Falling Stars [h.s]

Chapter 66

Aurora

"What are you going to do?"

I shrugged my shoulders in response to Odysseys question. I didn't know what I was going to do. About Harry that was. Our relationship was going nowhere. There was no future there. He doesn't want me and I can't continue to waste away my life. The only logical thing to do was to end it. End everything having to do with Harry.

"The only thing left to do."

"I'm sorry Aurora." I looked over at Odyssey who sat rubbing her growing belly and giving me a half hearted smile. Odyssey and I had worked things out. Of course I never had anything against her. I couldn't be mad at her nor Harry for what they did. It happened and it's in the past. No matter what happens I was always going to forgive her. She's my best friend. She's always going to be my best friend no matter what happens between us. We've been through so much together mentally and physically to throw everything away because of something so silly. Even if it did hurt me. I love her too much to lose her.

"It is what's best."

"What about Layla Alaska?"

"I won't keep him from seeing her. He is her father, I can't keep him from her. I don't want to. I actually want him to be more present in her life, it'll be good for her having the both of us around. I don't want her to grow up without him, it'll be too painful for her in the end and I don't want to cause her pain. I'm certain Harry feels the same."

"When are you going to talk with him?"

"We are meeting later tonight."

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I watched him from a far. He stood with his back to me. His hands in the pocket of the pants as he looked up into the sunny sky. Standing there in that moment I was already anxious about what was to happen. Afraid of the outcome that was to become. For a long time I was afraid of falling. Falling not only for him but everything else that followed. But in that little moment, watching him as he gracefully stood their, it made all my doubts go away. I was no longer afraid.

"Harry?"

He swiftly turned around at the sound of my voice. His big dimpled smile that I always adored stretched out onto his face. Taking his steps towards me, my stomach begin too churn. I didn't want to do this, but it was the right thing to do. We can't continue on like this. It was making us both miserable and causing us to lose our true selves. Harry wouldn't have agreed, but it was no longer up to him. I had to take matters into my own hands. In this moment, I had to believe every word that was to come out of his mouth would be a lie. Manipulation. I can't allow it anymore.

He took my hand, interlocking our fingers. "How long have you been standing there?"

"Not long."

"You said you wanted to talk?"

"I do."

"Do we have to?" He questioned. I studied him for a while. He was always trying to avoid talking about everything. It was a bad habit. The only way to make a relationship work was through communication. Harry lacked the trait of communicating or expressing his feelings. To me anyways.

"Please?"

"Okay. Let's go inside." I followed him into the cabin, thankful that he didn't try to fight me on it this time around. He took a seat on a chair, watching me intensively, "What is it that you want to talk about?"

I pulled on my lip with my teeth. I didn't want to do this. But I have to. It's for my own good, I know this. No matter how badly I wanted to be with Harry. No matter how much I wanted us to work, it was time to let go. "I think it's time for us to part ways in this relationship."

He sighed and shook his head, "Please don't say that."

"We aren't working Harry. If I'm being honest, we were never going to work. From the start it was never meant to be. You and I were never meant to happen and that's okay. I've come to terms with it, I hope you can too."

"I want to be with you Aurora."

"No you don't."

"I do." I walked around the cabin, stopping at a window. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath.

"You don't want to be with me Harry. You like the idea of being with me. We all like the idea of wanting to be with someone from our past but really we just don't want them to be with someone else. When we see that person with someone other than ourselves, we try our hardest to get them back because we think we want them when really we just don't want them to move on with someone else. And when we do get them back we realize it was just panic and emotions. Not something that would be long lasting. When I first met you, I fell in love with this image of you that I implanted in my brain, but as time went on you showed me another version of you that I can't say I was pleased with. This side of yourself that you showed me isn't the Harry I had fell in love with."

"I've changed."

"People don't change. They just think that they do."

"Don't you love me Aurora?" I took in his question then turned away from the window to face him.

"I don't think any one of us truly knows what love is. You asked me before to define love and I don't think I gave you the right definition. Love is not pain. It's not an emotion nor is it a feeling. Love is honesty and trust. Love should hold your hand and help you through your toughest storms. It is a safe place. Love is when someone knows your deepest secrets, but still doesn't think any less of you. Love is supportive and encouraging. Love is beautiful. But even then sometimes love is not enough. I do love you Harry. But I am done chasing you. I am continuously breaking my own heart trying to get you to feel the same way and it is honestly just not worth it anymore. I told you before there would always be a special place for you in my heart, now that it's filled with so much hurt I just don't think I can afford to fit you in anymore."

"I don't know how to love you."

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