Wonderland In Ruins

Chapter 1: Elucidation

My name is Alicenne Dawne. I'm 17 years old. The story of my downfall is a haunting tale. It all started when I met him.

He made me feel special. I felt high without the utilization of drugs. That isn't the smartest way to feel.

In my case at least.

..They say the fast life is short lived..

No truer words have been spoken. As we ended the relationship soon after it began.

But that's another chapter...

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My mind has been deteriorating for a while now. All the things i enjoyed seemed to melt away each day.

I would lay in bed after school and go on my laptop and rot like a corpse.

Six feet under.

Instead of going out and doing gymnastics and Muay Thai like i usually did.

I wouldn't eat, so my muscle would be the first to go.

I'd hate how skinny I was but i would feel helpless and powerless to change it, so i would just lay in bed and hope that someone would save me..

Everybody I talked to or called a "friend" were nowhere to be seen in this struggle. I've learned to trust nobody but myself.

My best friends, Matilda and Dylan, helped a lot. They are my everything to this day. They write to me, in my current dwelling.

Rutledge Asylum.

I've gone mad, yes. But it's not my fault.

People say suicide is selfish but..if we reach out to those around us and they don't help..isnt that even worse than denying yourself anymore existence in this beautiful world?

Think about it..