Falling Stars [h.s]

Chapter 53

Harry

I went into Harper's bedroom then Oliver's to find them both fast asleep. I went to the bedroom. Priscilla sat by her vanity, removing makeup. "Hey babe. I left you a plate of dinner in the microwave."

"I'm not hungry." I went over to the closet, picking out something more comfortable to wear to bed. A pair of hands grabbed me from behind as I tried changing. I turned around to look at Priscilla, "What are you doing?"

She smiled and proceeded to wrap her hands around my neck, "You know, it's been almost two years since we have been intimate. I know it's mostly my fault, but we can try if you want." I grabbed her hands, carefully removing them from my neck

"You can't keep doing this Priscilla?"

"What do you mean by that Harry? I thought we were working things out and making this marriage work for the sake of our children."

"I never said that P. I'm with Aurora. I really want this relationship with her to work."

She let out a loud scuff before walking away from me. "You shouldn't have kissed me tonight. I know you only did it to upset her. You've got to stop this Priscilla please. Please can you respect my relationship with her?"

"Do you love her?"

"What?"

"Do you love her? Are you in love with this women? Do you see yourself getting married to her?"

I sat down on the edge of the bed and let out a sigh. I've thought about the question for a really long time myself. Did I see a future with Aurora? I asked myself the question every single day. It helped me to remind myself of what could be, but the truth was I didn't. No matter how much I wanted to or no matter how much I wanted to see myself married to Aurora and having a family of our own, I just couldn't.

"I'm not in love with her."

"Then tell me why are you wasting your time on her? It is me you are in love with. Can't you see that? I know loving me can be difficult sometimes, but you have to admit that at the end of the day it is me you love and not her. Stop wasting your time with her and make time for us to make our marriage work and raise our family. Please Harry."

"I am not in love with her now, but I know in time I will. I love you Priscilla, but I think it's time for our love story to end don't you think? We can exist as two individuals raising their kids together. Can we do that please?"

I looked over at Priscilla. She was upset and tears streamed down her face. Suddenly she grabbed a vase from the table and chugged it in my direction. The vase hit the wall and shattered into pieces, it's contents spilling onto the floor as well. "You are a sick man you know that!"

"I'm sorry."

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry! Is that all you have to say for yourself? I'm tired of hearing you say you are sorry Harry! Your apologizes mean nothing to me just like your promises. Who are you trying to convince with your apologizes because it sure as hell isn't convincing me. You are a cruel man who cares for no one but himself."

"I'm sorry."

"Stop saying you're sorry! Stop it!"

"I don't know what else to say."

She took a couple of steps towards me and talking in a whisper, "Do our vows mean nothing to you? Do I mean nothing to you Harry?"

"You mean everything to me P. I just can't love you in the way you want me to anymore."

"You are the only person I have ever known. The only person I have ever been with my entire life. How do you expect me to let go and move on from you when all I ever known since I was a young girl was you? Do you not remember the plans we mapped out for our future when we were eighteen? Can you not remember the promises we made? The love we felt? How do you expect me to just forget about all the years we've been together, all the laughs, the pain and the love we shared? I can't lose you Harry. If I lose you, I lose myself. Please just remember why we got into this in the first place. Don't you remember your love for me was so strong that you wouldn't let anyone come in between us? No matter how many things or people tried to stop us from being together you never led up. Please remember that strong love you had for me because I will never be able to forget it."

"It's time to move on from that. We were merely kids when we first fell in love. We were oblivious to what love was and were blinded by other things."

"I can't move on. I don't know how to love anyone else."

"Yes you do. I know you do. With one look anyone would be stupid enough to not fall in love with you."

"Does that make you stupid then?"

"I guess it does in a way."

"Why are you doing this Harry?"

"I want to see where my relationship with Aurora goes. I want to be able to love someone else other then my high school sweetheart. What if we got it all wrong? What if our perception of love is all wrong because the only love we have ever known was each other? Don't you want to know if there is more to love than what we experienced together?"

"No. I don't because I can assure you there is nothing more to it. Our love was the best ever. Loving you was and is the best experience of my life. Our love was sweet and a safe place for the both of us when the world was against us. Don't you remember Harry, it's always been you and me against the world."

"I told you before and I'm going to tell you again; I will always love you Priscilla. No matter what happens, no matter if we go our separate ways, I will always love you. Can you please give me the chance and opportunity to explore this a little more? There is a missing piece, I can feel it. I think Aurora might have that piece I am missing."

"You're breaking my heart." She cried silently.

"I'm sorry."

She roughly wiped away her tears with her sleeves then turned around. She walked over to the table and grabbed something before walking back over to me. Avoiding eye contact with me she held out a pen and the divorce papers in front of me.

"Sign it."

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