Lost [bts; k.t.]

3 - Night

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I stood up, clenching my fists. Should I go to V?

He's the guy I like, right? But why do I feel like I shouldn't do it? Why do I feel like it's wrong?

I could feel all their eyes on me. I moved closer to him. Yup, closer.

A little more, Ree.

I stopped. I bent down and kissed his cheek. They all gasp. Probbably suprised by what I did.

"You like, Jungkook?!" Jimin gasped.

Yes, I kissed Jungkook. I didn't kiss him. I can't. I can't do it.

I tried to glance at V and he was grinning at Jungkook and clapping. Did you hear that?

It's my heart breaking.

I bit my lip and returned to my seat. Jungkook gave me a 'what-was-that' look. I ignored him and stared at the sand we were sitting on.

Is he going to remember me?

That's the only question that was on my mind right now. Is he ever going to remember me?

I don't care if we can't become a couple again. I want him to remember me. I want him to remember my memories with him.

He was the only person I had. I can't afford to lose him. He was the only person that cared and loved me for who I am.

Oh god, I sound like I'm in a fucking drama. Wait, maybe I am.

We decided to sleep. Everyone was fixing their things. But I decided to stay outside first.

I need to be alone for a minute. I can't stand watching them. They were hugging and kissing infront of me.

It's like they're purposely doing it infront of me. It's like they're purposely breaking my broken heart.

"Hey."

I noticed a presence beside me. I lifted my head and turned to that person.

Suga.

"Mhm?" I asked, hugging my knees and resting my chin on it.

"Are you sure you're okay..? With all of this? I mean, you should've just stayed at home. We really don't want to force'"

I gave his hand a pat. "I'm okay." I smiled.

Ha, the greatest lie. I'm fucking okay.

"We both know you're not." He chuckled, sitting beside me.

I sighed and stared at the moon.

"Why don't you just leave him?"

His words were like salt. It's like salt that was rubbed on my wound. It hurts as hell.

I grinned at him. "If you asked that to the moon.." I trailed and pointed at the sky. "It would say: Why would Ieave my sky?" I turned to him.

"Why would I Ieave my sky?" I repeated.

He took a deep breath. "The sun loved the moon so much that she died every night to let him breathe."

I stared at him confusely. "Wasn't that supposed to be a 'he'?" I asked, raising a brow.

"Mhm. You're like that type of sun. You'd die for him. Just for him to be happy." He stared into my eyes.

"People do crazy things when they're in love."

Suga snickered and stood up. "Should we go inside? I don't want us to catch a cold." He said, stretching a hand out.

I grabbed it, smiling and he helped me stand up.

I have very amazing friends.

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My roommate was supposed to be Athena but it became Jungkook. Why?

Because she said, she wanted to sleep with V. And V also wanted to sleep with her.

She was like: "Since you like, Jungkook. You'll be his roommate and you two can do your thing because we have to do ours. Okay? Bye, honey." She chuckled.

She's evil. She's a demon. She's using V's amnesia as an advantage.

I sighed, dropping my body on the bed.

"You don't really like me, right?" Jungkook asked as he fixed his bed.

I snickered. "I wouldn't like my boyfriend's best friend, okay? I mean, ex-boyfriend.." I whispered the last sentence.

I rubbed my eyes and closed it for a second.

I heard him chuckle which made me open my eyes again.

"But do you know that I like you?" He grinned at me.

My eyes widens at I turned to him, my jaw dropping.

"Excuse me? Do you hear yourself?" I groaned.

Jungkook? Like me? He must be kidding. His best friend, not really best friend, more like friend. Yeah.

His friend is my boyfriend- my ex- boyfriend.

"I'm not joking. But I can control my feelings, okay?" He grinned.

I quickly grabbed my blanket, wrapping it around me.

"Ya! It's not like I'm going to do something to you!" Jungkook frowned, throwing a pillow at me.

I chuckled at him, sticking my tongue out.

"We never know, maknae. Better safe than sorry." I laughed.

"Are you seriously teasing me?" Jungkook pouted. "I shouldn't have confessed!" He added, flailing his arms.

I laughed at his actions when suddenly someone knocked on our door.

"Come in!" Me and Jungkook yelled at the same time, smiling at each other.

The door swung open, Jin.

"Ya, your laughters can be heard! You two are so noisy. What are you even doing? Sleep already! Seriously." Jin groaned, scratching his hair and frowning at us.

"Hyung!"

"What?"

"There's a spider on your shirt."

"Wa-What?! Where?! Oh my god!" Jin started jumping up and down. He quickly took off his shirt, throwing it to the ground and stepping on it.

I covered my eyes and groaned. "My eyes! Agh. It's not virgin anymore." I cried.

I heard Jungkook's laugh, which made me take off the hands that covered my eyes.

Jin stared at Jungkook angrily. "Maknae, are you seriously messing with your hyung?" Jin groaned.

Jungkook laughed so hard that he was panting. "I'm sorry.." He laughed again. "It's just.. so funny to see you like that!" Jungkook snickered, making me laugh too.

"Both of you stop laughing and go to sleep!" Jin growled, wearing his shirt again and storming out of our room.

"Did you see his reaction? Oh god." Jungkook panted, rubbing his stomach.

"You're crazy." I commented.

"Is that a compliment? Maybe I am." He stopped laughing and looked at me. "I'm crazy for you." He winked.

I grabbed a pillow and threw it at his face. "Ew! You're cheesy! Shut up!" I frowned. I could feel the blood rushing to my cheeks.

"Look who's blushing."

"Jungkook!"

"Ayie, just spill it noona. I know you want me too."

"Ew, seriously Jungkook!" I chuckled.

And that night, was full of laughs. Jungkook do knows how to make a person forget something for a moment.

But it's still not enough to cover the sadness that's in me.

It will never be enough.

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