Falling Stars [h.s]

Chapter 39

Aurora

"Do you want to talk about what happened?" I shook my head no to response to Harry's question. I wiped my tears with the tissue he had given me before laying back on the seat and looking out the window at the house I once called home.

"Whenever you're ready, I'm here. Okay?"

"Okay."

"Good. Now let's go get some food to eat. Niall and Mery are already waiting for us at the restaurant. It isn't too far from here so we should be there in no time." I continued to watch the house as Harry drove away until it was no longer in sight. I let out a deep breath, closing my eyes to control my emotions. I thought back to all the things I said to my mother. Suddenly beginning to regret it. No matter what she still was my mother and I had no right talking to her in that manner. Especially if that was the last time I was ever going to be seeing her. I wanted to go back and apologize profusely, but I knew there was nothing to be sorry for. She was the one that brought this onto herself. She made me say all those things. And everything said was nothing but the truth. Why am I feeling sick to my stomach then? I've never spoken that way to her in my entire life. This time was different. I did it to protect my daughter. I had to think of her and just not myself anymore. Layla was my responsibility and I wasn't going to allow anyone to harm her in any way. Physical or mentally.

At the same time all I wanted to do was crawl under my bed and cry my eyes out. For saying such things to my mother. For being so disrespectful to her. And especially for allowing those to be the last words I would ever say to her.

The car came to a stop. I opened my eyes seeing that we were parked in front of our destination. Harry got the of the car first. He went to the backseat, helping Layla out of the car. I got out as well, meeting them halfway before we walked together into the place. We looked around the almost empty restaurant, trying to find Niall and Mery. Niall had spotted us from a far and waved us over.

"Hi guys!" Niall had stood up to properly greet us, pulling me into a tight embrace, Mery following suite.

"It's so nice to finally see you again." I told her with a smile.

"Likewise! It's been so long since you left this city. I've missed you so much, there really isn't anything much left to do in Cambridge you know?"

We took a seat in the booth, Layla sitting between Niall and Harry who made small talk with each other. "I know what you mean. I've felt that way for years living here."

"Is this your daughter?" Mery asked I'm excitement.

"It is. Layla Alaska is her name. She recently turned seven."

"Oh she's the cutest thing ever!"

I smiled wholeheartedly, "Thankyou."

"Why don't we order first then we can do some catching up while we wait" Niall suggested, everyone agreeing. After ordering our preferences, The four of us continued to make small talk, trying to catch up on all the missed years. I had told them about living in California with Odyssey and Zayn and their kids. Also about my recent trip with Louis and Liam.

Mery had shared with us their life as well. They recently moved back to Cambridge after leaving to Ireland for two years and then the Netherlands for another two.

"Are you two married?" I questioned her.

"Yes we are actually. I'm sorry we weren't able to invite you to the wedding. I would have loved to have you there, but we had no way of getting in touch with you."

"Oh it's okay my love. How was it?"

"Oh it was beautiful and everything I have ever dreamed of! We got married in the Netherlands just a year and a half at the Castle De Harr. It was a winter wedding so we went with the winter wonderland midnight blue theme of course. I've always had a thing for the midnight blue scenery of it all. It was the best day ever really. If I could do it all over again I certainly would."

"That sounds really beautiful Mery. I'm so happy for you."

"Thank you, and what about you? Married or seeing anyone in particular?"

I looked over at Harry who was looking at me curiously as well. I cleared my throat, turning my attention to the glass of ice water in front of me.

"Um, no. It's complicated."

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