Falling Stars [h.s]

Chapter 70

Aurora

The next day I was locked up in my home office. I couldn't stop thinking about yesterday's events. His tear filled eyes. His pleads. The pain. I didn't want to hurt him. I know I did, but it was never my intentions. I could never intentionally hurt him, especially the way I did. But everything I said was true. I have moved on. My feelings for Harry had slowly disappeared within this past month that I've been with Odysseus.

I tapped the pen against the desk as I stared at the blank page. I was trying to write a letter to Harry. To tell him I'm sorry. To tell him why I no longer felt the way I did before towards him. It was hard trying to explain everything on paper.

'Dear Harry,

They say loving someone that is bad for you is what causes you to eventually lose yourself. I never really understood that until I let myself go trying to hold onto you. Loving you was the easy part. Convincing myself that you love me too was one of the most heart wrenching things I ever found myself doing. You said you cared. You made me believe you did, but as soon as things got difficult you turned your back on me. Even if so, loving you wasn't difficult. Maybe it was your smile. No. It was your smile. It was your smile, your kind words and the memories we shared that always pulled me back in even when your actions tried to push me out.

To answer your question; what is love? I can't tell you really what love is when I don't have much experience with it myself. What I can tell you is that I've learned a lot throughout the years about love and what I have encountered. If I were to define love I would do it in three different ways. There are three kinds of love you will encounter in your life. In my experience at least.

First love... this is the one where

Next you'll eventually encounter your second love. Second love tends to be the hard one. There is no denying you'll get hurt in this one. Even so, this love makes us stronger with all the lessons it teaches us. In this love we will encounter pain, lies, betrayal and most of all damage. Even with all that, this love helps us grow. Our second love makes us realize exactly what it is that we love about love and what we hate as well. It helps us to become cautious, careful and more considerate. It helps us see exactly what it is that we want and what we don't want when it comes to love.

Then there's your third love. It's one that comes blindly. It's a love we don't have to go seeking for, instead it comes and finds us. Your third love will break down all your walls and get between any closed spaces to be with you. Effortlessly you care for this love more than you have any one else. They see the beauty that lies within and your perfect imperfections. This is the love you see spending the rest of your life with. You never want to let go of this love. You want to marry this love. You want to have a family with this love. This is the love that will last forever until eternity. This love is the happily ever after everyone seeks for.

I did love you once upon a time. I'm glad I did. I thank you for the experience of what loving you felt like. I'm sorry I couldn't express the same feeling towards you anymore. All I ever wanted was to hear you say you love me too. I wanted a life with you. A marriage. A family. I knew eventually you would figure out your feelings but as you become familiar with what you felt, I began to lose those feelings. Waiting for someone to love you back is hard and impossible. I've waited a long time and I just couldn't find the energy to do so anymore. There is this saying by Rania Naim.. - The difference between us is that I heal myself when I'm broken but you break people when you're hurt and then my heart starts to wonder if this is where it truly belongs. The difference between us is that I don't find joy in dishonesty and you find pleasure in deception but eventually your manipulation brought the end of our story. -

And it did. Your lies. The manipulation, the betrayal, the pain. It brought us to the end of our story. Now that I've moved on you have come one with your feelings for me. But its too late. I don't see myself going back. I have found the person I want to spend the rest of my life with. I have found the love I have been seeking all along. I found my happily ever after and he will give me my fairytale ending.

I'm sorry if my words are hurting you. I don't want to hurt you. Never. I could never want to hurt you because I care too much about you. Please don't let this be the end of our friendship. Even if we can't be together anymore I love you all the same. I love you no matter what. You taught me a lot, even the pain that came along the way has taught me so much. I tried loving you for as long as I could, but you know sometimes it just becomes too much trying to love someone who is in love with someone else. You were still aiming for the starts while I was trying to reach the moon.

- You lost her and now she lights up the night time sky for her new lover cause he recognized her as the moon. And you envy him. She could've been your moon but you were too busy chasing the dimly lit starts. - A quote by Zienab Hamdan...

I pray you find what you are looking for in life. I pray you find your third love. When you do find it, hold onto it and cherish it. Promise to never hurt her or make her feel a way that she will come to second guess herself. Promise to love her in a way you've never loved anyone before. You are an incredible person. I know you will find your third love. You are so charming that it won't be too impossible for you to find the person you will want to spend the rest of your life with. A person you can call your family.

Thank you for being a part of my life. It was a crazy yet wonderful journey. I'm proud to say I knew you and loved you once upon a time. Thank you for all the memories Harry. I will cherish them forever. I can't wait for the memories we create with our daughter.

I love you always,

Aurora.

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"Where are you headed?" Odyssey asked as I pulled on my shoes.

"I wrote a letter for Harry. I want to give it to him in person. I didn't like the way we left things off so I'm hoping this letter will make up for it."

"Oh okay, drive safe."

"I will." I grabbed my car keys, as I opened the door I came face to face with a strange guy. He stared back at me with a smile, holding something in his hand.

"Aurora Scarlett Hall?"

"Yes?"

He held out his hand, urging me to take the envelope in his hand, "you've been served."

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