anything, I promise.. " He explained. He knew Peter must have seen him and Alex playing around. But they really just play around, nothing more than that.
Peter suddenly lost his appetite. "It's great to see you again, Cass. I'm going to go now. I just.. I'm tired.. I'll see you around." Peter stood up. He just doesn't want to be near Sean and Alex at the moment. Peter smiled and nodded to Cass, then he walked away.
"What happened to him?" Cass chuckled.
"No idea.." Alex smiled and winked at Cass. "So, what are you doing here?" He continues to flirt with Cass. He doesn't know why he did that, but he is obviously a little annoyed with how Peter is avoiding him.
"I'm going to look for Peter." Sean is worried now. He must have done something terribly wrong.
"Yeah.. Go ahead. I'm staying. Besides, I'm hungry." Alex waves his hand.
Sean shook his head and walked away. He found Peter in their hotel room. Peter just sat on the couch and read something on his phone, so Sean came closer. "What did I do?" Sean asked.
Peter lifted his head to look at Sean. "Nothing. I'm just.. I don't know.." Peter took a deep breath. "I feel like I failed to be your dom, or Alex's. You guys just don't think I am important." Peter pursed his lips.
"What? That is not true at all. Is it because we played without you this morning?" Sean frowned.
"I just feel.." Peter felt petty enough to admit that he got a top drop. He just felt crappy that day. He felt like Alex rebels too much and doesn't respect him as his dom. But since Sean is not a part of their marriage, he could not blame him.
Sean suddenly dropped to his knees. "Can I serve you this morning, Sir?" Sean pushed Peter's legs apart.
"No.. Please.. I don't want to do this. I feel crappy. Okay?" Peter pushed Sean's hand away.
Sean sighed. He sat next to Peter. "What can I do for you then? We only have one night left." Sean wrapped his arm around Peter. "I still love you.." He chuckled. He knew he was stupid to love a married guy.
"I'm not in love with you, Sean. I'm sorry. I invited you because I wanted to make Alex happy. And I think I did. I just.." Peter kissed Sean's cheek gently. "I'm sorry.. I should not have invited you. If I knew you still have feelings for me, I would never have invited you." Peter shook his head.
"So this is all just sex for you?" Sean felt like his heart was broken to pieces.
"No, this is all for Alex. Who do I think is with Cass now? Flirting with her?" Peter closed his eyes. "Alex might leave me after all. This is all useless. I could never be good enough for him." Peter put his hand over his face. "I'm such a failure. I got married twice, and both times I couldn't satisfy any of my spouses." Peter chuckled. "Pathetic, right?"
Sean felt really bad for Peter. It seems like he always has the worst luck when it comes to his marriage. He was not so lucky either with his marriage, but at least he never felt what Peter felt now. "Maybe they are just not who you were supposed to end up with?" Sean asked carefully.
"I'm just a pathetic loser. No matter how hard I tried, I kept failing." Peter sighed. "I'm going to pack my bag and leave. Please take care of Alex for me.." Peter stood up and started to grab what he could and stuff it into his bags.
"Peter.." Sean wanted to hold Peter back, but he knew that Peter was in pain.
"I'm sorry, Sean.." Peter zipped up his bag and left.
Alex came back to the room around half an hour after that. Sean had already left too. Sean was in love with Peter and was only there for the chance to be with Peter. Because Peter is gone, he just doesn't want to stay anymore. Alex panicked as he saw the two men actually leave him. He should have known something was wrong with his husband. Peter tried his best, and he was still a naughty little slave. Alex started to call Peter, but he had no luck. Then he called Sean. Sean picked up the call.
"Sean! Oh gosh... Thank you.. Are you with Peter?" Alex asked.
"No, he left. I still love him, Alex. I'm sorry. I only did this for him." Sean sighed.
"Where is he?" Alex asked again.
"I don't know. He was really upset with us playing without him." Sean explained.
"He had a dom drop. Please help me find him? I don't want him to.." Alex imagined the worst. He doesn't want Peter to end up like Emma.
"I'm still in the lobby. I'll go back up.." Sean said, after an awkward moment of silence.
Sean went back and found Alex tracking Peter's phone. "Is that even legal?" Sean asked.
"He let me put a tracking app on his phone after Emma had that accident." Alex explained. "Let's go.." Alex dragged Sean.
They found Peter sitting alone in a cafe. Alex smacked Peter's back. "Don't ever do that to me again!" Alex cried after that. He was scared that he would lose Peter as he had lost Emma. Peter should have told him he had gotten a top drop instead of hiding it.
Peter finally went back to the hotel because he didn't like the scene Alex caused in public.
Now the three of them sat awkwardly on the bed. No one really wants to start the conversation.
"Pete, why didn't you tell me you were having a top drop?" Finally, Alex spoke.
"I'm fine." Peter sighed.
"What is that?" Sean asked innocently.
"It's when a dom feels crappy after a scene because he didn't get good aftercare." Alex explained horribly. "Pete, I love you. I was just joking around with Sean this morning." Alex slid down and put his head on Peter's lap.
"I'm a failure. I can't satisfy Emma, and now I can't satisfy you.." Peter finally told Alex how he felt.
"Pete! You are not a failure! I am.." Alex now cried on Peter's lap. "I'm sorry.. I'm a horrible person.." Alex is sobbing. "Please, do anything to me. Hurt me, so I can get your forgiveness for this." He continues to plead.
Peter pulled Alex up and sat him on his lap. He wiped Alex's tears away and kissed him. "Can I have sex with Sean while you watch?" Peter rubbed Alex's cheek. Alex nodded enthusiastically. Peter chuckled. "I'm not going to do that.." Peter kissed Alex's cheek gently. "I love you.."