I'm his | Draco Malfoy

The truth?

I don't wish Harry goodbye, when he leaves for the Weasleys. I'm sure Dad is wondering why I didn't go with him, and probably they are too, but I can't care less. I'm not going to spend time with Harry if I can avoid it.

The dark side of the medal, though, is that I'm left alone with my thoughts. Right now I need Draco more than ever, and I can't stop thinking that if Dad hadn't said the things he said, I would still be able to reach out to Draco, and tell him that I miss him, and be with him.

I wouldn't tell him about the slap, of course, but at least I'd know Draco would be with me. That would be enough, for me, that's always enough.

"Via?" Remus enters my room, after knocking lightly on the door. I look up at him, from my bed where I've been sitting for hours. "Yeah? You need something?" I murmur. Remus sits down next to me. "Are you okay?"

This question almost brings me to a dry laugh which I hide coughing slightly. "Why wouldn't I be" I say. "I don't know, but you don't look okay, and Harry has gone over at the Weasleys and you're still here, so something definitely happened between you two." "Does Dad know?" I ask, worried. Remus shakes his head. "No, he just thinks you aren't crazy about the Weasleys." "I am crazy about the Weasleys" I say, offended. "How can someone not be?" It's true, the Weasleys are perfect.

"You know, Molly - Ron's mother - had six siblings. The Prewetts. Two girls with her, one of them married a Black, and four boys. They were amazing. They pulled pranks, they were our idols." It's clear he's talking about the Marauders. "When they left school, we took their place - we were already making pranks at that time, but then we got big, like, really big." I look at him, he's lost in those times, his brown green eyes shining with mischief.

"Too big, sometimes" he adds. "Like the time of the prank on Snape when Dad told him to go to the Whomping Willow." "Yeah." "Or the time when Harry's dad showed everyone Snape's underwear." "Sirius told you that too, eh? Yeah, like that time. The thing is, we were always there. No matter how big the troubles we were in, we knew us four were there for each other."

"Tell that to Pettigrew" I say, only half joking. Harry and I still feel Peter's betrayal on our skin as though we were the ones betrayed.

"Right, you're right, but you know what I mean. You can't live Hogwarts without friends." "Or love" I choke back. Moony looks at me, curious. "Exactly. That's why you need to solve whatever shit you have going on, Via, and get back with that Malfoy kid if that's what you want" it was what I wanted "or with Harry, or I don't know, a girl. You need to have friends, who will love you no matter what."

"A girl?" I raise my eyebrow, and Moony blushes, making me giggle. "I mean-" "Why, did you love a boy, Uncle Moony? Did Dad? Did James?" I ask.

My question, who was meant as a joke, actually makes him stutter, and I gape at him. "YOU DID!" I exclaim "YOU LOVED A BOY! WHO WAS IT? WAS IT DAD? PLEASE TELL ME IT WAS DAD-" Remus glares at me, but I can't respond to him because Dad actually enters the room too, and stands near the threshold with his casual posture as usual.

"Why are you talking about me?" Dad asks, smirking. Remus doesn't say anything so I talk. "Moony was just telling me about the boy you loved in your youth" I say. Dad's reaction makes me laugh, because it's the same Remus had. "He- he was?" he looks over at Remus, carefully, but he's avoiding his glance. "So it's true! You loved a boy! Oh this is so cute!" I beam.

"I didn't love a boy" Dad snaps "I still do." I can't actually answer because Remus' face is something indescribable, and Dad's face too, and I'm not stupid, so I realise it immediately. "OH MY FUCKING GOD" I exclaim. "Language" Dad says but he doesn't seem to really care.

"If we could please stop talking about this" Remus clears his voice. "No way-" "Olivia." Dad's voice is serious, for once, so I obey. "Key right. Sorry. I just can't... Anyway. Anyway anyway anyway." Remus chuckles and after a moment, Dad does too.

"Okay. I was giving you a talk James would have been proud of and you interrupted me" Remus murmurs, offended. Him and Dad seem too busy looking at each other, and reminiscing old times, so I just leave the room quietly, and none of them tell me off.

"A boy" I hear Dad say when I exit the room "how did you come up with that? Hope you didn't tell her that Prongs had a small crush on Regulus too?" I choke, then gulp down quickly. This is getting interesting. "I didn't, because James' love wasn't Regulus after all, it was Lily and it always has been her." "Just like you have always been mine" Dad says, I can hear the smile in his voice. My heart swells.

I want a love like this.

In the next days, I haven't got much time thinking about it luckily, because I try to do my homework and read too much in Dad's opinion. I just want to get good marks in my OWLs, that's all.

The days pass slowly, without Harry, but after all I finally find myself at King's Cross, waiting for a familiar face to appear. "OLIVIA!" Fred's voice calls me and I turn, his arms immediately holding me, and George joins in the hug. "We were sad you couldn't come" Fred says, when we pull back, smiling. "It's a shame that Malfoy dumped you, really." I realise that's probably what Harry told them. "It is?" I ask. "No it isn't. It's a shame you are sad, though" George grins, and we jump on the train together.

We find ourselves a carriage, and I half listen to them talking about their Christmas holidays and some prank they pulled on their mom, Molly as Remus told me. But it doesn't take a lot of time for me to notice that something is off.

Students keep coming at our carriage, whispering and indicating me, and after it happens six times, I ask a Second Year Ravenclaw what all the fuss is about. She smiles, knowingly. "Astoria Greengrass told everyone the truth" she says, giggling with her friend near her. "The truth?" Fred asks, curious. "Yes" the girl goes on "about your kiss with Harry Potter."

My face must show my bewilderment because the twins brush off the young girls and close the door of the carriage. "My what?" I ask, chokingly. George frowns at me. "You kissed Harry? When you were at Sirius'?" he asks. I shake my head vehemently. "No! I would never!" I understand they don't know the full truth so I tell them "Draco didn't dump me, we're just getting a... pause after we had a huge fight at his place." The twins nods knowingly. "See? I would never kiss Harry when I'm still with Draco!"

The rest of the train trip passes quickly, because George and Fred keep talking about why on Earth Astoria would say something like that and we arrive at the obvious conclusion that she just wanted to have Draco all for herself. I don't even waste time talking with her, because I know she's with Draco and I don't want to see Draco now, all I want is to arrive at Hogwarts and sleep.

When we arrive at the castle, I leave the twins, and try not to get near anyone because I know they're all whispering about me. I arrive in the bathroom, the same bathroom where Draco and I fought that day, and I look at myself in the mirror. Is this who I am?

I can't think much about it, because Draco arrives behind me, and shortly after him there is Harry. I'm astonished by the fact that these two arrived together, but I realise they were probably just looking for me at the same time.