Smile for me

* CHAPTER TWENTY TWO *

UCHE'S POV

One week and three days since the last time I spoke to Dede, it feels like a whole year. After she crashed her lips on mine taking me unaware, my mind has been racing, thinking about everything. I've missed her- I keep trying to deny it but I have.

When I got home that day I was very confused, confused about what had happened. The way she kissed me like she needed me, the way her lips felt so soft and so right until Chioma walked in and I got my sanity back

"I'm sorry Uche, I don't know why I did that" she said but why should she be sorry, I kissed her back too but then she said she didn't know why she kissed me and that hurt me, it made me angry too. I know she was on her period that day, she acted on her hormones

I stayed at home all day the next day so I could think about what had happened but all I could hear was Dede's voice

"I don't know why I did that"

It kept playing in my head over and over again, I watched the phone ring with her name flashing on the screen, I read her text message and I purposely refused to reply her. I switched off my phone so she would stop calling and texting

The next two days were very hard and I felt stupid for walking out on her, I wanted to hear her voice but I didn't want to call her. I switched on my phone again so she could text me or call me but she didn't

I even considered calling Emeka so he could give me a little advice but then I don't want him to ever find out about Dede knowing the kind of guy he is

The past week I have continually asked myself why I let a little kiss like that get to me and I still have no answer, it's not supposed to go like this.

  𝑾𝒉𝒚 𝒅𝒊𝒅 𝒔𝒉𝒆 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒌𝒊𝒔𝒔 𝒎𝒆 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕?

  𝑩𝒖𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒌𝒊𝒔𝒔𝒆𝒅 𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒃𝒂𝒄𝒌 𝒅𝒊𝒅𝒏'𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖?

The conversations I have been having in my head keep confusing me the more.

Today I home alone again, mom noticed my demeanor when I got home that day. I know she's very worried about me and the fact that I refused to work for the past week probably has her confused and I know she thinks it has to do with the strike.

The silence everywhere in this house is killing me, my head need answers I think my heart already knows. I need to see Dede but I don't know what to tell her, I pick up my phone from the bed and dial Emeka's number before I can stop myself, he picks up almost immediately

My guy! His voice has the usual cheer and giddiness, I take in a deep breath

Emeka I need advice he clears his throat before speaking

Ah, oya now wetin happen? I stay silent, I have no idea what to say to him now, why did I even call him again?

Abi should I come to your place? He asks, I nod my head forgetting that he can't see me

Yes please and I end the call

I need to think of what I want to tell Emeka, even though he's a little notorious I know he's a good friend and he's really the only person that really knows me. But what advice do I even need from him? Why did I call him again?

I hear a knock on the door, I already know it's him from the way he's knocking on the door. I throw my phone back on the bed and rush to open the door

"Ah ah where you close by when I called?" I ask him

"𝑬𝒏𝒉 𝒊 𝒃𝒊𝒏 𝒅𝒆𝒚 𝒈𝒐 𝒔𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒘𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 but your voice sounded really urgent" I nod my head at him, he walks in while I sit down on the couch. (Yes I was going somewhere else)