Lost [bts; k.t.]

21 - Chance

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"Bullshit." I muttered under my breath as I slammed my fists on my bedroom's door. I felt my fists, stung as I walked back to my messy bed.

Two days. It has been two days since that incident. That incident that broke me. I haven't talked to the boys even if they tried to call and text me all day.

It was annoying. My phone kept ringing so just turned it off. I don't want to meet anyone, yet.

I don't want to talk to them, I don't want to see them. I'm too messed up to do so. The sweat dripped from my forehead towards my neck.

It was hot. The weather right now is so hot which irritates me so bad.

"Are you willing to hold on to my heart?"

His voice echoed on my head. The way, he stared into my eyes. The way he made me fall in love with me.

It was all coming back. The feeling. It felt amazing. It was still fresh in my mind.

But

Now, it meant nothing. When I saw how Daphy leaned into Jungkook as she gave him a peck made all of those feelings go away.

The feelings of hurt, betrayed, hatred and scared was the only thing that was in me. It was the only things I could think about, right now.

The way they hurt me was bullshit. It didn't feel good, it didn't felt amazing it only did one thing. It fucking broke my soul.

It broke my soul, my heart and my life.

It broke everything and it happened two fucking times.

My eyes started to water. Ah, Jeon Jungkook and Kim Taehyung. You really are best friends.

Suddenly, someone knocked on my door. "Ree? Ree! I know you're in there!"

It's him. It's his voice. There was a part of me that missed his voice and there was a part of me where I despise it.

"Leave me alone!" I yelled, jumping into my bed as I wrapped my blue blanket around myself.

"Ree, please. I didn't mean to lie to you!" He pleaded, pounding his fists on my door.

Tears continously flowed out of my eyes as I tried to stop it. I bit my lip, trying to stop the tears from coming out.

It's going to be okay, I repeatedly chanted in my mind. I probbably look like some crazy old lady.

"It's just.. Daphny needed me!"

"Bullshit, Jungkook! I needed you too!" I yelled back as he pounded on the door.

Should I give him another chance? But that's like stabbing myself. I couldn't risk it. It already happened for two times.

"Ree! Ree!" This time the voice was different.

"V-V..?" I stammered as I stared at the door. Kim Taehyung is here. He's freaking here.

I bit my lip. I miss him. I miss their voices. They're all idiots but I fucking miss them.

"Oh god, Ree. Your voice. I missed it." He said, slamming his fists on the door.

"V..? Aren't you supposed to be at the hospital?" I asked, staring at the door.

"When I heard about what happened.. I came." He said, nervously as the pounding stopped.

He came. He came because of me. My heart started pounding. No, Ree. You've already let go of him. Now is not the time-

"Can we please talk this out? Locking yourself wouldn't do anything. " He spoke again, distracting me from my thoughts.

Talk? Him? Me? We're gonna talk? Is he right? Maybe I'm just being too selfish.

I stood up and walked towards the door.

"Talk? Since when did you ever want to talk me?" I replied bitterly as I took a deep breath.

"Ree. Atleast message us. We need you. I need you." His last sentence made my heart ache. He still needs me?

I quickly grabbed a notebook and rippped a page. I tried to find a pen on my desk and luckily, I did.

Fine. Let's talk. Grab a pen.

I wrote. Maybe this will be good. I quickly folded it and slipped it under my door.

"What's this?" I heard V ask. "Get a pen, quick! Before I change my mind." I said, biting my lip.

Suddenly a paper slipped under my door.

Give him a second chance.

My fists clenched. A chance? A chance to hurt myself, again? Oh god, no.

Do you know how much it hurts?

I slipped it quickly and for a few minutes, it hasn't returned yet. What's taking it so long?

Then it appeared again.

Please don't give up, yet. He loves you and you love him. I s-c--fice-d ----------.

Then the last words were erased by his pen. I frowned at it. I tried to read it, squinting my eyes as I looked at it closer.

I can't read it, ugh.

R: But he freaking cheated on me.
V: You don't even know the whole story.
R: What do you mean? I saw it with my own eyes, I was there.
V: It was a friendly date.
R: Friendly? She fucking kissed him!
V: She kissed him! He didn't kissed back! I'm sure that you saw that. Please don't use that excuse because you don't even know.
R: Says the guy who doesn't even KNOW something about the past.
V: Ree, that's a different story.
R: Different story? Bullshit.
V: Ree. He's so sorry that he lied, he didn't mean it.
R: He shouldn't have lied!
V: Ugh! Daphny's fucking sick, okay?! She's sick! It's her last day tomorrow here and she's moving away and her last wish is to spend a day with Jungkook!

I stopped breathing so heavily. She's sick? Then why was she a nurse? I.. I don't get it.

R: Why was she a nurse?
V: She said she wanted to help people before they die.
R: Then why'd she kissed Jungkook?
V: She likes Jungkook. But she was just testing you. She's letting go of Jungkook, Ree. She didn't mean the kiss.

I stared at the piece of paper in my hands. I was so selfish. I didn't know the full story. I hate myself.

R: I didn't know. I'm sorry.
V: it's okay, it's no one's fault.
R: V, can ask you something?
V: Uhm, sure..?
R: When you look at me, what do you see? The girl you loved or the girl you left?

I waited for a few minutes. The paper hasn't returned yet.

It's almost an hour.

I silently opened the door and found the paper on the floor. He was gone.

The girl I left.

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