Wonderland In Ruins

Chapter 2: Dejection

The day I met Keith, my world was illuminated with happiness.

I loved him..

He betrayed my trust, he abused me.

My dad taught me Muay Thai in hopes of building my confidence and to help me protect myself, this happened in April, after my birthday.

Keith hated it because I fell in love with it. It made me feel like i had a purpose in this life. I felt important.

I stood up to him, i fought back. I wasnt the same weak, insecure girl he met a few months ago.

Then we broke up.

Summer was here.

Finally.

I met some new friends over this break. Friends I will hold dearly forever.

Keith comes back. Promises me a bunch of shit that he doesn't go through with and THAT'S how i end up where i am now.

Never give yourself up for a guy or girl, people. If they can't accept EVERY part of you, they don't deserve ANY part of you. It will be hard, if you love them, but it'll save you a crapload of pain in the long run. TRUST ME.

I lost myself because after I quit Muay Thai for the guy I thought loved me, he took complete control of my vulnerability.

I hate him for that.

I'd like to say that the only people who actually care for your well-being is your parents. None of your friends will take care of you.

I thought i was doing better, ya know? But then he kept toying with my emotions and hurting me any chance he got. I gave up.

I started starving myself and cutting. My entire world was falling apart and nobody cared. Or even knew. I would smile with my friends but Dylan was the only one who even knew anything.

He threatened to kick Keith's ass all the time. I wish he would though. But I know how Keith is..

I wouldn't stop hurting myself, so my friends talked to my parents and here I am.

My lovely rehabilitation center.

Rutledge Asylum.